Thursday, December 16, 2004

I Feel Disturbed

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
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Parents think	You're lazy
Strangers think	You have bigger boobs than Pam
Friends think	You need a fuck buddy
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I mean, doesn't that disturb you?! O.O Eeep! -runs away- lol Ahem, lemme get back on topic...

Heylo! ^-^

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack! Yay! I missed you guys! I went a whole...probably what...? One day without posting? Ah well. It's the thought that counts, I suppose...... Yea right, what am I saying?!

Anyway, I hope that I was able to get to everyone's sytes yesterday, and if I wasn't...just slap me upside the head or something, and I'll trot on over there like the idiot I am...^-^ heh.

Anywho...I feel confused and a little lost. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because my brain is on SUPER OVER LOAD...evil midterms are coming up, if you guys haven't noticed. My first is tomorrow! O.O I'm not SUPER worried, because it's my Debate written exam. I was more worried about my Oral Exam (I took that Tuesday and acted out Psychiatry in a Can w/mah friend Yadi ^-^) because that was a hell of a lot harder and was worth twice as much...and guess what! I got an A+!!! YAY!!! ^__^ -runs around, hugging random people- Yea. So I'm just going to go over the notes that we've taken all year and brief myself over the times that certain things are supposed to be timed and to what purpose and so forth...

And that's the exam for tomorrow. And while that one only has 70 questions on it...

-dun dun dun-

My English Honors has...

-dun dun dun duuuuuun-

178 questions. O.O

-Hyperventilates and starts running around the room, screaming for an illness, or better yet, a semi to run self over with-

Yes. It's going to be EXTREMELY hard. -.-; I've never truly studied for a test before- well, I'm here to tell you that I am now.

Also, another extremely hard test os going to be Algebra 2 Hon. -has a mental breakdown and commences into schitzoness- Ahem. Yes. I'm even more stressed about that one, because Math is FAAAR from my strongest subject. -.-

-sigh- My other classes are going to be difficult too ( Integ Science, French, and A/C Rep)...well, BST won't be. It's just typing and I easily can type at 83 gwam with 3 or less errors. So, that's about the only Stress Free feeling that I'm having right now...-.-

Ah well. On a lighter note, on Saturday I'm going to have fun. (Whereas my friend Stephanie has to serve Saturday school/detention, lol ISS for her!...<.< >.>...-flees-) We're going to go to the Wellington Green Mall to hang out for my friend Salina's 15th Birthday. ^-^ Yay her! Yep. It's going to be Me, Salina, Stephanie, John, Ryan (Salina's Bf), James (I think that's his name), Heather, Kayla, Kayla's bf (whoever that is, lol), Angela, Erica (I think...), and some other people that I don't know. Yay! ^-^ I love the mall! Spencers....Hot Topic....WaldenBooks.... and don't forget...Ben & Jerry's...heh. I'm a lunatic, I know. I've come to be aware of my problems and embrace them. ^-^ Yay!

And guess what's after that!!! Yes! It is a Semi-Formal party!! YAY!!! -happy dance, happy dance- ^-^ Yay yay yay yay yay!!!!!!!! ^-^ I can't wait! I love little dressy uppy things like that...even though I don't act like it very much. It's like...just because I wear black and listen to rock music people think 'Oh she won't come, so why ask'. Gah! Ask! Geez! Heh. I'm happy...because...I met somebody...^-^

Yes. It's offical...I think for the first time ever...I've fallen for someone. O.O It's so weird. I mean...you always hear about the girl falling for the guy..but really...it's never happened for me. Sure, I'll like them a lot...but most of the time I'm not able to see them often, or their a total ass, etc etc. But this time...it's different.

Alright. I'll go into the total explaination. Okay. This is what I usually envision as the perfect guy:

Tall, at least 6'2, with either long black hair pulled back or messy 2" long reddish brown hair, with the bright green or blue eyes, pale, muscular, BUILT, with good clothes sense (Usually the long trench coat with the major baggy black pants and a black wife beater), broad shoulders, slim, etc.

...Adam...is everything but. He's about 5'10 (an inch and a half taller than me) with short blonde hair and blue gray eyes. He's very thin, and is muscular, but it's more of a wiry muscular than a built muscular. He's a runner, not a weightlifter or such. His hair is SHORT! (lol) He's tan, and has the strangest sense in clothes- I mean, it all coordinates and such...it's just different. (And I'm not meaning the poser look either -Like wearing South Pole, Wranglers, A Skater shirt, and sneakers, ya know?) He's a bit redneckish without trying, with a great sense of humor. And...he's never angry! ^-^ It's such a great experience just to be around him! He's 15, and home schools except for Debate, which he goes to my school for.

I first met him in the Youth group that i attend, and I've been getting to know him ever since...though I wish I knew him a lot better...^-^ He's got the greatest personality, he really likes talking with me, and he acts like I'm a really person all the time- not just an object to carry around with a title or what not. He doesn't dump his problems (if he ever has any) on me either. It's so...unreal...

I mean...all of my boyfriends -with the exception of one- was exactly like what I put as my ideal boyfriend. Again, with the exception of one, they all were the Jock kind of guy and ALL of them when I went out with them only acted as if I were only a random object to call 'girlfriend'...and truthfully, I don't think any of them knew me. Now...I've got a friend. Before anything else, a friend who accepts me. ^-^ And I have fallen.

Of course, this doesn't sway my opinion that Brandon from Incubus and Chester from Linkin Park are sexy beasts, but...I still like him. A whole lot...

Just think. I've fallen for a slightly nerdy guy. ^-^ And he doesn't want me to change who I am.

Bliss. Utter Bliss.

**El



P.S. And if anyone ever happens to mention this to him, I will kindly cut off their head and add it to my growing collection in my closet ^-~ Stephanie! Wuv yal!
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