Monday, March 27, 2006

   sorry people i dont have time now so ill talk to u latter.
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Thursday, March 23, 2006

  

Look Inside Yourself -- Deeper Questions
What do you hate most about the world?:	stupid polotics
What do you love about the world?:	people
If America were to fall, what would be the cause?:	anti-war polotitions
What is man's greatest threat?:	woman
How will the world end?:	nuclier war
What would you kill for?:	Lindsay
What would you die for?:	Lindsay
What do you live for?:	Lindsay
Do you want to live forever?:	no
What is your biggest weakness?:	lol Lindsay
What is your greatest strength?:	Lindsay
What do you want to change about yourself?:	nothing
Tell me your thoughts on God.:	he is my lord
The Devil.:	he is the embody ment of all evil
Heaven.:	it is there
Hell.:	i will rule it
The human soul.:	a pure entity
What is your worst fear?:	losing Lindsay
What makes you happy?:	seeing Lindsay
What are some of your regrets?:	death
Who do you look up to?:	Adam(my stepdad)
Who looks up to you?:	lol suprisingly a lot of people
Is revenge the answer?:	sometimes
What is the best way to get rid of an enemy?:	become thier freind
What do you want to be remembered for?:	my passion and love
Would you rather learn from your mistakes/sins or have them forgiven?:	both
Confess some of your more recent sins.:	fighting with my dad
What is your deepest, darkest secret?:	....lol sorry ur not getting that
Do video games and rock n roll caus violence?:	no
What was your last...
Dream?:	last night
Nightmare?:	3nits agao
Time you cried?:	lol last weekend
Time you laughed?:	today
Person you loved?:	Jessi
Person you hated?:	my father
Person you talked to?:	Scot
Lie?:	1 month
Big loss?:	Jessi
Big mistake?:	lol sorry privat
Law you broke?:	um...2 years agao
Rule you broke?:	haha today
Thing you broke?:	my heart
Proud moment?:	holding lindsay in my arms
Big accomplishment?:	???
Person you hurt (physically or emotionally)?:	lol my self
Have you ever... and why
Been discriminated against?:	yes and i have no idea
Been made fun of?:	yes just beacuse
Wanted to die?:	yes when i lost Bre
Hurt yourself?:	um...well...yes
Attempted suicide?:	yes
Wanted to kill someone?:	yes
Wanted everyone to die?:	no
Gotten into a fight?:	lol all the time
Pretended to be someone or something you're not?:	yes
Had sex?:	very close
Watched porn?:	hahahahaha yes
Masturbated?:	yes right now (lol not really)
Committed a crime?:	yes
Done drugs?:	yes
Consumed alcohol?:	yes
Smoked?:	no
Been caught doing something "bad"?:	yes
Broken a promise?:	not resently
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

heya
In the glow of a silver moon,
With a whisper on the wind.
A cloud as dark as doom,
Shed over he who sinned.

A heart made cold with guilt,
A soul has lost his way.
He wanders without will,
His conscience gone astray.

And in the beating of his gait,
A voice calls in the night.
Filled with chill and hate,
with vengeance and with spite.

He tries to block it out,
To turn it all away.
But the voice becomes a shout,
It's tone cannot allay.

"No fleeing for the doomed.",
It calls in a venom hiss.
His heart now so consumed,
with guilt he cannot resist.

For under the shadowed sky,
For in that very night,
He willed a man to die,
Killed him without fright.

His dying voice is bold,
accusing of his deed.
Though his vengeance he does hold,
It's repenting which he needs.

He knows what he has done;
Regrets what he did not.
And in the absense of the sun,
He knows he has been caught.

With a pounding heart,
Without a fleeting glance,
His fear he let impart.
He will take his chance.

Swiftly as the night,
Silent as the moon.
He leaves behind what's right.
Goes off to meet his doom.

But still in his beating heart,
Forever it remains.
The voice there from the start,
binding him like chains.

hi all sorry i cant get on much any more but ill get on ocasionally. okies by.
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Friday, March 17, 2006

   you are the air i breathe and i dont want to suffocate.

you are the reason i live for that i will not die.

you are what stops my heart every kiss you give, yet it pumps again with your soft touch.

you are my happiness in this bleek exsistance.

you are there even in my dreams.


at times you and i are lost in moment together.

but i love you most of all because you love me.

lol sorry its been a while iv been supper bysy.
but any way how are all of u right now im in the libary at school listaning to Twisted Trasistor by Korn on my PSP lol great song. well this week has been really stresing and yet really kinda good. well im doinggood on my grades right now (big suprise!). well tusday was kid of weird lol and suprising and also nerv raking beacuse i was talking to this teacher and a girl in my class walked up and grabed me in a very unapropreyet place in middle of my conversation. lol sorry but gtg all by.
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Wednesday, March 8, 2006

   The milky moon and shining stars,
Shine down on us with grace,
Radiantly glowing in the night sky,
As I gaze upon your face.

The fire in my heart begins to burn,
And I know that you're to blame,
As I peer into your eyes- so stern,
You appear to want the same.

You look so precious and innocent,
And I am yearning for your touch,
This passion makes us both relent,
As we yearn to feel so much.

Our lips meet and I savor the taste,
As our hearts mold into one,
There is not one moment left to waste,
Not until this night is done.

Tonight, my love, you are perfection,
As I lightly embrace your skin,
We needn't worry about damnation,
For our love is not a sin.

Our bodies and souls melt into one,
Our passions will not die,
Our love is fulfilled in our abandon,
As we lay beneath the sky.

I pray for one last kiss my love,
This night has gone too fast,
For each and every star above,
Has no light left to cast.

Wherever I go, whatever I do,
I will never stop thinking of you,
For when the stars shine so elegantly,
Their undying light leads me to you...
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Friday, March 3, 2006

We Are

We are the dead,
The broken, hurt, and maimed.
Throughout the extensions of time, we have naught to gain.
Our lives are lost, our souls long gone.
We are the dead, the beginning of a new dawn.

We are the lost,
The crippled, sightless, and shamed.
Forever is gone and only eternity remains.
Lives long gone, never to be seen again.
We are the lost, the eye of time’s hurricane.

We are the forgotten.
The desolate, shattered and forlorn.
Gone is the happiness and smiles that only memories bring.
Soul-less wanderers of a forgotten time,
We are the forgotten, those who were unable to shine.

We are the empty.
The vacant shells seen only by the arbiters of life.
Blank eyes stare into nothingness, seeing nothing, feeling no strife.
Hearts long gone, broken with time.
We are the empty, those concealed in the fabric of time.
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Monday, February 27, 2006

Once again, here I am being ignored.
Lying broken on the cold, wet muddy ground,
clothes tattered and torn.
Pushed off to the side,
as if I’m some old, dirty doll.
Only to be used when you’re bored,
or having nothing better to do.
So play with me,
bend me to your will,
to use me as you please.
Do whatever it takes with me,
to have your amusement fulfilled.
After all, that’s what I am here for.
To be Life’s Little Toy.
(sorry a little dark but still good)
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Thursday, February 23, 2006

I dreamt last night..
that you were by my side..
my first class goddess..
with me in my dreams..
you held me close.
in my time of need..
you were with me..
there in my dreams..
my christmas wish..
i dont ask for much..
i want you with me..
you held my hand..
kissed me..
and i vowed to be with you forever..
you are my dream..
my love..
the woman whos in my dreams..




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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

   hey sorry i have not been on but heres a valenties post:

please understand my feelings for you hasn't change i still love you with all of my heart and soul i'll never stop loving you as long as your with me always
please understand that i'll never leave your side until the end
please understand until that day comes i'm always by your side and looking up to the star filled sky and even if this world is ending today my love for you will never end cause i have you with me that i understand....
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Friday, February 10, 2006

@#!%%^$#@!......*sigh*.....well i cant stay at lindsays house for the night but i at least get to go over
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