Saturday, August 28, 2004

  Hey all!

Yea, life's been sucky lately. -.- Go figure? Ah. My mom's kicking out Holly, which sucks major monkey balls, because I can't be kicked out until I'm 15, so I have to wait another couple monthes to get out of this hell hole. >.< Gah! Bonnie (aka "Mother") is such a bitch! Gah. She hasn't even met my boyfriend, but doesn't like him, and won't let me see him. That's what I was supposed to be doing today- going to Boca Mall to hang out with him and Stephanie, because you know we can never leave her behind...she's like my shadow...XD She's going to kill me on monday...Anyway. Also, "mother dearest" (gag) has disconnected the internet, so I have to use some gay ass Library computer until I can have my sister give me HER credit card number so that I can hook up the internet, then pay her each month. Complicated? You have no idea...Mom is the ultimate bitch, as you've seen. Heh, Ryan says she's abusive. I actually punched through the kitchen window one day, because she'd locked me out of the house. Then, she locked me out again, so I had to climb through the glass into my house. Sound very safe to you? I don't think so. Oh well. Only a couple more monthes of this idiocy and I'll be out of there. Mainly, I really don't care about her anymore- as far as I'm concerned, she doesn't deserve the title "Mom". Thus, I'll be going by Bonnie from now on. Anyway. School's not that bad though, except in my Debate class, you have to pay like $30 dollars for F.R., then you also have to pay for tournaments and debate outfits and shit like that, and Bonnie won't pay for it...damn I need a job...PUBLIX!!!!!! I'm going to start annoying the hell out of the Managers there so that they'll hire me, just so I'll shut up. XD heh. Also, I have to do all my research at the library, and printing, which is more $$$ that I don't have...(You have to pay for print outs, if you didn't know, lol. Some of us poor Teenagers here have found that out the hard way) Anywho...I got my research for Debate done (The Amber Alert Pros/Cons, and Extra Curricular Activities P/Cs), thus I am talking to you all! ^-^ What a coincidence. I may start going to the Library every day, just to get away from my mom...the only days I'll have to worry about then are Sundays, and so forth. I don't see why she said I couldn't go to the Mall though. I mean, yea the Wellington Mall's a lot closer, but it's inbetween where we live! (Me-n-Ryan, I mean). And she had the nerve to set most of my friends' parents against me, to where they think I'm a liar and a bad influence to their kids, and she's been spreading shit to my dad as well, to where he's pissed off at me. I'm just really tired of it all. I've thought so much about just running away, getting away from all my problems once and for all, just leaving my whole family behind- but what would that get me? Nothing. Living on the street. That's about it. So instead, I'm going to work my ass off, get good grades, go to a GOOD college, not a community one, and actually make something of myself, because unlike Bonnie, my highest ambitions job-wise is not being a CASHIER at a WAREHOUSE!! >.< Alright, I should stop bitching about my goddamn life. Til Next Time, Ta Ta!

**El
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