Monday, November 14, 2005

my weekend...
Mood : confused
on Friday, not to much happened... school sucked as usual. On Saturday i went to the mall with Levi, Casey, BJ, Courtney, and some people i dont know...it was a lot of fun. then we all went to McDonalds...lol! that was cool. i had to be home by nine, so levi took me home around seven thirty. we got back to wellington about an hour early, so him and i went to the park and hung out. then on Sunday, my friends hanna and carmen went around and took tons of pictures... that was fun. my friend hanna is having some problems, her aunt choked her and tried to kill her so she spent the night last night... she doesnt know what she is going to do, i hope that all works out. i talked on the phone to Levi last night on the phone for like 7 hours... beating my record of five hours! lol! we talked until like 3:30-4:00 this morning. i was like...loopy...last night. i went crazy on the phone after midnight... i like totally lost it, and i kept sayin "odd" things like "theres a blue piggy and he shits cheese" lol! i dunno what i was thinking tho. lol! but i also said some important things to Levi about how i feel, i really opened up to him without really meaning to... i guess when it gets late i tell everything thats on my mind.... EVERYTHING! i guess thats the best time to get information outta me. lol! im an odd person. i mean even my friends dont seem to really BE THERE for me, you know what i mean? they all seem so diffrent and i cant trust or really talk and let it all out to anyone, i wish i could just sit down with someone and...cry. just cry. i need that, but i dont have anyone there for me except for levi and i dont wanna have to put him thru all my emotional baggage... thats not right, its enough im pulling him through high school again, coming home and telling him all my problems.... but despite everything...he actually...listens. he's the first person i think to do that in a long time. i mean sure people hear me when i talk but no one truely LISTENS... i dunno if anyone gets that. i am sure no one is actually reading all of this tho, so i can just sit here and...vent. it fells better, but i guess it is kinda sad im venting to a computer...lol! oh well... im sure i will talk to levi about most of this anyway.... i just... oh never mind, i dunno what i am talking about. well i guess this is long enough, so i better get going, i will talk to whoever, whenever, i guess... thanks for listening...


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Tuesday, November 8, 2005

   hey
i am glad i have this thing because right now i need to vent... big time. i dunno where to begin. my dad and i are not on good terms... at ALL! and he is always upsetting me and doing things that i wish he wouldnt. he married this ugly a$$ bi*** and she is a flippen she devil! she totally has complete control over him... and he doesnt even relize it and then he takes it all out on me and my little brother! its not fair! and to top all of that off... well theres good news in this too i guess... my dad is divorcing HER... but the bad thing is he wants to move me and my little brother to Florida! i dont wanna go, im NOT gonna go! not this time... if i can help it. im my own person im not gonna let my dad get in the way of my happiness if possible. i cant stand this... it's either my dad's happiness (i go with him) or my own happiness (and stay here and finish high school with all my friends...ect.) i dont know what to do. this is so... horrible. i ust need my friends right now to be here for me and to let me know everything is all right and i am sure i will get through all of this... eventually... hopefully...someday soon!
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Friday, November 4, 2005

hey
hey everyone. not a whole lot going on here. i am just sitten around doing a whole lot of nothing... like usual. this week has been different. play practice is starting to take a toll on me... this is the 2nd year in a row that i have had the lead, and it is so stressful, especially trying to live up to last year's performance, its going to be very difficult, and i dont know if i can. i am going to try tho.
i found out about someone that i am close to is having some problems... she wants to cut herself again... i keep telling her not too, but in the end there really is nothing i can do. i am hopeing all will be ok with her too. And also one of my best friends likes all of my ex's. im not mad, just... bewildered, i guess is the word for it. i mena i dont care if she dates them, cause i am not single and i do not have dibbs on them, but it is kinda wierd i guess. anyways, i am just trying to get over the stupid little things and think about all of the good things, like how much i LOVE my boyfriend, and how much all of my friends are there for me. if it weren't for them, i would prolly be depressed, but i have friends and a lot of people that love me, so i am ok. lol! well i better get going, this is a long post. i hope you all have a super-fabulous day. comment me if you have the time.

o.O oh and i have a new friend! i dunno if he considers me as a friend, but i consider him as my friend. he is a person on here- EvilMonkey. he is really nice and very interesting too! well now i will ttyl! love ya,

anissa
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Wednesday, November 2, 2005

hey everyone! COMMENT ME!
hey guys... i havent updated my site in a while... i have been on here and stuff but i havent done nething to my site... Halloween was AWSUME! i dressed up as a punk rock hooker! all black and hot pink... cool huh? anyways... i am so HAPPY like really and seiously happy... and nothing can bring me down! hehehehe! everything is going my way finally, ya know.... well i guess i'll ttyl! i love all you guys! comment me if you get the chance!

anissa
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

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hey everyone!
this is a new post for anyone who actually reads them and comments on them, which isnt very much at all! lol! this weekend was kim's 18th birthday party. it was pretty fun... we ate pizza and went into a hottub and just talked... it was a good time! then on sunday i went to my mom's house (jay took me there) and my mom showed TONS of embarrasing photos! NOT COOL! it was horrible! anyways it wasnt that bad i guess... but all in all i had a good weekend!
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Monday, September 19, 2005

   comment me
im sitten here in seminar doing nuttin... so yeah
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hey everyone! COMMENT ME!
this weekend i went to the mall. it was fun, my aunt and cousins were in town. so what did all of u do this weekend? yeah well i better go!

anissa
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

im sitten here in my biology class. we just got done doin some expiriments! yeah nuttin special. i hate science tho im no good at it! hehehe!~ but today i had to go to the principals office and i was like what did i do? u know. but all he wanted to say was congrats on the part! hehehehehe! i was so scared tho! omg! u know it's totally nerve racking. im so tired of my damn school tho! i just wanna leave here and go live with my aunt in illinois. my abusive step mom wants me back and im like f*** no! i hate that! i just wanna live my life without all this drama, with my boyfriend. anyway, i better get back to work. comment me ok! i would LOVE to talk to someone, especially if you are new to my site! have a super-fabulous day!

love always,
anissa
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   hey hey hey!!!!!
hey guys!!!! i got the part, so yeah! but like people are so pissed sayin im a slut and i fit the part and she was type casting because the part i got she likes like 3 guys or something like that! it makes me soooo mad! but i am also so very happy! i mean I got the part! i didnt know if i could but i did and i am so happy.... hehehehe.... well thanks to all those who actually care and are my friends and to those who support me!!!!! THANK YOU!
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