Okay!!! OS Israel was just having a bad day I suppose because the nest day he said he didn't even know why I was worried. He told me he loves me and that pretty soon we will be together. We talked about the who "I wont want to see him or spend time with him when I get the chance" crap. He thinks I'm gonna wanna hang out with my guy friends without him ( That would hurt his feelings) or my girlfriends and flirt with other guys!!!! I would never do that. I wouldn't want him hanging out by himself with his lady friends. I would get so jealous because I know what most girls want (and what most boys want) so I would never do that to him. I think i relieved him a lot. He tells me how much he wants to hold me and last night he said he can't wait for the day he can say we are more than boyfriend and girlfriend. He said he wants to call me his wife!!!! Now,normally, I would be freaked and want to leave him because I have this fear of commitment but with Israel.... Oh my goodness I couldn't live without him! I want to marry him so bad. I want to be his wife!!! But... Am I just being stupid? I'm only 19 years old. Should I be feeling this way already? Whenever I get close to a boy, my mother tells me it's wrong to even try to feel that way at such a young age. I have felt this way towards one other person but he lied to me.... Israel I trust with all of my heart so I just feel this way with him.My mother makes fun of me because I care for Israel. She also makes fun of what he looks like. He isn't the most fit and yes he is very big. He may not be lean and graceful or the pretty boy but he has a great heart and a wonderful personality (although it can be crude) and that is what I see from him. I always have. I just wish my mother would stop putting him down. Every time she does, my heart hurts for him. I really love him. He will be here on the 17th of August. I'm counting down the days.... lol I'm such a weird-o
Now, I would like to thank you for those who commented on my post yesterday. You guys made me feel so much better and helped ease my worried mind. Your advice was great and it helped me out a lot. It is truly appreciated. ^___^ Thank you all! you guys are like super heroes! Seriously! I love you guys.
So today I went to work at 6:30 a.m. I am kind of tired but it's okay. I realized I put in 40 hours of work the other week. (not may vacation) so yeah this is going to be a good paycheck! Work was pretty boring. I just rang up customers all day long and then went home at three. Then I talked to my wonderful Israel who has to be at work today at 6:00 p.m. I wont hear from him until midnight and now I am on here!!!!
I'll be sure to comment soon on those who have updated today. It seems like it's a no post day today. But oh well, I will still visit. I hope tomorrow wont be too boring at work. I work like 10:30 a.m. to 7:30 p.m. tomorrow. Blah! But it's way better than getting up at five in the morning. I really hate that.
So, other than that, I don't really have much to say. I hope your day is well, or your night is well wherever you may be. lol I hope grandparents are well, aunts are moving into a great life and home, no one's working themselves to the bitter end with work/volunteering, I hope no one has fought with their parents, I pray that anyone who is sick be healthy again and I just hope that everyone is living life happily right now. Please take care my friends.
