Friday, January 11, 2008

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Hey everyone. I hope you have been doin good. I am slowly getting over Jesse. It's hard though cause I feel bad still and a little stupid but I guess those feelings will pass. Thanks for the two who commented on my post. YOur words were very encouraging and they made me feel much better. Hopefully I get all the bad luck outa the way so 2008 can be a good year.^^ Anyways.... I can't be on long. I gotta do some homework today soooooo see you all laterz!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hey everyone. I'm back now.... HAPPY NEW YEAR.... although i'm a little late on that..... So far my New Year hasn't been exactly good but I have it better than some.... Me and Jesse broke. O feel so sad... I really liked him but he said that he just feel the connection between us.... Oh well... I guess he got bored with me. Anyways.... school started back up again and I have to be busy again. I'm actually happy now cause it will help me stop thinking about Jesse. So how was your new year? I hope it has been good.^^ Christmas was great!! I got a brand new drumset and I got an ipod..... but I lost Jesse.... (STOP THINKING ABOUT JESSE!!!!!). Anyways.... I hope your holidays have been good. I gotta go for now. Just droppin by to say hey! See you all laterz!

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run away as fast as you can!

I'm stuck in some pretty bad things right now. I may not have a good Christmas either. Times right now are gonna get really rough. I'm about to get in some major trouble now. People are comming after me and I gotta get. I'm not really in the position to put my problem open to the public but I know that I should tell all of you that I may not be around a while...... exams are tomorrow and I may not even be able to take them. I'm so screwd I just wanna get outa here. I wish I was eighteen. I've fallen in some pretty deep shit.... oh God! Help me...... Please this may sound selfish but pray for me and Kikii....I'm not sure whats gonna go down but it may go down bad..... take care guys.

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sometimes...... you gotta be strong

My mother found out what Joe has been doing to me. She called his parents saying that she was gonna sue Joe for slander. I feel better now that she told his parents but I feel as if Joe may get violent. He may try to hurt me in a bad way. He isn't a good person and no one really believes me..... Only few people really know what is really going down.I talked to Jesse last night. He feels better now. He has been sick all week. He got me sick too. But I wasn't as bad. Both me and Jesse passed the driving exam! Kikii took the driving exam and failed it the first time but she took it agaian and passed! Yay! Now we can all get our lisences. Anyways, I have to go study for my exams. See you all laterz!

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...... I'm just so tired...

Well, I sorta fixed my rumor problem but I stopped that girl from sending me messages. She is so scared of me now. I told her if she is gonna disrespect me like that she has to do it in my face cause I wasn't gonna settle for what she was doing. I told Jesse what Joe was doing (spreading nasty rumors about how I am a whore and that I am a liar) Jesse said if he does it again he is gonna put Joe in his place. Jesse was quite pissed off cause he knows I'm not a whore or a liar. Joe tried to make my friends at school totally hate me. Most of them either beat him up or ignored him. Although, some did believe him and they treat me differently.... I guess they were not my real friends. But all the ones who backed me up are.^_^ You guys are my friends. thanks to those who gave me advice. I love you guys. I hope all of you had a good week. I have been getting over my week. Jesse came over today and fixed my mother's brakes on her car. Last night he took my whole family to eat a Chinese returant. He is so SWEET! He is my best boyfriend ever. I really really like him. He treats me so well.^^ I feel so lucky that I found him.^^ Anyways... my time on the computer is almost up so I gotta go soon. See you all laterz!

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!!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever had one of those really bad ex boyfriends that ruins your relationships with your new boyfriend and tries to make your life miserable? Well, I got one. He hasn't ruined my relationship with Jesse but he is so trying to. Man..... I told him that I don't want him. It's been 6 months since we broke up and he is pissed that I have a new boyfriend. He has had three new girls since we broke up and I think he is so unfair. I just got Jesse to be my boyfriend like two weeks ago but he swears I was cheating (with Joe) on him with Jesse! What an insane person! His new girlfriend is sending me terrible messages to me on myspace and I am PISSED! Next to that, me and Jesse got to drive in the car in Driver's Ed! I got to pick him as my partner.^_^ I was so happy but soon I gotta take my driving exam. You know.... So many people are trying to hurt me.... Here is the message that the girl sent me.... "You don't know me, and I really don't give a fuck if you ever do. But I just want to let you in on one little thing: You are the most sadistic bitch I have ever seen. You don't care the slightest bit if you hurt someone, let alone nearly killing them because of the pain that your capable of causing . How dare you throw around human beings like their just garbage and barely bat and eye? Obviously your heart is as cold as that pussy of yours, since no one wants to give your poor ass a good fucking. If a bus were to hit you, I wouldn't be the one to call the cops on you, I'd be laughing my head off because I know that not a single person really even cares about you. They'd be sad, maybe for like, two seconds I suppose, but that's all your worth. I hope you rot in fucking hell." That was so mean! I never would send that to someone. Never! And now she has pissed me off and I am in mean mode!!!!! I am in a terrible mood. I wanna scream! Anyways... I'm gonna settle this girl and I may have to fight cause I'm gonna get pissed if I see this girls face. See you guys later.

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Lets ride!

Today is Jesse's birthday. He is seventeen years old. I'm still sixteen though...... Only like 42 days till my b-day.... I'm so lame.... counting down the long days.-_-' So I have two essays I gotta get done before the 11th of this month. Yeah..... Exams are comming really soon and I gotta study cause I am so terrible at tests.... Well, I don't exactly have that much to say..... Oh I know.... I have pics of me and my friend Heather. I'm on the left heather too the right. I looked really bad that day.... But I don't look that bad do I? ^-^ Hey, has anyone heard of a band called Hed P.E.? I have been listening to them.... I think they are pretty good. I haven't really heard many bands like them before..... So how have you all been? Good I hope.^_^ I'm gonna go visit you guys to see how you are though so..... see you all laterz!

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^^

Hey everyone! Today is my brother's birthday.^_^ He is six years old as of today! Me and my mom are gonna give him a surprise bithday party.^_^ I am so happy.^_^ Also I'm giving you all a picture of my boyfriend.^_^ He is so cute. Yesterday he called me from Puerto Rico but he wasn't allowed to because he got in trouble but he called anyways. I was so flattered I suppose.^_^ Here is Jesse! Today me and my friend Heather took pictures of ourselves at club. We had so much fun. Next to Kikii she is like my best girlfriend! Well, I'll never let anyone take my adopted sister Ashley's place. Ilove all my friends^_^ Anyways, I am really swamped with homework but I am not gonna do it.....-_-' Anyways I'm gonna go and visit some of your sites now. See you all laterz!

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Happy Birthday little brother!

Hey everyone! Today is my brother's birthday.^_^ He is six years old as of today! Me and my mom are gonna give him a surprise bithday party.^_^ I am so happy.^_^ Also I'm giving you all a picture of my boyfriend.^_^ He is so cute. Yesterday he called me from Puerto Rico but he wasn't allowed to because he got in trouble but he called anyways. I was so flattered I suppose.^_^ Here is Jesse! Today me and my friend Heather took pictures of ourselves at club. We had so much fun. Next to Kikii she is like my best girlfriend! Well, I'll never let anyone take my adopted sister Ashley's place. Ilove all my friends^_^ Anyways, I am really swamped with homework but I am not gonna do it.....-_-' Anyways I'm gonna go and visit some of your sites now. See you all laterz!

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Whats up?

Awww.... I have had such a change of heart now.... After Chris I thought I would never actually find someone who liked me too..... But I finally did I think.... His name is Jesse.^_^ I really really like him! Me and him confessed to each other I guess. We were both extremly shy. I'm happy we were able to get over the uncomfortable emotions..... But now he is gone to Puerto Rico and I miss him! He is comming back soon. I hope me and him can last a while. I feel really happy latley. I'm not depressed latley. Yay! He is my complete opposite. His style is gangster but he only looks it. He doesn't act or talk like it. He is so cute! I'm a little punk rocker but we both connect! We have a lot of moral and similar interests. So how have you all been? I have been extreemly happy and I hope you all have been happy too! School has been completly tireing but I am taking it in one day at a time. I'm sorry I havent been around a lot latley. I've been busy with things. Studying has been one of the major things too. And spending time with Jesse before he left. I miss him. Anyways, I'm gonna visit some of my awesome friends here. See you all laterz!

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