Friday, September 15, 2006

   FINALLY!!!!

E-llo! ^^ OMGosh!!!! ^^ Thursday was such a FANTABULOSO day!!!! ^^ To tell you the dead truth, I was pretty darn emo...like, you do not even know (I cried about 10 different times in 24 hours!!!!) four horrible, interminable weeks of another high school year and FINALLY I feel great about how a single day went!!!! Dang...it was, like, everything went in my favor. Just the thing I needed! Thank you, Father.! ^^ Anywho, I forgot to tell you! Rehearsals are going FANTABULOSO!!!! I'll tell you more about it in my next post! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

   Konnichiwa! ^^ Sayonara! ^^

Konnichiwa! ^^ A quick post today...I'll have a longer one tomorrow--cuz you KNOW you just LOVE those! lol So...umm...nothing much happening today...Umm....ha! I can't think of anything! Anywho, how do you like my site makeover so far? Hmmm? I'd LOVE more feadback--good and bad! Please let me know of anything that I need/could add too! ^^ -sigh- Gakuto! ^^ How are all of you doing? Hope you have a fantabuloso day! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Testing....

Hey! ^^ Okay...I THINK I'm beginning to figure this whole "table" thing out - lol! Just a few more adjustments... -bites lip in concentration- ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Monday, September 11, 2006

   PLAY!!!! -twitch, twitch- PLAY!!!! JAPANESE!!!! -struggles to breathe- GACKT!!!! -colapses-

OMG OMG OMG!!!! I start rehearsals today! YES!!! -victory dance- I can't believe it! -squeek- I'm SOOOOO excited about this play OMG I can't even freaking tell you! ^^ For all of you peeps that don't know yet, I got cast for my high school fall play called "In a Grove" and it consists of four ancient, mythical Japanese ghost stories that tell the tale of how an entire village was completely destroyed! -que that spooky music- OMG! I'm soooo, like, jumping up and down right now! To celebrate, I'm gonna wear my red and gold Asian silk shirt that my aunt and uncle brought me from China (they went to visit my aunt's relatives and whatnot), black dress pants, and some new Asian style jewlery I bought at Target yesturday! Yay for me! ^^ Ooo! Gonna put my hair up in a bun too with chopsticks, Yup-yup! ^^ Can you tell I'm excited yet? lol OMG! I hope I can get the director to play Japanese songs during the pre-show and intermission and stuff! OMG!!! Gackt, Malice Mizer, Miyavi! -sigh- That would totally and completely rock my world! ^^ I CANNOT WAIT to find out what part I get! YIPES! I'm so nervious...hope I get a lead! But any part will be ubberly fantabuloso too! ^^ Wahahahhahahahahahaaaaaaaaa!!!! Woot, woot! -turns on Gackt's "Vanilla" on full blast. Sings along- "Boku wa...Kimi no...Vanilla!" (Music solo) "Baaaaa ba da da da ba da da daaaaaaa!" Weeeeeeeehehhehehehehehehehe!!!! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts P.S. I can't take it anymore!!!! Gackt it is peeps! GAKUTO--MY LOVE!!!! (Hee, hee!) ^^ Transformation will begin to occur imediately!!! So prepare thyself!!!! ^^ -drools on keyboard- (JK!!! J(the freak)K!!!!!

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

   Gackt, Fair, Play, Bleach---Yup yup! You know you're interested now!

Hmmm....I'm not sure...should I change my theme back to Gackt already? Or should I wait? Hmm...I'm siding more with Gackt, but what do you guys think? I mean, I totally love Fruits Basket, but I think that I could make my site cooler with a Gackt theme, music, video, and picture wise...but you let me know. ^^ Ooo! ^^ I'm going to a fair today! ^^ I was ACTUALLY invited by a friend to go! Yay! Somebody loves me! lol I'm obviously keeping that friend--she's really nice. ^^ Thank you Jenae!!!! Well...think that's all that's happening in my life--OOoo! Rehearsal's for "In a Grove" start tomorrow! ^^ But I'll write all about that "tomorrow morning" (in other words, at 9pm tonight cuz of the time differences-lol) Ohh!!! Wait, wait! ^^ I watched the premiere of Bleach in English last..er...this morning (12:30am) on Cartoon Network's Adult Swim! It's a goodly show so far! ^^ When he said he was 15 I was just like OMGosh! No way! He looks older! (Psh, maybe because I think everybody who is taller than me is older than me--lol!) But yeah, I cannot WAIT till next week! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Saturday, September 9, 2006

   Yumm, yumm! ^^

Well, lunch went well. ^^ Michael insisted on paying for me...but he could not stop me! Hehehe! Me winnded in the end by paying for myself. ^^ We ended up just getting smoothies which were ubberly goodly! I got a Peach one with whip cream! ^^ The only problem was....I was late to my World Studies class! YIPES!!!! That's like, one of the worst classes to be tardy in because of the punishment the teacher (Mr. Barry) gives us for being late... If a person is late, they must sing "I'm a little tea pot" in front of the class! Hahaha! And you have to do all of the gesticulations, or hand movements(for all of you uneducated peeps--JK!), so yeah--hella funny when you don't have to do it, but pretty bad if you do! ^^ Well, luckily for me, 3 other students were tardy as well, and one of them sang really loud, so I didn't actually have to sing, just lip-sync. Hehehe! ^^ Oooo! This morning was SOOO fun! ^^ It was funny, my friend Rizu and I were just talking about food for a while on instant message! L. (the freak)O.L.!!!! Me pretty happy today. ^^ It's one of my cousin's 5th birthday parties today ^^ So that's where I'll be ^^ Oh! lol--only two people read my English paper, but thank you so much for your comments! They ment a lot to me. ^^ So a big ubberly fantabuloso thank you shout out to the78thdude and Jaguar! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Friday, September 8, 2006

   La la la.....

Hiya! ^^ Well...not much interesting going on--wait...OMG! There IS!!!! I'm going to lunch tomorrow with a friend! Yay! ^^ I've only been off campus once throughout my entire high school experience so far! Hehe...it was kind of sudden too...I mean...I was just talking to one of my friends that I don't really get to see anymore cuz we didn't get any classes this year...and then I had to go cuz my dad got there...so I said see you later and the guy said, "Oh, well I can see you tomorrow if you want." (which is kind of a weird statement...but anywho) I said, "Okay, where should we meet?" and HE said, "If I can get some money how about lunch?" I hesitated (which probably scared him--tee-hee! But I was recalling the time when my kinda-sorta stalker asked me to lunch--which I hurriedly declined...but I ended up saying yes to this guy. He's really nice ^^ I think...he might like me...MORE though....that might be a problem...but I'll just take it day by day. ^^ Well, see you all later! ~ Fantasy Hearts P.S. for those of you who were interested...my made-up person English paper is in the post box just below ^^

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   I really know this person -whistles while looking around the room-

Hiya! ^^ Okay, here's my stupid English paper I had to write about a "Wild Woman" in my life-lol. Keep in mind that I wrote most of this during lunch, hence not spending very much time on it....so it's far from my best work, but, hope you enjoy anyways ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts It seemed like a pretty safe bet at first. Both of us regretted even going to the get together in the first place, and so that is how we found each other's eyes peering out from opposite corners of the room. She nodded slowly through her long black bangs, indicating that she was fully aware of my existence, something that no one else seemed to bother even trying. Unaware of what I was doing, I stood and took the countless steps to the other side of the room with hesitance. During this time I carried out one of the automatic human habits that we all perform each day. I judged her. She was a thin girl, not extremely tall, but taller than myself. Her hair was pulled back from her face (except those long, chunky bangs) and was gathered into a messy yet elegant bun at the back of her head. I searched in vain for any indication of emotion peeking through her pale skin and endless-pool eyes. As I neared her, I put out a shaking hand. She was on her feet before I could even introduce myself, and a pale, black-finger nailed hand enclosed firmly around mine. With a quick jolt from her steady arm I was pulled a half a step closer to her. "Ayisha Villmen." Her words were an icy whisper that numbed my already startled mind and senses. "A...Ashley Stevens," I stammered back. Now, from this first description, one might judge Ayisha as a depressed, "gothic" teen with a quiet nature and cold exterior. This is what I believed from my first impression of her. "Yes," I thought, "this is a very safe bet indeed." I had pictured us sitting there for the duration of the party, silent, undisturbed. Oh how I was very wrong with this assumption, for I was completely oblivious as to what was going to happen next. It was around the time when the old boom box was plugged in. To my surprise, the group actually played songs that I had come to really enjoy…she was apparently fond of them as well. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see a silent smile trickle up Ayisha’s delicate cheeks and sense a type of energy or driving force bubbling up within her. She must have been holding in her passionate emotions (unknown to me at the time) for a while by the time I had even noticed them, for, right in the middle of the song “Move Your Feet” she sprang up off of the floor and started dancing. She was very talented at this. It was only when I got to know her more that I discovered how she felt about music. How it coursed through her veins and that, those quick dance moves, somehow, actually calmed her mind and relaxed her rather tense muscles. I will never forget that moment. The shock of seeing a shy, quiet girl (such as myself) completely transform in a matter of seconds right before my eyes. To witness the joy exploding through the tips of her fingers and her eyes, almost illuminating them, to stare in awe and wonder as her previously emotionless face unraveled into a beaming smile. Her giggles alone lit up the whole room as she gracefully swung her hips this way and that, side stepped, and swung her arms to and fro. This Ayisha was not what is considered “emo” today, nor was she as quiet as I thought she would be...I guess she just had to...open up. After this incident, I no longer underestimated the extent at which Ayisha could choose to be either an introvert or extrovert, but never did I think she could message that power onto me. That day was a particularly overcast one, when our friendship was still green and being molded. It had, in fact, rained that morning, for I remember the dew drops sparkling with the sun's brilliance on the periwinkle petals. The two of us were walking to school, for (as I found out after her first little dancing outburst) she had recently moved to the street that branched off at the end of ours and so lived just around the corner. We had hung out the night before, spending countless hours at the park letting the gentle breeze sway us while sitting on the swings or lying on the crisp green lawn gazing up at the stars. I cannot recall most of the things we talked about during that time; after all we had just met a few days before, and so were still getting to know each other. The next day, however (after we had been dismissed from our first class of the day) she brought up one of our previously discussed topics with another person: video games. Ayisha and I had discovered (while pointing out the big dipper in the night sky) that we both felt very passionate about the Final Fantasy game series, and so, I found it very easy to fall into the smooth cradle Ayisha had built for me. Even though I did not know the person she opened the conversation up to very well, I did not tighten up or nervously stumble over what I wanted to say (like I usually did back then.) This fact scared me at first, for I would have never noticed if Ayisha hadn't pointed it out to me on our walk home from school that afternoon. "Now that wasn't so bad, was it?" All I could do was look at her, utterly puzzled. She giggled and gently nudged me with her elbow, "Talking to that guy about F.F." Despite my hardest efforts, a small gasp was emitted from my lungs. I smiled, in embarrassment at first, but then in joy. No one was ever able to make me do such a thing before, and I felt so blessed for Ayisha giving me that simple gift of comfort in a situation I previously would have run away from. That day, I believe, was the beginning of a change in me, and through the passing months, Ayisha further nurtured me into being fully relaxed around others and unafraid to be my own person. Ayisha and I no longer see each other. Shortly after our second semester together started, Ayisha and her family were forced to move to Indiana for her mom's job. Unfortunately, with her went the gift she had given me. Mourning the loss of contact with a dear friend, I slowly began to wither away to my past self. Through time, I had snuggly fastened the mask back on that Ayisha had so meticulously and gently pealed away. I had lost all hope, once again. Then, out of the blue (pure Ayisha style) I received a letter in the mail. From the look of things, it had been lost several times, and so, had traveled through at least three extra states than what it should have. I read that familiar handwriting: "E-mail me sometime about Final Fantasy, will ya?" If my brother wouldn't half laughed at me about my silly idea to frame that e-mail address of hers, I very well would have. It's been a little more than a few years since I put that mask on, but I'm slowly pealing it off again. I feel that I have to...it's my promise to the "Wild Woman" in my life: Ayisha Villmen. Yeah...it's long--but you asked for it! lol ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Thursday, September 7, 2006

Konnichiwa! ^^ And Sanks yous to everyone for all of your wonderful comments ^^ I still haven't made it past 10 comments though -tear- but I guess I'll get there eventually-lol Anywho -sigh- I won't find out what part I'm gonna be in the play until Monday! So far away!!!! But I'm so ubberly glad I got cast in another one of Jason's plays! ^^ He's a pure GENIUS with the theatre and I can't wait to start! ^^ Well, today I didn't meet up with my "friend" Mandie during lunch because she's pretty much been pissing me off...with the whole not even bothering to invite me crap...so I went to the library. I was SOOO gonna get on here, but the librarian was watching me like a hawk! lol--when it get's later in the school year I should be able to sneak....anyhow, so I worked on my English homework-UGH! It's kind of fun though...the assignment is to write about a "wild woman" that you know (I know...weird) and whenever I'm told to write about my personal life, I always make it up-L.(the freak)O.L.! and they can NEVER tell! ^^ This time, like the last few times (hehehe) I'm writing about one of my characters that jumped into my little noggin one day--I love it when they do that! ^^ Anywho, I MIGHT post it if any of you are interested to read what my mind can make up in place of a real person-Mwahaha! It's very entertaining...doing that, cuz I make the person all of the things I want to be, along with things that I've seen and really admired in other people that I know, like the friends that I instant message ^^ So the made-up person turns out to be quite the combination, indeed! Well, let me kow if you're interested (which you most likely aren't-lol. But it's all good, either way.) See you all laters! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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Wednesday, September 6, 2006

Konnichiwa! ^^ And Sanks yous to everyone for all of your wonderful comments ^^ I still haven't made it past 10 comments though -tear- but I guess I'll get there eventually-lol Anywho -sigh- I won't find out what part I'm gonna be in the play until Monday! So far away!!!! But I'm so ubberly glad I got cast in another one of Jason's plays! ^^ He's a pure GENIUS with the theatre and I can't wait to start! ^^ Well, today I didn't meet up with my "friend" Mandie during lunch because she's pretty much been pissing me off...with the whole not even bothering to invite me crap...so I went to the library. I was SOOO gonna get on here, but the librarian was watching me like a hawk! lol--when it get's later in the school year I should be able to sneak....anyhow, so I worked on my English homework-UGH! It's kind of fun though...the assignment is to write about a "wild woman" that you know (I know...weird) and whenever I'm told to write about my personal life, I always make it up-L.(the freak)O.L.! and they can NEVER tell! ^^ This time, like the last few times (hehehe) I'm writing about one of my characters that jumped into my little noggin one day--I love it when they do that! ^^ Anywho, I MIGHT post it if any of you are interested to read what my mind can make up in place of a real person-Mwahaha! It's very entertaining...doing that, cuz I make the person all of the things I want to be, along with things that I've seen and really admired in other people that I know, like the friends that I instant message ^^ So the made-up person turns out to be quite the combination, indeed! Well, let me kow if you're interested (which you most likely aren't-lol. But it's all good, either way.) See you all laters! ^^ ~ Fantasy Hearts

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