Thank you everyone. I couldn't have gotten this far without you.^^
I woke up sick today. My head feels so heavy and my mouth is so dry. I keep drinking water but my mouth is still dry. I haven't even said a word this morning. I hope I get better soon. I have am going to be busy today. My muscles in my legs are so sore. I can't even walk. Wahhaahahahaaaaaaa I am so unlucky!
I couldn't stop crying last night either. I kept thinking about all the friends I have but I can't talk, hang out or be with any of my friends 'cause my mom is over protected. I wish she wasn't so over protected. I am so lonely that she doesn't even see me suffering. She doesn't even know how many times I have tried to kill myself.
*sniff* It's true. The all happy Faroe has a secretside to herself. I have tried to kill myself numerouse amounts of times. But I failed. For some reason I won't die. I tried to kill myself once by pouring bleach in the bathroom and my eyes burned that I couldn't see anything and I cut my rists but instead, I missed and cut the side of my rists. I laid on my bed thinking I was dead but when I woke up, I was just alive as ever. I have triend cuttingmy neck but I got scared.
Then came along the thought of running away. If I was gonna run away, I had to learn to be tough. Which I grew up pretty fast when I was 9. I was ready but then I got scared again. by the age of 13, I was really gonna run away and never come back, untill I found the MyO. I got an account and then, I made friends.*sniff sniff*
I knew that as long as I had some friends out there, I didn't need to run away. Sometimes I wish I didn't grow up so fast. I wish I was still innocent but I am not. I'm not very special either. I better go. This is gonna be a long post but all I wanna say to you is thank you for keeping me alive.^^
I love you all.
See you laterz.
