Tuesday, July 4, 2006

   Bleh.
I’m pretty foolish. I get upset over some strange stuff. It prolly seems dumb to most of you. It’s not dumb to me, because I’m weird.

I don’t have very man friends. I have one friend that I can trust, she and I are “in the same boat” on many things. I don’t trust people. 99.999999% of them are simply aren’t worth it. So, I’ve simply enjoyed the company of animals. Animals don’t consciously hurt you….Notice how I said consciously. Even animals can unintentially hurt you….if you’re overly sensitive like me that is.

My neighbors have been letting Gouda inside their house. No wonder I haven’t seen in him a couple days. Yeah. I got upset. Why? I don’t know. I was under the strange impression that the cat enjoyed being around me. Apparently he doesn’t. I’m also upset with my neighbors a little bit. They’re nice people, I really do like them. I only think the reason they let Gouda in is because of their granddaught, Hailey. Okay, fine. I don’t care if Haliey plays with him too…but… Gouda is a part of our family. I love him too, you know! I don’t I deserve to be able to spend some time with my own cat! He’s not yours! You don’t have to let him into your house.

I feel like I have to compete for my own cats’ attention. FINE. Two can play that game. I’ll start leaving cat food on the porch too then. I used to feed them inside as means to encourage them to come back inside… but since Mr. Will and Mrs. Cathy leave cat food on their porch for strays. I’ll leave food on the porch too. Well…atleast I have Sugar and Speedy. Sug, she tolerates little kids, their too noisy and stuff for her. And Speedy? He’s too dopey to have favorites. He loves everyone equally.

I know. It’s dumb to have my feelings hurt over my own cat’s affections. Most cats don’t have a sense of loyalty. They’re independent, they go were they feel like it. Tch. They’re time will come too. Gouda won’t want to play around with Haliey all the time. He’ll do something stupid over there and get himself kicked out.

Maybe it’s just PMS why I’m so sensitive right now. I guess at another time, I would’ve thought it funny. I’m babbling. I wanted to vent. Leave it to be to get depressed over a cat. Most of you wouldn’t understand anyhow. For as long as I can remember… I’ve had more animal friends than human… So how should I feel when my friend abandons me?

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