Birthday • 1991-01-14 Gender •
Female Location • In your head Member Since • 2004-06-09 Occupation • Musician Real Name • Faroe
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Achievements • So many things Anime Fan Since • FOREVER!!!!! Favorite Anime • i love almost every type of anime Goals • Becomeing the greatest drummer in the world Hobbies • Video Games, Music, Anime Talents • music, writing, voice acting
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Thursday, January 27, 2011
It's gonna be a long day
Today I don't know.... But that saddness is sweeping back over me again and I don't know why. I want to go somewhere.... Somewhere far away from here thats open and full of nature. Somewhere where I can be free for once and maybe.... have someone next to me who can enjoy that wonderful euphoria of nature, freedom and purity.
Am I the only one who feels this way? Locked up somehow trying to find a way out? Have I walked into a cage set up for my capture? Oh so many depressing questions but I hope maybe the answers aren't the ones I am embraced for. I want to do something with myself. Do more. BE apart of something. Become someone. I'm 20 years old now and I haven't done anything signifigant with myself and I'm not going to stand by that any more. This summer I am going to see if I can be a lab assistant here at my college and then I am going to start something with my music. I'm going to buy another flute and get back on it. I'm going to go visit my family up north and enjoy my life.
You know, I think I found my New Year's Resolution. Yeah. That is mine.
So, yesterday I was watching this show for my Anthropology paper about Ancient religions and the modern day devil. I think Israel was upset that I was listening to other religions that came before Christianity. You see, he is a very biased man when it comes to his faith. He believes that I am not much of a Christian and that I don't have f aith in God. But actually I do. I am a Christian. The only problem is that I see my faith and religion a little more openly than he does. I don't want to go into what I feel because I don't want to have people mad at me for what I believe in, it's just he lets me know and he says how I am a sinner but he sins jsut as bad. Sometimes it's almost hypacritical (hpwever you speel that).
Last night I started talking about my future, well he started to ask me about mine first, and I told him what I wnat in life and he said something that I didn't quite understand and then he said "your wants are complex and mine are simple". I don't care what he says. I am going to fulfill my life. Whether he wants to come or not that is his choice.
Anyway, my class starts at 9:30 am and its 8:41 am. I'm gonna head out and get some breakfast before my class starts. Anthropology class seems to be pretty popular (Israel makes fun of it and in fact he asked me not to talk about that class around him)and the chairs fill up fast so I want to get there a little early to get a seat. lol I love that class. I took it in high school and I enjoyed it a lot.^_^
