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myOtaku.com: Fallen Angel


Wednesday, May 2, 2007

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Mood: Kind of bitter
song: Weight of the world~ Evanescence

Hi everyone.

First off, before I go on. I was tagged. So I have to post fives things about me.

1. I'm blonde, but I dye my hair black
2: I act brave when i'm watching scarey movies but inside i'm saying "holy shit! Don't go in the closet!"
3: I'm very insecure about myself. And always think about going down the wrong path.
4: I have a "weiner dog"
5: I'm a BIG animal lover. And I'm one that dresses them in pet clothing X3

alright. Now I tag

LystikinenaXP
chezaswulf
Iruka Sensei
loveless-sara
Koneako

post five things about yourself, can be anything

I'm kinda of bitter today. I found out who in my class gets into split demensions. And it definatly isn't me. I wasn't so mad before. But now I found out Lizzie (this girl who gets the fatest head when she gets a solo) got into split AND concert choir. And she's the biggest F***ing braggart. And she's clingy to one of my friends. So I have to hear it over, and over, and OVER! *grumbles a few cuss words and kicks the wall*

Don't get me wrong! I love the fact that I got into concert choir! I really really do. I just hate it when people rub things in your face like she always does. And I also hate it when people who talk constantly in her class and get in trouble get rewarded like that! She talked for, like, three quarters of the year and still got in. Unlike me who never talked, always participated, and at least tried my best and still didn't get close according to Mrs. Nevens.
She should be in concert not split.

I'm sorry everyone, i'm just the type of person who is bitter I suppose. But this just is pissing me off. I hope some of you out there can see where i'm coming from at least. And are not thinking of me as a envious person.

OUr last concert is on May 23, and she never did look up my song, but instead got everyone elses that suggested in. I don't get it man...I really don't. *sighs heavily* I don't think Mrs.Nevens likes me for some reason.

I think i'm going to cry. I've been doing better in school and everything, but it seems like nothing I do is good enough for some reason. Like i'm not good wnough for people, for life. But I still have to hang on no matter what. No matter how much it hurts.

Sometimes I wonder if i'm a good person, a good singer, drawer, friend, daughter, anything in general.

I mean I have friends....but...I don't know...sometimes I feel fake. Really fake....

obviously i'm not a good enough singer. Either that or my nevers fucked everything up. either one sucks. And I wonder if i'll be good enough in the real world. Or will my emotions take over...

Lately i've been annoyed of my friends at school. Not really annoyed...I just want to be alone more lately. I don't want to be bothered. Talked to.

Man, my mom needs to get ahold of a counciler soon. I dunno. I've been having thoughts on rather cutting myself accually will ease the pain. Or being anorexic, will I get prettier faster. The only people who tell me i'm pretty is my family, which is a BIG slap in the face. I mean...you know they're just saying that because they have to.

And my cousins are making the wrong choices. Saying their life is so shitty. That their parents don't care about them. At least both parents want them around. My dad couldn'y give a damn...I guess he never can drink enough to say he loves me...even over the phone. Even if he did I know it's fake.

I know I probably am sounding fake to you, but...I dunno. I don't think I can prove it to you.

Tomorrow we're going out to plant trees. For global warming week. I get out of my 3rd and 4th hour, which is good, I really need a break. I'm really starting the countdown untill summer.

Sorry for such a long post.

Untill next time
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