Tuesday, May 24, 2005

   hey things are looking up for me thanx every onefor all the support and all the things that all of u did when i own hell and turn it into a skey resort u all shall have free life time passes and a free life time suply of DOUNUTS!!!!!
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

   im doing better now she is in a better place and the sun shins every day. day in and day out but things will get better hey thanx u 2 u guys really helped me out and i appreicat that a grate deal^^
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Monday, May 16, 2005

   hi im back and the funeral was this weekend so i went...i cried...and now shes gone for ever.
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Friday, May 13, 2005

   yay such thing in life suck realy bad but every body has to deal with some things but i just had to get it purty bad and am being forced to deal with it *shig* by for now.
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Thursday, May 12, 2005

they tried to cheer me up to day by saying it wasnt my falt and i will find some one else or at least thats what she would want they are probobly right that its not my falt but that dosnt stop me from felling guilty i mean if i wasnt going out with her she might have said yes and her life would be saved but all beacus i asked her first she is now dead and im stuck hear on this earth with no one to love and i cant get the look on her face the last time i saw her............. it was the most horrible expression i have ever seen and then she asked me why and the last thing i said to her was beacus i love u...
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

   live life ha life has no real meaning it is just put in front of u when u are boarn and taken when ur dead so there is nothing worth having in life beacus it is all taken from u in death so in thes troubled times i find no meaning, no point, and no reson to live sence all is lost beacuse my girlfreind was shot lats night beacus she said no to another guy...
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

   one of my best freinds died last night and i just got back from the funeral *sigh* life is harsh and crule i wish i could just die
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Monday, May 9, 2005

   *twich*.......*twich*......i hate mondays*twich*......*twich*
deepresed feelings
Roses line the steel grey fence.

The Thorns draw blood from my fingers,

which reminds me I'm alive...

The petals are the only thing that sustains me,

the only colour,

the only softness within my grasp.

All my sorrows are spent within this second,

and in this one breath..

Are all that belongs to me.

Thinking of You
Ever sence you left
I've been thinking of you
Everyday I think of you
When I wake up in the morning
To when I go to bed at night
I think of you

I think about all the times we've been together
All the great times and the fun times
Either when we were with our friends
Or when we were alone, togeter

I miss all those wonderful times
So, I set here, alone
Thinking of you


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Friday, May 6, 2005

You and Me

I wish to feel your touch,
To be yours forever,
I wish to find my way through the cob webs,
To be with you,

I hope my heart will guide me,
To help me down the right path,
I hope for more light,
To guide my way,

I feel your presence lingering,
To far away to hold on to,
I feel my heart beating in my chest,
To many beats to count,

I am lost in my own thoughts,
To hold you close to me,
I am lost in my own plans,
To be together forever I want to be,
You and Me.



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Thursday, May 5, 2005

heartbeats
Within every beat of my heart
I feel yours inside of mine,
they beat as one
maintaining perfect time
Within every beat of my heart
I hear yours inside of mine,
Our chance to be together
The beat says it's nearly time.
.Within every beat of my heart
I feel mine loving you
,And with every beat of yoursI know your loving me too.
Within every beat of my heart
It hurts when you say good bye,
And within every beat of my heart
Drops another tear I cry.
Within every beat of my heart
I miss you so much more,
The beat grows ever louder
Until it's a thunderous roar.
For within every beat of my heart
Inside I feel the pain,
Right now mine beats alone
And I'm missing you again.
With every beat of my heart
I need yours here to stay,
I miss you all the more
Everytime you go away.

thats just one poem i wrote today enjoy^^
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