Friday, January 6, 2006

   Fran-tic tic tic tock
sooo.. a couple months and some screwed up relationships later.. Im back.. and kickin. Really... I've never felt better.. sure.. ive met alot of guys.. but none i consider boyfriend material.. that'll prolly be a while. I'll never get the whole.. "no time for a relationship" bullshit.. if you've time to hangout and kickback someone.. you've time for a relationship.. doesnt make it serious. Maybe thats what it took me so long to realize.. that and how strong I really am to stand alone.
Trevor's still my friend, even when we were together, we'd promised eachother we'd never let go.. and I think our lives are better with us both in em. His a saucey bastard.. and I love it, I know when to and when not to take him seriously, I know what he likes.. what he hates, and same goes for him knowing so much about me.

so... with info like that its either keep 'em close or kill 'em.

come on now.. i'm not THAT violent.
Comments (2) | Permalink

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

   Kiss me deadly
Ya know... I'm really starting to think this whole love thing is over-rated. And I'm dealing with it.. thank god for all the friends I have around. Too bad they're all guys though.. so many guys and no boyfriend XD Oh well...
Trevor still comes over alot.. and it hurts everytime. Is it worth the torture if I can still be his friend? Or should I erase him from my life forever? It would prolly make it easier to move on.. or I coul miss him even more...

bah. Hum bug.

- Fallen O
Comments (4) | Permalink

Sunday, November 6, 2005

   Help fpr my head??
yesh.. I'm mess.

Well, last night was cool.. nice to have alot of my friends back together for a drink. Trevor even came by.. thats confusing me lately... maybe a break was all we needed, but I cant even stand to be around him lately and I'm thinking about us... and I hate it. Gawd... this is fucked up. How can I even start a relationship for the someone else I like if I've still got these feelings for my ex. I'll never be okay will I? I'm fuckin' destined to be alone, fo sho XP.

Anyway.. the "party" was alright.. I was drunk off half a flask... as usual.. which is sad, but cheap XD.
Fonda and Shawn couldn't get in town, what a surprise. But oh well, only like 4 days and I'll be back home for almost a week to see them ^^
Can't wait tilll Saturday, going away party for Greg.. gonna be sad though.. but great to see everyone again.

Gotta go study math... ttyl.

Moofin
Comments (3) | Permalink

Sunday, October 30, 2005

   Everyone's dyin to get the disease
Yesh.. well, Its Sunday adn before I start my holy day of rest and study my fucking ass off for my biology exam tomorrow- I think I'll post a little entry.

So last night Janett called and invited Brad and I to Maggie's party- so we went of course, and downstairs Ashley gave me her half flask of Ice Vodka.. which was awesome.. though it burned to drink it straight.. like that stopped me.. though I was lucky enough to pic up some pepsi to help me finish it off XP

Ya know.. i have to worst luck ever. I locked mysle fout of my room friday, had to spend the night at my ex-boyfriends, spent Saturday walking home and looking for Brad at the library to get my keys, missed the fucking movie that I wanted to go see with Ches and Trevor cause they were being dicks.. and now this morning I see that I was stun and put Brian's ICE CREAM CAKE in the regular refridgerator.. where it liquified XP
Again, I am peachy fuckin keen...

Later days bishes,
Moofin
Comments (4) | Permalink

Saturday, October 15, 2005

   Whoot!
Wow... I'm feeling way better!
Last night we went to a party with Jess, Ken, Ken's boyfriend, and Brad. I liked it.. one guy was soooo drunk he introduced himself like 5 times all round, and then went looking for the measuring cup so he could bake a cake... fun times...
Then we left that party and woddled up the road to another party.. but that one was fun and less excited.. so Jess and I made our way home around 1:30, which was early and Brad tried to get into the club downtown but didnt, and he used Andrew's ID and got it taken by the bouncer.. tee hee...

And Shawn was supposed to come in from back home last night.. but he couldn't get a ride in after work... I really look forward to his visit, he was way nice to me when Trevor and I were breaking up... hmmm... maybe something would happen.. he makes me laugh.. he cheers me up, thats all I need right now.

Anyway, his mom's bringin him in next weekend.. so that'll be cool...
Comments (2) | Permalink

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Broken Hearted
Sooo... this is how it goes, eh?
Seems a little unfair really..
It's over now, he's been messing with my head for way to long and I know I dont deserve that.
He gave up when e promised he never would...
so buh bye I guess...
I'll move on,
once I don't feel so broken hearted and stop crying myself to sleep everynight,
someday I'll be alright
Comments (3) | Permalink

Friday, September 30, 2005

   Boys suck!!!!! (sorry)
Trevor- the long time boyfriend (and by long I mean 2 freakin years) wants a 3 month break to clear his head and focus on school.. yeah.. right. I'd rather him break up with me then put me on freakin hold for 3 months... but I love him so its difficult.. and I'm supposed to just wait for him?? waste 3 months waitin...? I've no idea what to do really... and a best friend we share, Shawn, is making things worse... he wants me to go out and see other guys "intensly"... but maybe he just wants that guy to be him!? haha.. Trevor would really like that... his best friend picking me up when he's letting go.. but then again- he's the one that wanted this "break" so f**k him!!!!!!!!!!!! :domo:
Comments (2) | Permalink

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

   Dark Light
So, I was way wxcited today when the new HIM album was released in Canada- I talked Brad (one of my roomates) into coming to the mall with me and we hitched a ride on the bus. When I gto there I was stoked to buy the limited edition one- but it turns out its only sold in selected stores and I was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! And nearly had a fuckin melt down in the store, but Brad was all happy and cheered me up. So I bought the regular album.. and we went for ice cream, I bought a brownie earthquake and I couldnt get half of it down. Then we went and waited for the bus home, adn we got on the wrong route and had to wait on the bus for twice as long to get back to the apartment. I love the bus... so many different people get on... and I like people ^_^ Some girl told me she liked my hat, that rocked. i love my hat, its black with silver sequins around the rim... I'll post a pic of me in it once I find out how... its the sex. Any way... then Brian and I sat and watched all the crazy visualization as my cd played- I totally recommend it- all you HIM fans won't be let down- and that always excellent. I hate it when you really like a band for the music they make and then they put out something that dissappoints you.. thats how it went for Linkin Park- I mean... I loved them, now- not so much, although Chester Bennington is still a hot muthafucker that I totally would wanna screw- thats no reason to like a band. Its all about the music kids, remember that.

Anyway... out to terrorize the roomies- Later days,
Fallen the Moofin




Comments (2) | Permalink

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

   back to myself
yt again.. i have become addicted to drawing.. i even skipped off two classes yesterday, out of three..lol, just to draw- luckily I didn't miss anything new ^_^ anywho.. I'm posting a few new pics so please check them out, vote, and tell me what you think of them ;)
Love ya'll,

Fallen O
Comments (2) | Permalink

Wednesday, September 7, 2005

   Yesss!!! Friendly welcoming!!!
Thank you all! *bows* I love it here and I plan on sticking around too. Whoot! Anyways... new layou ain't even started yet... cause I'm sharing a computer as of now... four of us- sharing the internet on one computer until our land lords buss out and purchase us a router... grrr... anywho- later dayz.
Comments (2) | Permalink