Thursday, February 1, 2007

   A Request From 'A Fire Within'. Poem: Straight From The Heart
when i was just a little boy my dady left me and my mom and my grandma use to scream

it was over stupid stuff that made me cry

and to me it use to seem

like i could make them stop if i would only try

so one day i just cracked

i asked my mom y they always had to yell

my grandma sed that it was mom's fault, that she didn't raise me right and wen my mom tryed to say it wasn't her fault she got smaked

i went sick to my stomach like when theres a bad smell

i didn't know what to do

i loved my mom but i loved my grandma too.

then mom took us away

we were in a new town with a new place to stay

and right when i thought everything was getting better mom gotta new boyfriend and we had to move

we went to chill at his place, i didn't like it but to my mom, there was nothing to prove

then he left us for some crystal meth

my mom was out of her mind and i could smell the weed on her breath

we moved back in with my grandma and it all started agin

my mom got a new boy friend and my uncle just got out of jail, thats when my whole world really started to spin.

mom and her friends were a lil to loud out in the front yard

my uncle came out with a baseball bat

mom just said 'dont worry he's just being a retard'

but my uncles a beast, he got real serious, and he was about to nock some one flat,

thats when all my mom's friends left

all my family started taking sides and when it was my turn to choose it was just to much for me to heft.

but i took my grandma's side

my mom almost disowned me and she didn't think i loved her anymore, she almost said she hated me

when i heard it all it hit me like a huge wave in a high tide

after a while i really thought i was finally free,

but it started agin and i almost lost it

i was hurting so much i just waned to throw a fit

so i locked my heart and threw away the key

i bottled up all my emmotions even though they would try to tell me.

they said it was bad for my health and eventually i would explode

i couldn't feel anymore, i couldn't even love

all i could do is hate and the hate was a torrent that never slowed

it was the only way i knew how to deal with it all, when push came to shove.

now my hearts rock hard

i cant feel but theres still a distant pain like i was stuck with a glass shard

im so lonely now with no one to look to

but im so hard now that if they offered help it just wouldn't do

i would say everything is fine

then my only chance at a connection would snap like a fishing line

ive come to like the things i use to hate

i figured if ur mizerable then take mizery on a date

but ive got a future and ive got a plan

but only if i can walk this mizerable path for one last span

what if i break under the pressure before im done?

doesn't my life just sound so fun?
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