Monday, December 11, 2006

   another day
i kno a why me bull shit.
i finished my history novel homework. teachers think we dont have live or other classes i suppose well i got 8 of them...

i hate the sone Punk Rock Love. i thought i had that. weni hear it.. it makes me kinda sad but happy at the same time. i just got rid of this guy about 3 1/2 months ago. and still hear that dumb song my the casulaties. it makes me think of this person...

my dad is like ur a genius. im really not. he like u better merry some one smart not some dunce.

idk its likei wana end up with an intellgent guy so i wont end up like my mom. but i wana end up with someone who inspires me. not cause of money.

LMFAO, my dad thinks i type fast. not really. my dad asked me "are all the guys hitting on u?" i was like "no..." why should i?"

off topic...i had bad relationships with my "better" halves. lol not really better actually but not so better. i have an issue to trust someone to get close (especially emotionally). I wana trust him... but i cant. i jsut cant. its not him at all, its all me.. and my ways. Who i am (Im SCARED to fall in luv again, not a second time but a third time. but i gotta push certain emotions away till im ready to show them... IM CONFUSED!!!! i thinki am falling for this person. i dont wana tell them)
but sometimes i wonder why me? outta all the other women.
who knows he mite have another ladee on the side. yah kno? and all i am is like just use em and leave em. cause i cnat trust anyone but 2 ppl and they kno who they r.
im not that grand. im not that intellgent. im also not stupid. i didnt know that depression was even a word till the end of 7th grade, or even kno it was a mental problem.

i also had a facial today! it was fun. well i really did. wow i sound like a girlee girl. wow.

my dad jsut came by me to refix the computer. not this one of coarse. im tired. and i miss my baby. wat can i say its life. i onlygot liek 3 mins left on my prepaid. il put 20 dollars on there wenever i get money well extra money. cause i gotta buy a few gifts for ppl.
LMFAO my dad is putting th wrong internet on the other puter. or maybe he changed the service. idk but its funny.

wat made me really happy is that the song The Reflex was on the radio it made me smile and sing along.

Idk wat to do about my relationship. i want it to go some where but i cant let it. not now atleast. i dont wana rush myself. some times i think he wants everything TOO fast. i just cant do that.

I think i wana become a suicide girl wen im older.


i want 2 piercings wen im 18
corset piercing- http://images.google.com/images?q=tbn:XGVD4h_oWNtbtM:http://tn3-1.deviantart.com/300W/i/2003/2/4/9/corset_piercing_v1.jpg
anti eyebrow- http://images.google.com/images?q=tbn:Fz_pahomtJJT4M:http://piercethis2.iuplog.com/uploads/9496-363CA71F-6665-4FAF-9217-6CB34764A03E_thumb.jpg

then after i have kids i want 2 more corset piercings only on the sides ^_^


i jsut feel really down...
well im gonna go ttyl bbyyee
Comments (1)