Tuesday, December 7, 2004

Weeee!
Ah, finally! Thank you two so much for saving me from insanity. I look forward to a button from ya Jamie ^_^

So, today was a half-day at school. So not only is there only twenty minutes of each class, I get the whole afternoon to do nothing! And my sister's at the mall with some friends so there's no one to bother me but my mom. Right now I've got Oreo the dog laying on one side and Oscar the cat on the other. And one of them just farted -_- ugh.

Not much has happened yet today. And a friend just arrived, not to mention my mom wants to type an email. So, I'll be going for now.
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Monday, December 6, 2004

Blaaaaah...
Noooobodyyy is listeniiiiing to meeeee, so I'm gonna siiiing until someone nooooticeees.

Oooh, how iiirritaaating,
Because I knooow you people knooooow, I exiiiist.

Ah screw it. I don't have much to say today (Hallelujia). Except that I was so sleepy I was trying to go to sleep through all of school. And the broken AC system doesn't help that. Oh well. I'm fine now.

Except that nobody knows I exist >:o arrrrggghh!
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Sunday, December 5, 2004

   *Yawn*
Aggh... I was gone ALL day. Woke up around six, had to go to church early because Mom was supposed to be at practice for a big musical thingy. And that made the church services longer, which we had to stay for BOTH of. Fortunately, I was only in the sanctuary for one of them, and was half asleep through most of it. Then we were home for just a bit before going back for a youth get together. My sister is in teh middle school group, so I had to be there early, and then the Highschool group did our thing, which went veeeery late. I just got home a few mintues ago, and it's about 8:50. Fortunately, we were all on sugar highs and bouncing off the walls. But that means that I'm all worn out and very sore >_<

So, now I'm here, typing to you people. If anyone's listening that is. Four days of revised activity and still no comments. u.u oh well.

Listening to my mix of FFX music on the media player is relaxing, but I am reminded that school's tomorrow. I hate getting up early to go to a place I could care less about... ah well. Perhaps now is a good time to discuss those depressing issues of mine... I want ot express my feelings here, but not while there's no one looking at my site. Argh, you peeooople! How troublesome.

Now what to do... I could mope around a bit... or bug my internet buddies about being bored... nah. I'll just finish up.

Whenever I Say Your Name, by Sting, with Mary J Blige(sp?)... [a '*' denotes Mary singing.]

'Whenever I say your name,
whenever I call to mind your face,
Whatever bread's in my mouth,
whatever the sweetest wine that I taste,
Whenever your memory feeds my soul,
Whatever got broken becomes whole,
Whenever I'm filled with doubts that we will be together;

*Wherever I lay me down,
Wherever I rest my head to sleep,
Whenever I hurt and cry,
Whenever I've got to lie awake and weep,
Whenever I kneel to pray,
Whevener I need to find a way,
I'm callin' out your name,*

Whenever those dark clouds hide the moon,
*Whenever this world has gotten so strange,*
I know somethin's gonna change,
*Somethin's gonna change,*

Whenever I say youre name,
*Whenever I say your name,*
I'm already prayin',
*I'm already prayin',*
Already filled with a joy that I can't explain,
Wherever I lay me down,
*Wherever I rest my weary head to sleep,*
Whenever I hurt and cry,
*Whenever I've got to lie awake and weep,*
Whenever I'm on the floor,
Whatever it was that I believed before,
Whenever I say your name,
*Whenever I say it loud,*
I'm already prayin'...'
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Saturday, December 4, 2004

   Hallo
Well well, it seems my return to activity has yet to spark interest in any of my current friends. No matter. I shall continue typing as if I'm talking to myself! =P Nya.

So, today is looking good so far. I'm still in a more or less good mood, so I'm still gonna hold off on those depressing issues alluded to in my last update. My mom and sis are gonna be out of the house for most of the day, so I can relax and enjoy the solitude. Not that I enjoy solitude... *ahem* anyway, back on track.

I watched The Last Samurai for the second time last night with my mom. I just love that movie so damn much. It stays so true to Japanese culture. And of course, like I do after sparking an old obsession, I made a banner of it! Unfortunately, I couldn't find quite the right image... it's a little grainy. But I managed, after a half hour of trying to get straight, to get some Japanese on it. It wouldn't let me put in the characters, so I got it translated into romaji. It's something like... "Bushi no houhou ha seimei dearu." Which, roughly translated means "The way of the warrior is life." or "The way of the samurai is life."

If you want to see it, tough. I'm not showing. But maybe if you ask reaaal nice.

Well, I do believe there is some ass-kicking to be done on Halo 2, so if you'll excuse me, I'll get some lyrics on and be going.

I'm Only Sleeping by the Beatles...

'When I wake up early in the morning,
Lift my head, I’m still yawning.
When I’m in the middle of a dream,
Stay in bed, float up stream (float up stream),
Please don’t wake me, no, don’t shake me,
Leave me where I am, I’m only sleeping.
Everybody seems to think I’m lazy.
I don’t mind, I think they’re crazy
Running everywhere at such a speed,
Till they find there’s no need (there’s no need),
Please don’t spoil my day, I’m miles away,
And after all, I’m only sleeping.
Keeping and eye on the world going by my window,
Taking my time, lying there and staring at the ceiling,
Waiting for a sleepy feeling.
Please don’t spoil my day, I’m miles away,
And after all, I’m only sleeping.
Keeping an eye on the world going by my window,
Taking my time.
When I wake up early in the morning,
Lift my head, I’m still yawning.
When I’m in the middle of a dream,
Staying in bed, float up stream (float up stream),
Please don’t wake me, no, don’t shake me,
Leave me where I am, I’m only sleeping.'
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Friday, December 3, 2004

   Anyone Out There?
What? Nobody cares about me anymore? Come on, I know you guys are still out there... hmm? Oh, come on, I was only gone, uh... two... three months? Oh, poo on you people.

Well, regardless if anyone is listening, I'm gonna update! Well, today two things happened. One, we went to a Dr. Shanker who prescribes me and my sister's medication. My sis's meds got switched, mine are aparently working fine. Secondly, we had to go see the counselor. Yes, as a family. It went rather well, but it still annoys me.

Anyway, Now I'm sitting here watching CSI, hoping that someone notices my renewed activity.

I was going to post something... rather depressing. My own issues I need to sort out. But I'm in a decidely good mood right now, so I'll save it for later I suppose.

Well, here's the traditional lyrics... And Your Bird Can Sing, by the Beatles...

'You say you've got everything you want,
And your bird can sing,
But you don't get me,
You don't get, me;

You say you've seen seven wonders,
And your bird is green,
But you can't see me,
You can't see, me;

When your prised possesions,
Start to weigh you down,
Look in my direction,
I'll be 'round,
I'll be 'round,

When your bird is broken,
Will it bring you down?,
You may be awoken,
I'll be 'round,
I'll be 'round,

You tell me that you've heard every sound there is,
And your bird can swing,
But you can't hear me,
You can't hear, me;'
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Thursday, December 2, 2004

   Yes! I'm Alive!
My Goodness, I'm sooo sorry vfor being gone for so long! The truth is, things have been hectic the last few months and I completely forgot about MyOtaku!

Well, I hope there's still a few of you looking for me. You break my heart if you're not ;_;

Well, I'll be replacing my current music, as much as I like it, with some FFX music. That's Final Fantasy X for you non-gamer folk. And my introduction is in deffinate need of a makeover. Well, time to update you people!

I got depressed again right about when school started. Coincidence, possibly. Anyway, I got a tad bit violent as a result of the depression. I ended up in St. Johns Hospital as an 'in patient' for a week, which quite frankly, didn't help at all. Now I have to see a damn counselor or I get booted off the insurance. I despise counselors.

Well, things are beginning to shape up. My sister seems to be worse off than me at the moment. We found out she was cutting, so she was in St. Johns before I was. The self-abuse has stopped, but now she's gotten really angsty. Depressing as hell.

We have a new addition to the family! No, not a baby silly, a cat! His name's Oscar, we got him from the vet up the street. He's very docile and gets along with the dog. Peach colored, six years old.

Anyway, in keeping with my tradition, I'm posting some lyrics! See if you recognize this from Kingdom Hearts...

'When you walk away,
You don't hear me say,
Please, oh baby, don't go,
Simple and clean is the way that,
you're making me feel tonight,
It's hard to let it go;

You're giving me,
too many things, lately,
You're all I need,
You smiled at me,
And said,

Don't get me wrong, I love you,
But does that mean I have to,
meet, your father,
When we are older, you'll understand,
What I meant when I said, "No,
I don't think life is quite that simple,"

[Chorus- 'When you walk away..']

The daily things,
That keep us all busy,
All confusing me,
That's when you came to me,
and said,

Wish I could prove I love you,
But does that mean I have to,
Walk, on water,
When we are older you'll understand,
It's enough when I say, so,
And maybe, some things are that simple,

Hold me,
Whatever lies beyond this morning,
Is a little later on,
Regardless of warnings,
the future doesn't scare me at all,
Nothing's like before
'
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Friday, August 27, 2004

I Return!
Hello! Konichiwa! Konbanwa! Ohayoo! Yes, I'm finally updating my Otaku account! If you're my friend, you know that I haven't updated since July... why you ask? Because I left for vacation and got off-track.

Anyway, I'll try and keep it constant again. Hope none of you have completely lost interest in me!

So, I'll keep with the tradition and post some lyrics... This one's by Sting. Send Your Love.

"Finding the world,
In teh smallness of a grain of sand,
And holding infinities,
In the palm of your hand,

And Heaven's realms,
In teh seedlings of this tiny flower,
And eternities,
In the space of a single hour;

Send you love,
Into the future,
Send your love,
Inot the distant dawn;

Within your mind is a relay station,
A mission probe into the unknowing,
We send a seed to a distant future,
Then we can watch the galaxies growing,

This aint no time for doubting your power,
This aint no time for hiding your care,
You're climbing down from an ivory tower,
You've got a stake and the world we ought ot shake;

See the stars are moving so slowly,
But still the Earth is moving so fast,
Can't you see the moon is so lonely,
She's still trapped in the pain of the past;

This is the time of the worlds colliding,
This is the time of kingdoms falling,
This is the time of the worlds dividing,
Time to heed your call;

Send your love,
Into the future,
Send your precious love,
Into some distant time,
Fix that wounded planet,
With the love of your healing,

Send you love,
Sendyour love;..."
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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Aye, no worries Artemis, I don't take offense too easily ^_^.

Anyway, Ohayoo to the rest of you! (That's right, I'm typing in the morning again) Man, don't you wish there was a japanese 'hello' for all times of day? Oh well!

Not much to say as of now, mostly because it's early and nothing much has happened yet... huh.

OK, I just love the Kill Bill soundtrack... so here goes a few lyrics!

Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down)--
"I was five and he was six,
We rode on horses made of sticks,
He wore black and I wore white,
He would always win the fights,

Bang bang,
he shot me down,
bang bang,
I hit the ground,
bang bang,
that aweful sound,
bang bang,
My baby shot me down;

Seasons came and changed the time,
When I grew up I called him mine,
He would always laugh and say,
Remember when we used to play,

Bang bang,
I shot you down,
bang bang,
you hit the ground,
bang bang,
that aweful sound,
bang bang,
I used to shoot you down;

Music played and people sang,
Just for me, the church bells rang;

Now he's gone, I don't know why,
Until this day, I sometimes cry,
He didn't even say goodbye,
HE didn't take the time - to lie,

Bang bang,
he shot me down,
bang bang,
I hit the ground,
bang bang,
that aweful sound,
bang bang,
My baby shot me down."
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