Wednesday, June 1, 2005

   Scared
I'm in really deep shit right now and are scared to death about what could happen to my life. I'm still struggling with bulimia after all these years and I 'm starting to throw up blood and have heart pain. I'm worried for my life and I don't want people to abandon and keep their distance just because I'm sick. I really want to be held and comforted and not be lonely. I was crying all day yesterday because I'm just too scared of everything. The only person I feel can lift me back up is my lover, but I don't want to make her worry and get depressed, becuase I want her to be happy. When she's happy, I'm happy. I'm gonna get help soon tho, because I don't wanna end up in the emergency room again.
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Monday, May 23, 2005

   Yamibou pie
Time for the shoujo-ai people! it's good for you. Here's some shot's from Yami to Boushi to Hon no Tabibito, one of my faves! I loves it.

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This is soo me
The dog looks like Sassy!!!

What Common Breed of Dog Are You?
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   My fave horse breed hahaha

What breed of horse are you? Find out!
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Sunday, May 22, 2005

   happy today
last night was wonderful. My baby slept over and we had the greatest time! We went in the jacuzzi and we dunked Toria and she carried me in the water it was so fun and then we watched Monty Python's Meaning of Life which is one of the funniest things I've ever seen. We were laughing out asses off. And the Grim Reaper talked like Roger lol. And in the evening we made love and went to sleep after the movie. At first we couldn't sleep so we whispered to each other till we fell asleeps. In the morning we made love again and then I made her breakfast! I love making stuff for her! *squeals* It was hard to leave her, as it always is, so I can't wait to see her on Tuesday! *starts counting the hours*

I REALLY want The L Word boxset right now. Maybe if I beg my mommy will get it for me...I'm such a little spoiled child...^^
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Friday, May 20, 2005

   I feel so lucky
Damn despite the headache i have right now I feel so happy to be alive right now. My health is improving and I have a gorgoeus girlfriend who happens to be the love of my life. I feel so lucky and blessed to have her in my life. She makes me so incredible each day. I love you Carleigh, you are my universe.
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except for the suicide part...^^;;

You have an Outcast Soul. You are rejected from
society, and you can't seem to find the reason
why, though you spend hours searching for it.
You often feel lonely and seperate from
humanity. One of your favourtie places to be is
by the ocean, as you can lose your thoughts and
dreams in the vastness of it. You are very
quiet around people, afraid that they too with
cast you away. You only come out of your shell
when you deeply trust someone. Your deepest
desire is too be truly loved and protected. You
often release your frustration at life by
painting or drawing out the ideas inside your
head. You are a stronger person than you
realise, even though you sometimes have
thoughts of suicide. Just don't give up.

Likely Career: Artist, vetenarian, or marine
biologist.
Prized Possesion: You don't worry about material
things.
Mythical Creature: Mermaid


What kind of soul do you have? (Long results and beautiful anime pics!)
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

This quiz read my mind

PURE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE:

You need the type of love that's not found in
movies. The kind of love where there are no
secrets. Where they know everything there is to
know about you and you know all there is to
know about them and you STILL love eachother.
This is a very RARE form of love, b/c-let's
face it-no one tells ALL of their secrets, but
the more you can confide in your partner, the
better off you will be!


What Kind of Love Do You Desire?
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   You can never love too much at all...more is better!

You love to love and don't care who knows.
Sometimes you go over board but sometimes it's
not always a good over board. You believe in
the love at first sight deal but sometimes
that's not always good.


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   Tis true

~*~*~*~ LOVING~*~*~*~
Your loving nature makes you wonderful to be
around. You are the type of person that accepts
people for who they are and they in return of
your good heartedness, accept you right back.
You are most likely a romantic at heart. With a
sensitive soul and probably a broken heart from
the past, you don't usually trust people. You
have probably been hurt by someone you love or
loved dearly which makes it hard to confide in
others. Easy going and romantic, fun and
lovable, you have a great personality. You are
very well liked in the general world that
you're in.

Please Rate or message me! Thank you for taking my
quiz! XoXo <3 Lana


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