Thursday, January 20, 2005

   Revelations of my physical..
Okay, I just had a revelation: I suck.

Today my ego was blown a terrible death blow in P.E. *sigh* We had a test to see our maximum amount of push-ups we could do...

... I can't do a single push-up. -_- (And yes, this seriously disturbs me)

Grah! I have tried..and it's hard!! This makes me sad..(I am uberly skinny and crap, and I knew that I was a weakling, due to the fact that I have been out of sports for some time now, and that I never work out)

So, new plan for 2005. I want to be able to do ten (regular, not the girly) push-ups. I'll tell ya'll how that turns out. Until then, I shall be toning my weakling self.

I hate being weak when I have potential. Soooo! I shall change it!

Whoo!

We also did sit-ups, and stretches in P.E. I did farely well on the sit-ups, and very well on the stretches. So, at least my healthy ego and self image of myself didn't get entirely slaughtered.

Hah. Even my uber-skinny, tiny step-brother can do about ten push-ups. And, everyone else in my class, even the out of shape people, could do at least five. Heck! Most girls did about twenty, and most dudes about forty.

Well, the only way I can end this post is with.... *sigh*

... Goodbye, and I will definately post in here when I get up to ten push-ups, yo.

~Leanne, the weakling~

*tear falls*


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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

   Generalizations and nit-picking...
GRAH! o_O

Okay, I REALLY hate "school politics". I hate that people dislike others. I hate that some are labeled as uncool. I hate, hate, hate that ANYONE would ever...THINK, SAY, FEEL, DO....anything bad towards another. (Like I see so often in school--people thought of as uncool, talked about, etc.)

Hey, I know none of us are perfect; but, I try to like everyone. T_T

And, I just can't stand it when I see others get picked on, or anything like that. I don't get picked on..but I hate it nonetheless.

I wish everyone would just be friends. I wish that everyone would be accepted, and liked, and just the whole lot. I dream that everyone had dependable friends, good friends, and totally fun friends! That is something I dream would happen...

..yet..

It's very unlikely that it ever would--so, I learn to deal with it. I learn to deal with back-biting and gossip. I learn to deal with seeing a kid at school always looking sad because they feel like the world shuns them.

And seeing that is hard for me to swallow.

Yet, I can't go around telling others to accept everyone. Realistically, that will never happen.

So, I resort to ~ME~: The only person I will be responsible for is ~ME~, so I will watch ~MY~ actions, and be careful not to treat anyone badly. I will take responsiblity for what ~I SAY~, what ~I DO~, and ~MY MOTIVES~ for doing them. (Like, if I am nice to someone because I want something from them, then..uh.."That are bad motive". LOL.)

>.> <.<

....and I hope my actions are considered good. >.<

I make it a point in my day to accept everyone. I like everyone, gosh dang it! I feel bad when I don't like someone, and I feel like something must be wrong with me if I am having negative feelings towards someone.

*Sigh*

All I can do is respect..and be kind..

And I will aim to do just that.

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Hah. Okay, enough of my corny shmeal. >.< Yet, I have been thinking on this for a long time, and I wanted to pen it.

My prayer is...
God, help me to be like you.

...and I'm going to go and watch T.V. with meh mommeh now. x3

~Iz teh outerz~

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Sunday, January 16, 2005

   But I don't WANT to babysit them babbies!!!!
... .... ......!!!!

Yeah, Okay. I said I would write today's post...describing...my babysitting day today.

Day=ugh.

There. I described it. xDDD

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No, really though, I didn't like it.^^ It was emotionally, and physically draining, and these kids were.. let's say.. "something else".

The older one, who is two, would NOT give me ONE moments break. O_____O

I really don't want to babysit again for these people, yet, I don't know how to say "No." And, they, sadly, have already made it known to me that they plan on having me babysit yet again. -_- Whoo??

The older girl, "Stormy" (<---I know, weird name), would hit me--and I spanked her of course--and she would just sit there cussing and such things, and she would NOT listen, she would get into the refridgerator and countless other things...

!!!!

The whole nine and a half hours of babysitting, I was watching the clock, counting down my minutes until I got to go home. I HAVE babysat before, yet these children: *shudder*

Okay, well, that is how my day went.

Ciao now.

~Leanne, teh "happeh she is home now" girl~
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Saturday, January 15, 2005

   A whole week of events.. (and such things)
Wow. I haven't written in this.. in about.. uh.. five days. O_O

Whoa.

Well, anyhoo, I'm going to start ranting about some things that happened this week.

Monday, yea, I did go back to school, sadly. ((I went to school this whole week.o______o))

And, Jim (luff!^^) hasn't spoken to me in roughly.. oh I'd say..

THREE WEEKS!! grrrr....

I'm like so uberly in luff with him. =( Well, I know it's not love, but heh, it's fun. And he's hawt stuff. So, rock on.

Thursday, I again attended the Key Club meeting. That was fun, and rocked meh socks. Seth is the president, and I just love him. He is so awesome. HEHE. He had a uber "crush" on me last year too.^____^ Good times, good times.

Lessee, on Tuesday, after school, I went over to Kera's house and finished painting her living room for her. She was so surprised when she got home. She thanked me, and it made me feel good. :3

Uh..today is Friday. And, on Friday, of course, I get to stay up late, and get up really late in the morning on Saturday. But, tonight my mom, two sisters, and some friends had a Bunko tournament. (If you don't know what the game is.. uh.. then don't ask. It takes to long to explain)

But, needless to say, I WON!!^^ Whee~!! [mysterious look] My prize was arsome. [/mysterious look]

And, now it is 10:18pm. I prolly won't be going to bed 'til about 2am.^____^

But, tommorow I have to get up roughly at 10am, and I will be picked up to go and babysit a two year old, and a one year old..for 9 hours. o_O

.. I tell you how that turns out. O____O *runs and hides from teh childrens*

Anyhoo. Ciao.

~Leanne, teh industrious~



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Sunday, January 9, 2005

   Monday approaches...
...And with the approach of Monday...comes school. >/

Grrrr.

Well, I made it a goal to enjoy the rest of my day today, despite my constant rememberance of yet another week of school. I will enjoy my remaining hours of freedom. =)

Today, I went to church. I awoke at 10am, and church lasted 'til about 1pm. It was cool. Our pastor spoke of dreams, and how you make your dreams reality. She spoke of why people fail in their life dreams. She spoke that the Word of God needs to be the foundation, and that lack of discipline in everyday life stops your dreams.

Needless to say...it was awesome! o_O

I came home, and went online. My plans for later today are to clean my room, study for my permit test, and also finish my accounting, US History, and Pyschology homework. Ugh.

I also need to buy some paint for my bedroom. It needs to be painted so badly.

And, also I want to go. Good bye.

~Leanne, the not wanting the weekend to end Girl~






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   Too funneh...
Today was a pretty cool day. I hung out with meh buddehs, Coby and Aaron. It was killer fun! We watched "Napoleon Dynamite", played "Mario Cart", and pigged OUT on goodies. It was sooo fun! We also, at about ten o'clock at night, jumped on our trampoline. It was soooo uberly cold outside too.

...AND, I should mention the fact that me and Lynnae, THE TWO GIRLS, kicked total BUTT at Mario Cart. Aaron and Coby didn't know what was coming.^^

I feel the need to rant:

^____^

I SO LOVE PEOPLE!!! I wish I could show them! Grrr.... o_O

And that was basically my day today. So, sorry I didn't make it all long like I usually do, but...

...not very much interesting things to write on. LOL.

So, buh-bye!


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Friday, January 7, 2005

   Oi.
Heya.

Okies. This will be a short one. (Nice change, huh. ^___^) I don't really feel like writing a long post.

Anyways..

Today. Today was keen. I went to school, and also went over to this dudes house after school, where he interviewed me to see if I was satisfactory to babysit his two daughters. LOL. Needless to say, I got the job. I passed with flying colors.^^

But, also I wanna tell you of something else that happened. xDDD

On the way to the bus! On the way to the bus in the morning, I have to walk down our street sidewalk. Well, it was covered in a thick sheet of ice. I was walking, and before I knew it I slllllid and fell flat on my back. I opened my eyes up, and I was on the ground. Lynnae was like, "Leanne!? Are you alright!?"

Hehe. I was fine. But seriously, my butt is majorly sore. I can't even sit! It hurts so bad to sit. x3

Anyways, that's all for today folks. I'm rp'ing, and don't really want to make this long.

Oi!
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Thursday, January 6, 2005

   Strange, AND coincidental.
~Leanne enters in high spirits, glad to see your presence. She casually makes her way over, and cheerfully begins to converse~

Me: Hello.

You: Heh. =|

Me: *is silent* >.> <.<

You: *is silent* =|

Me: *trys to break your silence with a joke*
What's white, steep and has ears? x3

You: *looks unamused* .....

Me: *tilts her head, not knowing why you are looking at her oddly*
A snow covered mountain!

You: What about the ears? =/

Me: Haven't you ever heard of mountaineers?? ^_____^

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Okies. I just felt like saying that.^^ Anyways...

How are you?? :3

I'm good! Today was fine, fine, fine! Though, I didn't really want to get up this morning. xDD I would have preferred to sleep in today. But, today, I didn't really do much, except write a paper for English. "What a good Citizen is" was my topic.

*rolls eyes*

It was rather boring. But, today I also joined Key Club! I was talking to my friend Bridget about how I need to get to know people at my school. I am sick of being "new" and unknown. And, she said that I should join some clubs.

Well, I agreed with her. I made a mental note to -sometime- ask to -maybe- join Key club. (Since that is the only one I am really interested in, maybe except for Service Club)

Well, I kinda put that on the back burner today. But, would you know it?! (Fate wouldn't let me back out from joining the key club. x3)

The treasurer of the Key club just HAPPENED to bump into me in the bathroom. It just HAPPENED to be Key club meeting day. And, it just HAPPENED to be the exact time when their meeting was to start.

Well, to make a long story short, she asked me randomly if I would like to join. I said, "Of course!" I mean, I thought it was an odd coincidence.

But, today was my first meeting, and we are doing a $50,000 fundraiser to raise money for the Tsunami victims!! ^^ I am sooo excited! We get to travel, and the victims of the Tsunami have been on my heart. I wanted to help them out soooo bad! It's unreal to me what has happened to them. But, i didn't know how the friggin' heck I could EVER help. It was like some sort of goal I didn't think I would ever be able to act upon.

And now, out of no where, and complete happenstance, I get asked to do this!

I am soo excited! Thank you God! :3

Well, I am gunna say...

BUH-BYE!

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Customer: I'm looking for a good buy.

Salesclerk: Okay. Goodbye. xP
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Wednesday, January 5, 2005

   I've had better days...
Today...

...I want it to become a yesterday. =(

School was terrible today for the most part. I didn't have a very good night last night either, and it's just...rough. But, I'm fine. It's just one of those days.

I'm trying to cheer myself at the moment. I'm glad I'm home. Maybe I will later just go up and get lost in videogames. That always helps me. It takes my mind of any stressful things. But, today, I just feel...useless. I don't really see how I am worth anything to people. It kinda sucks.

But, deep down, I know I am not useless. So, I know this will pass. It isn't depression, I think. I never get depressed. I just think it is discouragement. I don't feel like I can meet anyone's standards for me. I just don't feel good enough.

...and...

School is fun some days, but I feel so unknown. EVERYONE is nice to me, yet, I have no close friends. It's just hard. That's all I can say.

But, enough talk of that. I am not one who ever likes to focus on the negative. I will talk of some good things that happened today. =)

"Because, everyday something good always happens."^^

Today, I had fun in P.E. Not only is Mr. Thomson, my P.E. instructor, my favorite teacher, but we also played some odd game called mad ball. It was a.w.e.s.o.m.e.

I won't go into details about the sport and it's rules, but I really like P.E. I also made a major dodge, trying not to get hit by a ball, yet I jumped, did a flip type thing in the air(o_O), and then landed on the gym floor with a THUD!

...And then I got hit by a ball. T.T

...And got out. Sadness! Yet, it rocked. I love aggressive sports! Hah. I'm not really an aggressive person, but I love competition!

Also, today, I saw Jim.^.^ He didn't speak to me however. Grrrr. >.<

Lessee...more good things....

Uh...Pinyo! I soooo HART Pinyo! He's so sweet. He is a Thai exchange student, and he sits in front of me in my US History class.

Gee wow. That kid just makes my day! He is bubbly, fun, and talkative! Which, is my kind of person. I can talk the leg of a mule, so I really like it when people yak a lot.

I'm also thinking about joining some clubs. Perhaps Key Club, or Service Club. I need to get out there and meet some people in my new school.

But, all is yet well, only because I don't depend on school for my complete happiness. :) Though, it does dishearten me at times. I just hope I am a good person, and a person that is worth something, and that I am what I am supposed to be.

There is just nothing sweeter than when someone smiles a large, joyful smile when they see you enter the room. That's what I want...

Anyhoo, I'm outtys! This is prolly WAY to long again.

~Leanne~





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Tuesday, January 4, 2005

   I read books this week. O_O *everyone gasps*
Well, first off, I am feeling "On top of the world". To some extent. *sincere smile* =)

I feeeeeeeeeel GREAT! Just...like...gravy. o_O

Anyway. I am EXTREMELY tired at the moment, too, and I can hardly even keep my eyes open. O_o I slept about eight hours in the last 48 hours. >.>

I. are. tired. Zzzzz. -_-

Hah. I came home from school, layed by our fire place, and was OUT for about two hours. And now, I am feeling tired again. I promised myself that I would be in bed by 10pm tonight. So...I have an hour and a half 'til bedtime. ^_______^

Today at school I saw Jim. *google eyes*

Ah. I wish he liked me. Suuuuure, he notices my existance every week or so, and chats with me for a few fleeting (yet wonderful^^) moments.

I just wish...HE WOULD DO IT MORE OFTEN! Grrrr.

But, I also have some homework that I decided I will do tommorow, soooo, yeah. In English class I completed reading "King Arthur" and "Beowulf". They are pretty good stories.

My English teacher was ecstatic that I actually picked up a book. >.< She knows I absolutely HATE reading, and she has tried to get me to read during reading time for the past four months...and to no avail. Yet, she was overjoyed when I asked for her "King Arthur" book. It was like her eyes sparked with hope for me. o_O

I'm sooooorry, Mrs. Patterson. But, I HATE reading, except for certain books of my liking; and not very many books (almost none) are to my liking. x3

...But, I was glad I could make her day by reading...two...not one...book. :)

And, gasp! I actually enjoyed reading those stories. Maybe I won't flunk the book progress sheets this quarter. >.<

You see, each quarter, each student is supposed to have read up to three books.

And. I. read. none. last. quarter.

Not even a chapter. That is how much I dislike reading. Well, okay. I DID read a few chapters from "Arabian Nights", and "Sharahzahdi and the thousand tales".

Those stories I enjoyed. They were written a few thousand years ago in Arabia, and they have the original story of "Ali-baba and the forty Thieves", and "Aladdin and the wonderful Lamp". (Yes, those are the original stories which the Disney version was taken^^)

So, basically, I like classics: Moby Dick, some Shakespeare, The Iliad, The Oddessey, Phantom of the Opera, Dragon's Gate (<---not a classic, but I love the book. :3), The Robe, Oliver Twist, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn, etc.

I like classic books, or books written a long time ago, with awesome adventures. Anything less than that, I AM NOT INTERESTED IN.

"King Arthur" rocked meh sox, though! I love the part about Arthur's childhood, and how he was born, and how he pulled the magical sword from the stone.^^

Anyways, that was basically all I did in school today. I only had three classes today: Psychology, Spanish III, and English 11. We watched a movie about "Violent Minds and the causes" in Pysch, in Spanish III, I did ABSOLUTELY nothing. And in English, I read Beowulf.

So that was my day. Now go away. :P

:DD

Sincerely,

~Leanne, the scholar~





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