Sitting at school and I can't stop thinking about how much my life is about to change. Living with Israel, well, I have to say it's very new and somewhat a challenge.
One, Well, sleeping in the same bed can get a little difficult. He likes to sleep cuddled against someone while I like to sleep away from everything cause every move and noise wakes me up. So he gets mad at me for that. He thinks that subconsciously I don't want to be around him. And that is totally BS! But oh well. I am getting some sleep now that I am getting used to everything. The Apartment is lovely though. Kyle and Israel say I am making the house a home. I can't wait for October.
The second reason why I feel like everything is a challenge is because well, I miss my family and everything that I am used too. I wish I could talk to them again but I know right now isn't a good time. I just wish my mother understood and didn't hate hate me now. I hope things will get better.
Third, well, getting back and fourth to work is hard because I am an hour away and on a motorcycle. I just put in my two weeks notice with Wal-Mart and well, I am so sad. I couldn't get that transfer so now I am going to try as a new hire instead. Maybe Lord will grant me that?
All in all, I just have to get used to everything here. Work with everything that I have and stop worrying about everything I lost, (though I miss my Snoopy and Tessa) Maybe I will see them again someday. Maybe Brieanna (my sister), TJ (my brother) and my mom will all want to talk to me again too. I don't really want to go home and live but I do want to see everyone again. One day it will happen I hope.
But now Autumn is here and I am happy. This will be the first year i don't spend the Holidays with my family. That makes me depressed actually but kind of excited because now I can travel and visit friends on the holidays. Life is changing and it hurts but it feels so good!
Thank you for supporting me friends. you mean so much to me and I am so thankful that you are here to listen. I am sorry I haven't been around as much as I would like too. School, work, and the whole situation that I am living with is making things a little difficult for me. Thank you so much for understanding. I hope the problems that you are dealing with also are starting to alleviate. Life is tough and like GM said, no one promised life to be easy. lol Let's just grab our weapon on choice and kick life in the butt together! Please rake care my friends. Be safe!!!!
