Monday, August 6, 2007

:Date:
5 August 2007
:Time Start:
20:59
:Listening to:
"Devilish Kidnapper" ~ The Candy Spooky Theater
:Mood:

::Fucked Up::

I fucking hate life sometimes. {as you can tell, this is a rant post, so feel free to ignore}
Just found out that another one of my friends found "the perfect guy" for her, making practically everyone but me "happily taken".

Maybe I just don't deserve to find that...but...to tell you the truth no matter how much I want it, I don't think I can love. I just get so fucked up in the head when I hear a guy likes me or I hear that they think he likes me that I go to overdrive. All senses are completely wiped from my mind. Gone. I can't think if I like him back or if I would even want to try to like him back. It's happened 4 times in the last two yearts {I know, not impressive at all} but it's starting to really bug me cuz I never have any clue what to do, and so I become bitchy to them in that I start to play with their emotions. I'm majorly screwed up.

...but I'm just so fucking tired of feeling alone and like a piece of shit.

:Listening to:
The empty world I shut myself in.
:Time End:
21:15

{Fantasy Hearts}
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Saturday, August 4, 2007

:Date:
1 August 2007
:Time Start:
21:39
:Listening to:
"Young Bride" ~ Midlake
{an English song for once xDD}
:Mood:

::Needy::
{yes, again}

So this morning L + Light fantasies kept popping into my head oO I don't view Yaoi cuz I'd rather not see that kind of stuff, but I was thinking about cosplaying L, and then the whole thing with him and Light handcuffed to eachother entered my thought capasity, and then I said to myself that I'd make my boyfriend {if I had one *laugh*} dress as Light...and it kind of took off. It wasn't anything nasty, let me assure you!!!! Gah, but it was interesting...

I ran/walked about 3+ miles ^.^ It felt good. Walked with my mom in the morning and ran with my MYV music in the evening. Gah, I need an iPod though--I had to carry around a stupid portable CD player -_-;;

Mata ashita

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Friday, August 3, 2007

:Date:
1 August 2007
:Time Start:
21:41
:Listening to:
"MASK" ~ Dir en Grey
:Mood:

::Needy::

Alright peeps, I need some help xDD
So school starts in about 2 weeks and I want to start up an Asian Club--have any ideas of activities we could do/how to get people interested in coming to it?

I've been listening to Dir en Grey A LOT lately. Before they were way too loud, but I've come to like loud music as well as softer *shrug*

Today {Thursday} I didn't eat anything until dinner {pizza}. I'm gonna try to just eat one meal a day from now on, and continue with my 2+ mile-long run almost everyday. I'm not overweight, I just want my face to thin out, damn it.


:Response To Comments:
TigerFantasy17-
"xDDDD haha....I personally prefer MYV as a guitarist but yes..he does make you fell like that...perhaps it's cause he's so full of life.."

THAT'S IT! lol, that's what I was trying to say about him: he's so full of life xDD



the78thdude-
"Nice! I love new phones. Although it is annoying to have to put in all the old numbers. That sucks you had a bad day but some days are just like that. AND MIYAVI FTW!"

Actually, the phone store transfered all of our info to the new phones, so no re-entering numbers ^.^
Umm...what does "FTW" mean? Haha, for some reason "Fuck That Woman" keeps ringing in my head and I'm certain that's not what that means xDDD

:Listening to:
"Ma Charie ~Itoshi Kimie~" ~ Malice Mizer
*sniffle* I miss them sooo much T.T
:Time End:
21:59

Mata ashita

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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

:Date:
1 August 2007
:Time Start:
16:27
:Listening to:
"Kekkonshiki no Uta" ~ Miyavi
:Mood:

::Hyper::

Welp, decided to post today *beams*

We got new phones Sunday--camera flip phones cuz there was a special deal.

I had a bad day at work Sunday, but eh there was nothing I could do about it.

My Japanese lessons are going very well {currently learning from a computer program} I've learned Hiragana and am starting on Katakana and basic Japanese sentences/verbs.

I can safely and proudly say Miyavi is my favorite Japanese rock artist. I just get a deep sense of being alive when watching/listening to him. He's just living his life and making music and enjoying the ride life is taking him on. I love it. ^.^ *huggles her MYV*

Sayonara!

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Sunday, July 29, 2007

:Date:
28 July 2007
:Time Start:
22:13
:Listening to:
{my sister's playing her Wolf's Rain soundtrack in her room and I can hear it XDD}
:Mood:

{tired}

Well I promised myself I'd post today xD

Two friends came over Friday, spent the night and we went to the mall. Icings had a really good sale (10 items for $5) so my friend and I got a few things each and checked them out together. We ate Hibachi-san Japanese Grill, which is awesome ^.^ No chopsticks though *sniffle* And I was so disappointed when Borders didn't have the first volume {manga} of Yamatonadeshiko Shichihenge {The Wallflower} but oh well...I'll get it next time.

I've been watching Ouran High School Host Club...now I know why everyone seems to like the twins xD but it's a really good series. I'm also watching Death Note and it's very entertaining.

Sorry for the boring post XD I thought I had more to say, but eh I forgot or something hahaha

:Response to Comments:
the78thdude --{about the skirt} I work at Target but they have a special designer section right now and they had the gothic lolita style skirt woot! LOL! I was actually planning on posting a picture of me in the skirt, but we'll see--I still don't even have my cosplay up yet xD

somegirl -- lol, yes very, very familiar theme xD I feel like changing it though, but I love this song!...I'll have to put up another Miyavi theme or something *is currently listening to him*

Peace yo!

{lol, sorry AngelicCat, I just had to copy xDD}

Your Dream Vampire Boyfriend(Girls only) by Cainesgirl101
Nickname
Zodiac sign
Your dream vampire-guy	Shoulder length black hair, and red eyes. Dark clothing and described as entrancing.
How you met	You stumbled across him wounded after a fight with another vampire- for whatever reason, you help him and he is grateful.
The first thing you said to him	My name is _______
Where you two ended up	He comes to you in the dead of night to tell you that he must leave, and that he will never see you again. So for that he asks you to come away with him and leave everything you'd ever known.
His favorite thing to do to you	He loves making you blush, and usually whispers flattering comments in your ear as he holds you from behind.
Will you end up as a vampire	Yep- eternity with him at your side.

:Listening to:
"Senor Senora Senorita" ~ Miyavi
:Time End:
22:48

{Fantasy Hearts}
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

:Date:
23 July 2007
:Time Start:
19:41
:Listening to:
"Spilled Milk" ~ Dir en grey
{LOL! Is that the actual title?!?!}
:Current Mood:

::excited::

Yo! Haha, I think I'm gonna be coming and going every few days perminantly from now on XDD This summer has been really busy, but it's been the best in a good few years, so I'm really enjoying it.

Work is still going well and I just got another check for about $250 woot! ^.^ I know it's not very much compared to, like, full-time workers, but I'm really enjoying the moola! I need to get out of the habit of spending all of my money though! lol, I need to start saving for Japan {which I hope I'll still be able to visit through a foreign exchange program my high school is trying to organize for next summer} and other things. Last pay check went to buying a treasure chest full of merchandise from Sac Anime and this pay check has gone to buying a digital camera for myself. My aunt picked it up for me Sunday. It's an Olympus {very good brand} and it was on sale in a little package. I also had her pick me up a little memory chip that holds about 1000 photos. I'm excited.

Oh! OMG I totally almost had a heart attack today at work! {okay, not really} Cuz there was this cute gothic lolita lacey, frilly skirt to die for! I spoiled myself :3 It was kind of expensive but with my memeber discount I was able to hold on to a few bucks more lol

Last section! I uploaded some fan art, yay! {a very rare occurance as I'm not to fast with my drawings and lack certain skills} so I'd really appriciate it if you guys checked them out, thanks in advance ^.^
I'm still working on uploading my cosplay from the three-day Sac Anime {I have to shrink the pictures since they're monsterous and Otaku has a limit} so hopefully I won't be too lazy and upload those soon.

That's all for now! I visited everyone today, Monday {except for two pages that just wouldn't load for some reason, sorry--I'll probably just go pm you right now as a comment}

Mata atode!

:Listening to:
"Yokan" ~ Dir en grey
:Time End:
19:53

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Friday, July 20, 2007

:Time Start:
21:14
:Listening to:
{Watching Death Note episode 14}
:Current Mood:

touched

Yaa! How are you all doing? Haha, sorry I don't post very often anymore...but I understand my posts get pretty lengthy at times, so I guess it evens out.

My Miyavi CD came in the mail a few nights ago!!! Weee! I ordered MYV*POPS, and now I personally own four Miyavi CDs just like that XDDD {I bought three at Sac Anime}

My best friend that I haven't seen in forever came and visited me at work today with her boyfriend!!! OMG I was so touched I ran to her and practically tackled her, stepping on her foot in the process *blush* I was seriously tearing up because I had missed her so much. It was wonderful: our conversation picked right up as if we had been hanging out together just the other day, and her boyfriend was really friendly as well {he's a Final Fantasy fan--woot!} and I felt very comfortable around him. I'd write more details but I don't want to bore you people *laugh* but if you're truely interested, pm me and I'll give the full story. Anywho, I'm attending her Sweet Sixteen tomorrow {bowling and sleepover} and it's gonna be a blast, I know it {even though 4 people have now flaked out on her--LAAAAAAAAAME!!}

And get this, I was giving her details on attending Sac Anime and she totally wants to go to the next convention with me! *squeak!* So the three of us {her, her boyfriend, and I} cosplaying Final Fantasy X/X-2 for Sac Con in September!!!! ^.^ I'm so happy to have come back into contact with her it makes my life so much less lonely. I drew her a picture last night for her birthday of Rikku and Yuna and I'm submitting it to my puny fan art XDD along with a moogle/chocobo fan art I promised myself weeks ago to color, yet never have XDD

Today's movie: the trailer to Death Note: The Last Name


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Oh, I am going to be changing my site to Death Note--more specifically L {most likely} because I really fell in love with the series through the movies {though yes, I know they are not very accurate in terms of the manga/anime} and am now watching the anime woot!

Everyone enjoy your weekend!

:Time End:
22:34

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Monday, July 16, 2007

:Time Start:
19:37
:Listening to:

"Kekkon Shiki no Uta ~Kisetsu Hazure no Wedding March~ (Solo)" ~ Miyavi
(lol, yes that is a very long title XDDD)
:Current Mood:

Completely satisfied ^.^

Konbanwa!

Yes, yes I know--I went M.I.A. again XDD But I swear it's all for a good reason! I went to Sac Anime from Friday-Sunday wooooooooot!!!!

It was my first anime convention and OMG it totally blew me away! My sister and her best friend and my cousin and two of her close friends went together and we had such a blast! I tell you, ya gotta go cosplaying if you're gonna go--almost everyone does and it's so fun having people ask for your picture and address you as the character and shit (haha, sorry I usually curse when I'm excited). I went as someone different each day (cuz I think cosplaying the same character every day would just be boring!) so here's the line-up:
Friday - Kyo Sohma from "Fruits Basket" (manga/anime)
Saturday - Mana-sama from "Malice Mizer" (Japanese band)
Sunday - Sunako from "Yamato Nadeshiko Shichihenge" (manga/anime)

Being Mana-sama was teh freaking shiznit, I swear! My cousin was such a sweetheart (who, by the way had dressed up as L that day and looked totally awesome with her Japaneseness ^.^) and was my voice for the day since Mana-sama never speaks. lol, so I was whispering to her all day long and it was very affective. I made one of the venue-seller's day ^.^ I was the first Mana-sama cosplay she has seen and she gave me stuff for free and major discounts. It was really cute because her booth/venue was pins, buttons, maginets, mirrors, etc with pictures of (mostly) J-rockers and they were all homemade. Gah! I loved every minute of it--but I wish I could have talked to her! *laugh*

Nothing much else to report. If enough of you are interested, I'll list the things I bought in my next post ^.^ OMG gah! All of you need to go to an anime convention A.S.A.P.!!! Okay? It's what being an anime/Japanese entertainment fan is all about!! Gah! I'm so excited hehe but it's over *sniffle* I felt sad waking up this morning and not getting into a costume, so I got dressed with all of the accesories that I got throughout the weekend hehehe.

OH!!! I believe I saw user Hikaru Hitachiin at the convention! I was too shy to ask though *blush* because I didn't know if my cousin would feel uncomfortable with me just stopping a stranger and asking them if they are an Otaku user. Well, if you were there and reading this post Hikaru Hitachiin, please pm me ^.^

Gah! I gotta stop talking. More details later my peeps XDD

Today's vid is...hmmm how about the "Selfish Love" pv because I'm soo obsessed with this song!!! Especially now that I purchased the CD at Sac Anime woooooot!!!! He's so hot with his new look and I just love a few little Miyavi moments in it hehe

Selfish Love

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I just don't know how he does it, but damn he's good at that guitar *kissy* ;P

:Time End:
20:40

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

:Time Start:
21:22
:Listening to:
Nothing *sniffle* I feel so alone

:Current Mood:

*whine*

*clears throat*
Aww, I love you guys! *glomp* 9 comments and I haven't even visited/been here in a while XDD I really do apologize for that--and I did comment on everyone who had a blue bar on their name today (Tuesday).

Anywho, I'm pretty tired. Luckily I didn't work today...I went to the orthodontist's though and got in trouble *teehee* I haven't been wearing my rubberbands. I guess I just said "screw em'" when school got out...but now I'm paying the price because now my rubberbands are so tight that I can only open my mouth wide enough to stick my tongue between my teeth. Ouch.

And to top all of that off my friend and I are discussing religion on instant messenger and we don't agree *sigh* Religion is such a heavy thing to talk about and it always tenses me up. I mean, we're not argueing or fighting--God no, but we have separate opinions and can't understand why the other thinks the way they do and okay I'm done ranting about it ><

Welp, just waiting for my "shiidii" to come *laugh* and have picked around midnight for my daily Japanese studying XDD It somehow works though--I'm remembering more and have now graduated to disc 2 of the course! Woohoo 8DD lol, happy days. So I'm gonna start including some romanized Japanese in my posts. Any of you speakers out there--please correct me; it will be very much appriciated. Oh! One more thing, lol, if any of you know of exceptional programs or packages for learning Japanese, please comment or pm me with the details ^.^

Okay, I'm done rambling for the day ^.^ I'll (hopefully) catch you all today and comment your sites. Thanks again for your loyalty. Doumo arigato gozaimasu *bows*

Today it's "Senor Senora Senorita" ~ Miyavi. Bonzai! It gets my latina spirits up XDDDD



:Time End:
21:43

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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

:Time Start:
21:27
:Listening to:
"Senor Senora Senorita" ~ Miyavi {LIVE @ LFX [01.18.06]}
:Current Mood:

"Eeep! 8DDD"

Konbanwa! I apologize for disappearing again *laugh* sorry, but it's in my nature.
Well, I was very happy to hear that you all enjoyed my little dedication/celebration of Gackt on Independence Day {his birthday, as we fans know it} It was quite entertaining trying to throw it all together in the 10 minutes I had XDDD

Anywho! I got my first pay check Friday! *mimics Miyavi's trademark noise* but the thing is {eek} I don't know what to do with all of it! I finally figured out which Miyavi CD I wanted to purchase first, and it turns out MYV*POPS won {it includes some of my very favorite Miyavi songs that I don't own already XDD}

A very exciting announcement for those of you who do not know yet {shame on you *laugh*}

Yoshiki
Gackt
Sugizo
Miyavi

All on the same stage. S.K.I.N. is here! Wooo! For all of you lucky ducks who got to see them at Anime Expo 2007, congratulations. You have officially recieved my loathsome vibes lol, jk but seriously, good for you ^.^ I cannot WAIT for this band to hit America again and if any of you would like to keep up-to-date on their actions, the official American site is here. Enjoy ^.^

I think that's pretty much it for the day--so hope you enjoy my latest Miyavi song/video obsession. GAH! Teh Blue Contacts--GAHHH!!! *dies*



:End time:
22:11 {lol, yes I get distracted 8DDD}

*Fantasy Hearts*
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