Birthday • 1991-01-14 Gender •
Female Location • In your head Member Since • 2004-06-09 Occupation • Musician Real Name • Faroe
Personal
Achievements • So many things Anime Fan Since • FOREVER!!!!! Favorite Anime • i love almost every type of anime Goals • Becomeing the greatest drummer in the world Hobbies • Video Games, Music, Anime Talents • music, writing, voice acting
myOtaku.com: Faroe
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
I want to be pushed aside
Oh what a horrible day I had yesterday. I caught a flu and I was bed ridden. Had to call out from work, and my mother tried to destroy my laptop!!!! She started a fight in the morning and it went like this:
I am on the computer on the Myotaku and TheOtaku reading posts and commenting. She comes in to look at what I am doing and looks at me and says that I am addicted to the computer and everything I get. She told me that I am addicted to dick (meaning boys) and my computer. I got mad at her and told her to go away and she busted the top of my computer with her hand. The screens went all fuzzy and it wouldn't work. You see I bought this computer with my own money and it's not her right at all to destroy or take it away from me. I buy everything on my own and she still says it is hers because it's in her home. I got mad and she started to yell and hit me. I threw a screwdriver at her because she kept hurting me and saying disgusting things about me in front of my younger sister and brother. She called me a whore and that everyone who talks bad about me is right and that I have sex to get gifts from men (that made me mad because I buy all my things with money I save when I work). I never have sex to get things. Just because Israel bought me gifts before did not mean I had sex to get them. She is such a bitch.
Then she told me I need to ask for forgiveness for the way I talk to her. She says I bully her and say filthy things to her. That got me mad because I don't do that to my mother until she pushes me off the edge. Then I say things. I don't know if I am actually starting to hate my mother or not. I don't wish her dead or bad things upon her. I just wish I could leave and never ever see her again. This feeling pains me deeply.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I am starting to become very depressed and she is hurting me. I am afraid she will try to make Israel not love me anymore. She may tell him lies about me or say things about my past that I do not wish to share to anyone. It hurts and it scares me. I HATE THESE FEELINGS!!!!!
I don't want to depress all of you so I will just go now....
I hope you all are doing wonderful. I know that soon I will snap out of this depression so you guys wont have to deal with it anymore. I do apologize because this is supposed to be my home away from home where I can be happy and chipper but for now.... I'm just so sad and I can't help to be so angry.
