Well, I finally got some time to post on here. Benn really busy all morning packing my boxes and cleaning my room out. My mother doesn't really know that I am planning on moving out but I will tell her soon. I feel really sad about leaving my mother but I really feel as if I should go and start my own life. I want it to be with Israel so much though.Israel keeps telling me I need to come back home with him and I feel as if my home is there in Tampa. I can't move over there until I have a job in Tampa first. I don't want to be the one just sitting around doing nothing. I need to pay some bills there. I requested a transfer to the Wal-Mart near our apartment but bad news is:
The store manager is out for a funeral.So, that means I must wait a few days. The manager said that he should be back on Thursday so I will call back that day. I need to let them know I am available for hiring but I don't know if they will take me. I pray to the good lord that they will transfer me. Once I get the transfer I can get away from here.
It's really hard to think about leaving when my mother is being so nice to me. I am trying so hard not to have second thoughts because I know she will always be mean to me and maybe if I go, she will want to be friends more. I know she needs my paycheck because I am like the one who makes the most money and she doesn't work. But my sister does. I really feel lost though. I just know I am going to move out with Israel. I need to grow and live my life. Some people say I am too young to feel that way. (I am 19 years old) and some say it's great that I want to live my life on my own....... What do you think?
I noticed that not a lot of people have been updating too much. GoodMonkey hasn't been on and I noticed some other friends haven't been here either. I hope everyone is doing well and having fun or just staying busy. I miss you guys and I miss you too CrystalFlute! lol
So, It's almost Fall and I cannot wait. Summer has taken forever to end and well, I am hoping for an amazing cool Fall.
Please take care my wonderful friends. thank you for all your help, kind words, advice and well your friendship!!!
