Birthday • 1991-01-14 Gender •
Female Location • In your head Member Since • 2004-06-09 Occupation • Musician Real Name • Faroe
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Achievements • So many things Anime Fan Since • FOREVER!!!!! Favorite Anime • i love almost every type of anime Goals • Becomeing the greatest drummer in the world Hobbies • Video Games, Music, Anime Talents • music, writing, voice acting
myOtaku.com: Faroe
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Happy Thanksging to all you wonderful people!
So it's that time again and I have the hardest time feeling like it's Thanksgiving and Christmas. I feel like it's just another month now. I don't have enough money for a car and I don't have my sister and brother with me. Plus I don't have Israel.
For some reason, I have been missing my sister a lot. we were so close but my mom and high school separated us. I wish sometimes that I could go back to being 14 and 15 just so I can be with my sister again. Life really sucked but if I could go back in time with what I knew now I would have been able to be near my sister and help her with what she was going through. She used to have a MyOtaku account too. Her name was Kikii. She is my friend on here still too. I wish sometimes that she could go back here and blog. Her posts used to be so funny and she talked about a lot of what we went through. I'm getting so depressed thinking about all this.
So, today I worked from 11:00 am to 4:30 pm. Tomorrow I have to work 10:00 am to 4:30. Then I will eat dinner and then get ready for Black Friday shopping. I really only want to try and get my dad an Ipod for like less than half the original price. I think he deserves one. He only has an old MP3 that plays only like 30 songs. plus he can have all his music on an Ipod so I don't have to keep rotating songs over and over again. I think I am going to get Caroline a DVD player so she can watch movies away from my room. She keeps me up all night and I think she tries to wake me up in the morning cause she is pissed that I don't have to work in the morning. I woke up one morning cause she flashed a freaking flash light or phone directly into my eyes from the door way. What the Hell? I hate this..... and I really don't like her. But she can be so nice at times. But I think it's fake. I really can't wait to get my own home.
Well, everyone, I think I am going to go now. i wanted to right more but I think I will write another time. I have to make two cheesecakes and a green bean casserole, and other dishes for tomorrow. that way, I can eat and wont have to cook to much after work. then I have to get up real early and put the Turkey in so by the time I am home, It will be done! yay!
This Saturday I am having lunch with my Uncle Charles and Uncle Terry. I can't wait! I love talking with them plus I really like to get to know them better.
Okay, before I go I have a serious question to ask. So you know my situation with my mother and you know how mean she can be...... But I know her number well, I think it's her same number. Should I call her? Should I send her money? What should i do? I want to talk to her because I want to see my sister and my brother. If I can just get in the door that way maybe I can come and visit them. What should I do? I'm so confused. Israel doesn't want me to talk to them at all but I don't think I can do that. My mom doesn't want anything to do with me because I am not giving her money. Plus she says to everyone that I left them and I left behind my responsibilities. I stopped working and stopped getting beat by her. It was horrible people and I hope one day everyone will understand. I didn't leave to just be selfish. I left to save myself and I wish I could have took my sister and brother with me and I want to bring them up here with me too. My mom may be sick but she makes it hard for me to really want to be near her...... even the way she told me how my grandma died. Told it me it was all my fault!
Anyway, I just wanted some advice on that because I miss my siblings more than I miss my mother.
Well, I found out that I have to wait on making the food. Geez, I am so tired and run down. But I am not even working that hard! It's all this lack of sleep bull. Caroline is making want to scream! I know that it's not fair that I need quiet but who the hell stays up till 2 in the morning drinking beer after beer and smoking two packs of cigarettes. And she has to get up at 7 in the morning to get to work and then she treats everyone like crap because she has to get up. If she went to bed early then she wouldn't have to worry about feeling so tired. She says she isn't a morning person but even if she wakes up at noon she still acts like a bitch. Ugh.
Sorry, I just needed to vent and now I feel better. Thank you. Haha! I think Israel is going to be home soon..... Maybe he will call? Oh darn, and Caroline is coming home now too. I don't want her to be here. I hope she goes back to Scotland.
Oh and I think I am going to start writing a novel. I already have a basis and a few chapters written but I don't know, should I go for it? I want to apply what I went through in life and just make some things come alive in a book or maybe write a few? Should I go for it? If I do I will print it and send you guys copies and you can tell me what you think. If I get enough feedback from you about whether I should do it, I will have it done by like, next November or December. It's gonna be kind of a dark book with lots of rights and wrongs but it's like If you chose the one you think is right it may be wrong. Kind of like how life works right? Haha! I've had these few chapters written since I was 17 but now I feel like I can complete the novel and then make some more. But only if the first one is good.
Well, November through December I am going to be playing the songs that take me back to when I was 14 and with my sister. around this time makes me think about the most memorable things that happened with my sister and all the shit we went through. So, as a tribute to me and her, I will play these songs. ^_^ I hope you guys wont mind. Anyway, I will let you all go now. I feel like I have written to much. thank you all for your advice and recommendations. I look forward to reading them and giving them all some thought. I feel like I am in a weird place at the moment. Missing my family and Israel and having these feelings that want to take me back to the Dark Times? OI don't know what to do with myself these days now.
Well, you all take care and have a Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!
Okay guys!!!!1 I just seen that my sister just updated not too long ago! Please go to her site! her name is Kikii and she is in my friends list. Please please go say hi to her and let her know people are still here!!! Please!
