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myOtaku.com: Fae Tsukiakira


Friday, February 4, 2005

  Greetings again my beloveds...yet again I have been roaming elsewhere...I am sorry for that...my life is rather bland currently...Tonight I am to be in the company of my dear friends so we can all view movies...I love them very much so...I am trying this step back into the church...It appears to be going well...Yet I still can feel the presence of a darkly shadowed veil resting upon my mind...whether this transformation is possible or not I still remain unsure of...No matter how much one immerses me into the light I shall always remain enclosed within the night...time shall soon reveal all...The Innocent Demon is climbing the fractured ladder in hopes of having her wings replaced but if this gift is not given then I shall tumble back into the immorality and lusting temptations...

And here is a new song I wrote during Worship...religious or not you can still see my style is still very much there...

"Untitled" Jan. 30, 2004

While searchin through
My desolated soul
I gazed into the eyes
Of my eternal tormentor
The memories swam to me
Coiling tightly about my neck
My hands gashing through
This despairing rope
Broken body
On my knees

Mercy, Mercy upon me
I scream to the cloudy skies
Seeking salvation
Yearning immortal peace
Melt my frozen chains
Break my hardened heart
Let the lava of your love
Scorch its trail through my life
Take me back to the Son
I revolve around

Struck down and lieing still
Praying for release
Temptations draw close
And whisper lust into my ears
Desire and wants stretch
Reaching for my grasp
My hands collide together
Coming to a fold
Time to leave
Time to break

Mercy, Mercy upon me
I scream to the cloudy skies
Seeking salvation
Yearning immortal peace
Melt my frozen chains
Break my hardened heart
Let the lava of your love
Scorch its trail through my life
Take me back to the Son
I revolve around

The fog is departing
As is my pain
Shackled no more
Freedom in Him
Released to His arms
Darkness nomore
Forever sunshine
Forever his presence
(C)2005 Amber Sadoy

And for the next few entries I shall be placing up some problems that Only Christian Goths face...

"being called a satanist, even though you wear a gigantic cross."

My non Christian friends keep turning my cross upside down."

"Will my friends think I'm too 'preachy' if I wear my ICTHUS fishnets?"

"I"Would I do this if Eric Clayton was in the room with me?"

problems in church :

- having parents move their little children a few rows further away when you seat yourself.
- when the pastor talks about heathens in his sermon and everyone turns to look at you.
- a new church member attempting to 'convert' you.
- when you are praising God in quiet, reverent worship, your bangles / rings / necklaces etc are loudly jangling .
- getting your tights / stockings hooked on the seat / pew in full view of everybody.
- you ran out of waterproof eyeliner, and after a little bit of a drizz during praise and worship your eyes make you look like frankenstein (or the bride of) [hmm..or robert smith on a bad makeup day!]
- getting up / down the steps (if any) of the church in your heels / huuuge boots (woe betide you if your church has a wooden floor... "clop, clop, bang, thud, clop, clop, bang, thud")
- if you're female : the peopel behind you moving further to your left / right because they can't see over your dramatic hairstyle which you've piled on top of your head with Victorian ringlets.
- if you're male : forgetting to take your carl mcoy black stetson off when you seat yourself, and the ppl behind you asking you to take it off in order to see the lyrics
- going to a church gathering after church, and when you arrive they take off the don francisco cd and put on a Christian country album (it's the only thing they have with a beat) in order to make you feel more comfortable [ok, ok, that is highly unlikely to happen.. in mean, why would they try to make you feel more comfortable?? hehe, just kidding!!]
- visiting a new church, and the security guard follows you from your car to the church because you are "suspiciously dressed"

Farewell all...
*bloody kisses and black roses*
~The Innocent Demon~
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