Monday, December 11, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ Kinda late post today. ^^ Anywho, my Monday started out pretty crapy, but it actually ended fantastically! ^^ Well, for a Monday at least--hehe. The site change is still in progress (as you can see) and I'm still not sure on the next theme (and I just thought of another one in History! lol) Well, nothing much else happening today--so I'll be visiting. ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ Dang...it's getting close to Christmas, isn't it? Ha! I'm still definately not in the Christmas spirit...maybe if I changed my site...hmm...Well, I usually get into the spirit once school's out--lol. Weeeee! I started Kingdom Hearts again yesturday! Yesss! Haha! But I'm cheating this time *shhhh!* hehe cuz I have the strategy guide and I wanna find out if there's anything I missed--cuz I'm pretty sure I'm just like major pro at that game *smirk* All I've found so far are quicker ways to level up--I'm still on Destiny Islands though lol. I'm sorry, I just LOOOOOOVE beating the crap out of Wakka, Selphie, Tidus, and Rikku (ESPECIALLY Wakka---he's annoying!) The funny thing is, you can win Wakka and Selphie just by blocking/countering their attacks---and their own weapons will hurt them! lol. Everyone enjoy your Sunday! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts OMG I have the urge to change my site! Something like...angels and demons...or something. OMG must change site!!!

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Saturday, December 9, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ Wow...yesturday sooooooo did not feel like Friday--but I'm glad it was ^^ Well...not much going on today...reading...and more reading (laugh) but they're good books *thumbs up* I hope to write some more too...I have about three story ideas floating around in my head (including the one I posted earlier) so we'll see if they slowly form onto the page--lol. I got to see everyone yesturday--woot! Late though, so check yesturday's post if you haven't already... Ugh! My life is so boring. -_- I need to do something..... ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Friday, December 8, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ Well, tis Friday once again--and I have a big load of reading to do again over the weekend, plus two book reports. -_- But oh well--that'll be delt with later. Anywho, I found music for my site yesturday! *YAY!* Not sure if it quite fits, and it starts off REEEEAAALLY quiet...kind of like a heart beat or pulsation...I'm sure at least a few of you recognize it though, "Beyond The Wasteland" from Fianl Fantasy VII Advent Children (when Cloud is on the kickass motorcycle beats thingy--lol and is attempting to fight off Loz and Azoo, yeah...it's a really awesome song. Heck, it's an awesome soundtrack!) Well...I'm feeling a little better (emotionally) for the time being, and I thank you all for your concern and friendship. ^^ OH! And thank you soooo much to those who read the begining to my story yesturday! *huggles* I do love feedback, and have posted the story again below for those of you who were not on yesturday or whatever. Sadly, I didn't have time to write anymore--but I will, oh I WILL! ^^ I had to go to the hospital Wednesday. It wasn't an emergency or anything...but I had to get an ultrasound cuz they think that there MIGHT be something wrong with my ovary..but I doubt it... It was really weird in there though...the hospital is huge and looks very much like a university...except that it's (on the outside) two shades of pink...The hallways were long, and made me feel like my eyes were zoning out...unfocused. And then there was a girl...probably about two years older than me...just laying in one of those huge hospital beds (the rolling ones) and she was just there forever! I wondered what was wrong with her...cuz she had an IV...I wanted to comfort her or something...but it looked like she was trying to sleep...I don't know... Hehe, I couldn't help but laugh when we passed the ICU though...hehe, I'm sorry, but the first thing that comes to mind when I read that is "Peek-a-boo, I see you!" Hehe, but yeah...it took forever though -_- and the gell was really hot against my skin and the little vibration picture-taker thingy...and *shutter* twas very uncomfortable. -_- The weird feeling made me gag on the very air I was breathing too!--bizzare. Well I certainly have talked too much now -_- Enjoy your Friday everyone! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ It's absolutely absurd when a story idea pops into your head very late at night when you're supposed to be doing homework---It's what I live for. She did not understand, she could not understand. This boy was her life, her fairy tale dream...love had blinded her, she thought, for surely she would have had the sense enough to not speak of it, her true feelings...but no, the intoxicating touch of love, of hopes and dreams, had clouded her sanity. Now she knew...love is but a vision of pure light, ever soothing, ever gentle, ever protecting...an illusion to hide the true darkness enveloping one's heart, consuming it. And when the heart is completely engulfed in that perpetual dark abyss? Bang. The bullet rips through your very soul, and the true essence of love is revealed...darkness. Yes, the girl knew this all too well...now that her soul had been pierced...now that her spirit within was weakening...fading...forming into a never-ending cascade of blood... Blood. Her body and mind was stained with it. Blood...so much blood...in all the years of her life she had never seen so much of the substance ooze forth from a single individual...Why? If she had succeeded in holding that violent tongue of hers...this never would have happened...if only... Her smooth, pale finger touched his lifeless lips...never had lips been purer, lovelier...divine...a silver tear fell upon them... She knew she must move quickly—they would be arriving in just a few moments...(just a few moments...oh how they could last longer than one could bare...) but she found not the strength to stray from his side, nor to carry him along. She felt alone...lost...banished from the light that he had shown her...damned, damned lips, she silently cursed to herself. If only mine had been silenced in place of his... She ran her finger along the soft flesh, desperately longing to kiss the one she loved, her prince charming... She would have stayed there for all eternity, unmoving, if it were not for the warning. Though his spirit had barely passed, it pulled at her soul's chins...Run, it called, leave him, baby. Don't fall for his sake. But she would only heed half of the order. She did, indeed, run—she ran with all her might. Ran with every ribbon of strength she could find in her broken heart through the deadly silent streets and on toward the eerie forest to the North...her true love still cradled in her arms. Leave him, the spirit pleaded; he is but a burden on your shoulders. The sickening taste of hopelessness rattled through her body, yet she ran on, exhausting the very life from her body, weaving in and out of so many trees, trampling over countless midnight flowers in the full moon. Blood foamed at her lips and choked her airways. It spewed from her mouth, splattering the lifeless body in her arms, those motionless lips. Any and all comments would be very much appreciated. ^^ I just wrote this a few minutes ago, and it's my first draft so it's, of course, not yet perfect. Please give your most honest comments and suggestions, thank you and hope you all have a great Thursday. ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Thursday, December 7, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ It's absolutely absurd when a story idea pops into your head very late at night when you're supposed to be doing homework---It's what I live for. She did not understand, she could not understand. This boy was her life, her fairy tale dream...love had blinded her, she thought, for surely she would have had the sense enough to not speak of it, her true feelings...but no, the intoxicating touch of love, of hopes and dreams, had clouded her sanity. Now she knew...love is but a vision of pure light, ever soothing, ever gentle, ever protecting...an illusion to hide the true darkness enveloping one's heart, consuming it. And when the heart is completely engulfed in that perpetual dark abyss? Bang. The bullet rips through your very soul, and the true essence of love is revealed...darkness. Yes, the girl knew this all too well...now that her soul had been pierced...now that her spirit within was weakening...fading...forming into a never-ending cascade of blood... Blood. Her body and mind was stained with it. Blood...so much blood...in all the years of her life she had never seen so much of the substance ooze forth from a single individual...Why? If she had succeeded in holding that violent tongue of hers...this never would have happened...if only... Her smooth, pale finger touched his lifeless lips...never had lips been purer, lovelier...divine...a silver tear fell upon them... She knew she must move quickly—they would be arriving in just a few moments...(just a few moments...oh how they could last longer than one could bare...) but she found not the strength to stray from his side, nor to carry him along. She felt alone...lost...banished from the light that he had shown her...damned, damned lips, she silently cursed to herself. If only mine had been silenced in place of his... She ran her finger along the soft flesh, desperately longing to kiss the one she loved, her prince charming... She would have stayed there for all eternity, unmoving, if it were not for the warning. Though his spirit had barely passed, it pulled at her soul's chins...Run, it called, leave him, baby. Don't fall for his sake. But she would only heed half of the order. She did, indeed, run—she ran with all her might. Ran with every ribbon of strength she could find in her broken heart through the deadly silent streets and on toward the eerie forest to the North...her true love still cradled in her arms. Leave him, the spirit pleaded; he is but a burden on your shoulders. The sickening taste of hopelessness rattled through her body, yet she ran on, exhausting the very life from her body, weaving in and out of so many trees, trampling over countless midnight flowers in the full moon. Blood foamed at her lips and choked her airways. It spewed from her mouth, splattering the lifeless body in her arms, those motionless lips. Any and all comments would be very much appreciated. ^^ I just wrote this a few minutes ago, and it's my first draft so it's, of course, not yet perfect. Please give your most honest comments and suggestions, thank you and hope you all have a great Thursday. ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Wednesday, December 6, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ Well today has been better -_- but that doesn't say much...I have all of my easy classes today--vs. tomorrow...when I have Algebra 2, Honor's Chemistry, and English -_- I think I'm gonna change my site again (laugh) but I don't know...haven't found the right song yet and I don't care too much for white backgrounds, but we'll see...what do you guys think? Well, I do believe I did get around to commenting on everyone's sites yesturday. Yay! ^^ So yeah...that's what I'll be doing (since it's lunch time right now...) ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Tuesday, December 5, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ Wow...what a fucking horrible day *smile* *sigh* Well, I crashed, just as I suspected...I crashed big time. I've cried three times today so far......Fuck...I'm so freaking stressed out right now I just don't know what to do! -_- My grades are lower than what I thought they'd be, I'm still pissed off at a stupid, insane idiot (Michael) AND whenever I get just slightly emo, my mind brings back all of the shit that I've gone through---then I get totally pissed off at myself because I absolutely HATE self-pity and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I swear, that's what I want to do! I want to drive. Just drive and drive and drive until I find a grassy plain where there isn't a single human being, a single living soul for miles, get out of the car and scream my fucking soul out. Just scream out all of the pain and anger and sorrow--just get it all out so I don't have to fucking deal with it anymore. But that's life for ya, isn't it? Shit...oh yeah, another thing---no trip to Japan this summer, oh no. It's just too freaking complicated for the school to set it up this year, so there's gonna be a trip to Japan next year--maybe. Or, you know what? Oh second thought, there might be a trip in two years, no maybe three--Fuck! Just don't even freaking announce that there's a possibility for a trip to Japan if there isn't!!!! Ahhhhhhhh! >< *sigh* Well, I'll be changing my site today---it'll give me something to concentrate on other than the fact that I'm pissed off at life again--and the lolipops, cookies, and Cheetos aren't helping this time...I'll try to visit too...if I feel up to it. ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Monday, December 4, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ Hey! Late post today peoples--sorry -_- I was doing homework for most of the weekend...but Punie got it all dones! ^^ *dances in a little ballet circle, arms raised in an oval arch* hehehe! ^^ I hope you all had a fantabuloso weekend! I had a pretty good one--and all of the reading I had to do was actually enjoyable--yay! ^^ Not much to say tonight (laugh) except I'm going to bed early because my eyes are super tired (to the point where they hurt!...computer screens probably don't help though-lol) Well, tootle-lou! haha ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Saturday, December 2, 2006

~Sometimes a dream is all that you have left to hold on to~ YAY! 9 peoples commented on Punie's post yesturday! That's a record right there! AND 550 visits!!!! *squeeeeeeee* lol Well, not much happening today...I found a job at the mall that hires 16 year olds! *sigh* still have a few months to wait though...oh man that's gonna kill me! lol I don't get it...you have to be 16 JUST to stuff little teddybears for the little children?!!?!? Haha! (I'm talking about TeddyCrafters...if any of you have heard of it...) A lot of work -_- but it's been a good week--AND only two weeks and then 3 days of finals til Christmas break! Yessssssss! ^^ Speaking of Christmas...Dream Love asked *clears throat* demanded that I tell him my Christmas wish. (hehe, you can reconnect my head to my neck now :D hehe, jk) Well...I don't really know...I guess it would be to find a guy I really connect with...who will be there for me and let me be there for him. So far...I've had HORRIBLE luck...I've never dated anyone, which is quite pathetic at my age (or so it seems...) but when I do, I want it to mean something. I'm not gonna date someone just to date them, cuz that would just be pointless and waste both of our time...so, "Santa"....just bring me the one. (How was that Dream Love?) ^^ Everyone enjoy your Saturday! ~ Fantasy Hearts

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