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Wednesday, December 8, 2010



Not doing much. All alone now and I'm finding solace in it. Israel is at work and Kyle is away at work too. I should be studying but I just can't seem to concentrate and so I'm gonna clean up since this place is such a mess. I wish they new how to keep a house clean. It gets pretty gross sometimes. I even talk to them about it but no one listens...... *sigh* I really hope this changes. Kyle's things are all over the living room and Israel makes messes in the kitchen and never cleans up right away. Why am I the only one who cleans up right away? I'm starting to drift away from everything..... I have been thinking so much latley. I don't know why though. I'm so sleepy and tired and exhausted. My body needs more sleep and more relaxation. I'm killing myself I just know it.

Last night at work I realizeed how much my body is breaking down. As you all know, I have Ulcerative Colitis which is basically an auto-immune disease where my iimune system things my large intestines are pathogens and dangerous to my body so they are slowly destroying them. I've been trying to go into remission before I reach the deadliest stage called toxic megacolon where my insides burst because they are so swollen. I don't know what's happening but I've been having bowel movemnents that I cannot control and at work I actually.... you know (blank) on myself at work!!! I ran away trying to get to the bathroom but it was waaaaaay to late by the time I got the restroom. I finally broke down to my boss and cried and told him all about how sick I really am. I went home only ten minutes early thogh. I tried to finish my shift completly with my pains in my insides and it hurt so bad......

I really hope you are all having a great day/evening/morning, where ever you may be. I hope you all aretaking care of yourselves and loving life.

I have been listening to this song over and over and I can't stop crying. I really feel like I need to overcome so much. I just want to be healthy again. I hate this......

take care my friends
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