Today is really bad... Well, actually yesterday is bad. For some reason Israel is acting really mean to me. He got upset with me last night for no reason and then he just hangs up and doesn't call me back to say good night or anything. Then he text's me "Goodnight my love. I lost my phone for a bit" at midnight so then I call him and he acts like everything is ok and happy and he tells me that he wants me and loves me. Once we get off the phone he texts me "I want you here with me...." I reply with something like I want to be with you two. We will be together soon." He starts talking about how I won't spend all my time with him and that he doesn't see me wanting to spend time with him at all when honestly I want to spend every second with him. And then he says how me and him don't think the same.... I asked him if he felt like that would cause problems and I haven't heard from him since. It's already nine and I know he is awake because he has work at ten.... I am really sad right now and I haven't slept but only a few hours all night. I finally went to be around 3 a.m. and I woke up around seven. I called him twice already and no answer. I texted him and he wont text back. Now I guess I should leave him alone. This is really confusing and hurting me so bad.... I don't understand why he is acting like this.I'm sorry to stress you out with my boyfriend dilemma but seriously this is hurting me. I don't like this feeling at all and it's driving me crazy. I really hope he calls, texts, messages me or something!
Anyways, how are you this morning? I know you guys are doing better then me this morning. Full-nights rest, no drama, air conditioned houses. lol ect. ect. Today I'm just going to relax and pray that things are okay with me and Israel. Gonna read some posts and comment, clean the house, take care of the dogs and go to bed early because I work at 6:30 a.m. tomorrow. I have to put in a change of hours now that school is starting in almost three weeks. I can't wait. Once I have school back, I will be able to keep my mind focused on more important things. I love school and it helps me keep all the bad drama away. I wouldn't know what to do without school or studies. It's like my second love (next to me dear Israel).
Thanks for those who commented yesterday. I noticed people have been super busy lately. I kind of can't wait until I can be busy again too with work and school. I really can't wait for August to start. Once that month hits, I know Summer will be over soon. I really dislike the Summer time. It makes me aggravated and it's way to hot. I just really hate Summer. I can't wait for the Fall to come... and then Spring!
Anyway, sorry for the depressed post. I didn't mean too be so sad.... I hope you all have a great day today! Luv Yas!
