Well, I have to say, I just can't stay away from my secret little club house. Friends. you have been so great to me and Kikii? You have been so wonderful too. Everyone's kind and caring words are making me feel better.
So, as you may know Israel left me once again. I don't know if he was just making another excuse or if he just really doesn't love me anymore. all I know is that I put so much of my heart into him that I don't know how to get it back. I want him to be with me so much but the more I think about it the more it kills me......
So, How have you all been? Anything planned for the Holidays? Anything on the wish list? I don't think I will be getting anything for Christmas but right now I don't want anything but peace. So I finally got foodstamps. Finally! Apparently if you are trying to better yourself in this world they deny you but if you don't work and don't do anything you can get them like easy. I had to fight for mine. Which sucks. They want so much stuff from me that other people don't have to give. (It's because I am a college student and they want to make sure I work 20 plus hours and make a certain amount of money) They denied me because I made less than 20 hours a week. "That don't make no sense!!!!!"
Anyway, I guess that is my best Christmas gift. Food. Yum! I need to stay on a specific diet to keep my flares away. I'm surprised I didn't break out in one When Israel broke up with me. Heh, I must be getting stronger. Or just used to the shit. Oh and Israel called me this morning. Turns out he did not change his number. He is paying the phone bill for this month and after that, I dunno what will happen. I have to call him and tell him what I want. (What does he think I want? duh? To be with him?) Jeez, I hate this. I can't tell if this is the start of a great new year or a crappy one.
Anyway, I think it's best that I get away from these thoughts of Israel. I have good friends everywhere: Here on the MyO, my sister back home, my good friends I made at my old job, and some people up here. ^_^ So much support and it makes me feel so strong!
Ok today at work my manager Pat came up and she was asking Anthony if we had anymore cashiers coming up soon because she need the milk filled. She was like "why did they give me all girls?" Then Anthony said Mike comes in at 1 pm. and she was like I need it done now. She asked Anthony to do it but he couldn't so I was like hey I have done dairy in my old store I can do it. She looked shocked that a little girl like me could and have done dairy and stocking before. So I felt so cool stocking. Apparently, women don't stock at my store. All the guys were like "Whaaaat? A girl stocking and lifting? No way!" Haha Yeah I can so do that. It's really not that hard. Plus I am tired of Mike and Eichy always getting to leave the register to do the same thing just because they are guys. I so did it and Pat was (I think) happy that I did it so well. Now she gave me 30 hours and asked me to cover some shifts. Can you say extra money? YAY! Pay off my credit card bill and everything. Yes..... Haha! And Shop for my friends. And myself since I will be my Santa Clause.
Ugh hold on my internet is really sucking right now. The signal keeps going out. I hope I can update. Blah.
Well, I am hungry now. (got some of my appetite back)
