Monday, December 19, 2005

I DONT KNOW WHY I AM WRITING THIS... CUZ AGAIN NO ONE READS THESE... AND THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT DID WERE PEOPLE I DONT KNOW... BUT I KNOW THEM NOW CUZ THEY ARE TRUE FRIENDS!!!!!!
hey well, i am here to talk... emily said some more crap on her xanga about me... and i wrote this to her...
" i dont know what the heck ur problem is this time emily. i have done NOTHING to you! u know more than one person i know reads ur xanga and told me what u wrote! i thot u said all of this is over... u were even the one who said no more writing about eachother over the internet... and u have done it again. i really dont know what i did.... but whatever. again i will say it, i am sorry. now please just stop and leave me alone with all of this nonsence.

anissa"

i dont think i was mean. i was really level headed when i wrote that and i was very calm... so yeah. anyway, i wouldnt have wrote that if she would have just come up to my face and said something today, but she didnt. i dont know what to do anymore. she is just driving me absolutely crazy with all of this. i dont know what i have done this time but i guess that i am just a horrible person and i deserve no friends... i dunno.
anyways, tonight is tiger night. i have to sing in the choir. i think it will be a little fun. i am excited to see courtney and levi there. brett, i am sorry if you cant make it! i really am! and i am sure sam will understand. she always does. umm... but there is bad news levi, my little sister is in it too and she told me that if my dad and step mom can, they will be there.... im scared... but then again the likelyhood is slim cuz she has an appointment and she might be in the hospital tonight... so ya... please still come, ok. please... i really want you too. u get to meet my little sister and maybe my little brother... lol!
ummm.... what more to say... i had an algebra test today... brett u know you liked it! lol! i dont think i did well... i never do... tests arent my thing, im not too smart... o.O well.
im really tired today, i actually slept through the night. i think it was cuz i was axusted.
im in kinda a down mood though. for more than one reason... 1. christmas is coming up and i dont want it to. this year wont be the best and i already know that. i dont wanna see my dad, and i am actually glad kathy might not be there. and THAT makes me feel worst. i feel like a horrible person for feeling that way... i mean it makes me conceited. cuz i want my own happiness and not my dad's... or her's. but thats not entirely true... i want him to be happy.... just... not with her... anyway...2. my dad made my grandma cry this weekend... it was horrible! 3. im stessed for the thingie tonight. 4. something someone said makes me feel like im not quite good enoughfor them. i mean, i know that i am, so dont get me wrong... but its just that feeling. he appologized and everything, but still... i know he was serious and he didnt mean it like that, i really do, but i just feel... i dunno, wierd. 5. one word...emily. well that about somes it up.

anissa
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