Hello all. ^_^ I am pleased to announce that I am back and ready to start posting again. I am sorry for the long absence. I really missed you guys too!So, I took my little unpaid vacation from work and I feel a bit more relaxed. I calmed down and I collected all my thoughts and I understand that my grandma is gone and that now she is all around me. I miss her very much but I know she would not want me to live angry and sad. But I know she wants to be missed. lol Me and my mother have been fighting alot. She says I am the reason why my grandmother is dead. She says that when I moved out I should not have been talking with my grandma and that I should have left her out of my life. My mom and my grandma fought the night before she died....... so I can see why my mother is so upset but I wish she would not put this kind of blame on me..... It really hurts.
I may take a spring break off work to do some cleaning. I like that idea. Get rid of the old and in with the new! Maybe have a little yard sale? Who knows. I don't really have much to seel. I will probably donate what I don't want anymore to a charity or church.
Also, I made a new friend. Her name is Alyssa. Me and her hang out and talk bout everything. I haven't had a friend I could actually hang out with in a longn while. I'm probably gonna hang out with her tonight after I get out of school.
So, I found out that it's been getting hard for me to sleep on my own. I've been stealing meletonin from the medicine cabinet and taking two so I can pass out fast. Do you think that is bad? I am hoping soon I will be able to go to sleep on my own. I should do that tonight. But when I take that medicine I don't wake up all through the night and I actually wake up feeling good. Without it I go to the bathroom and I feel the pain nmy stomach all night long.
Tonight I have a college algebra test. I am a little worried because I know little to nithing about what I am learning in that class. It's so hard and it's really tough for me to focus with all the crap that is going on. I need at least a B to bring up that F I produced last time. ugh I feel like a loser.
Anyways, I will post back another time now. I gotta get ready for my school day. and I gotta eat breakfast. However, I am thinking about starting a little diet. I don't want to eat as much as I do anymore. I'm not really gaing weight but I am getting out of shape. No food before 8:00 am and no food after 9:00 pm. Little meals for luch and medium size for dinner and breakfast. Then exersice and stretching when I get the chances too as long as I do at least 15 minutes a day to start. ^_^ Yay! No I just have to follow it.
Anyway, see you all later!
