Sunday, September 16, 2007

What Can i say....i think this is what i've been trying to tell myself all along...at least i figured it out eventually
I remember the windows rolled down and the wind in my hair
Driving 'round in your Daddy's old Chevy
Like we were going somewhere

We thought that summer would last us forever
Going steady was just something you do
I didn't know much about love
I learned that from you

Now those were some good times
Lately they don't seem to last
I guess I'm not nearly as strong as a drink in your glass
And the nights just get later
I can stay up and wait or just go on to bed like I do
I never knew nothing about lonely
I learned from that you

And I learned how to kiss on a ferris wheel
And I made wishes at wishing wells
And I fell into that fairytale too
And I know that love ain't so easy
But we tried, didn't we baby
It's alright
Some dreams weren't meant to come true
I learned that from you

One night while the whole world was turning
I left you a note
And I told you that I'd always miss you
Then I let you go
I'm living outside of some town I ain't heard of
And I think about the boy I knew
I didn' t know you could fall out of love
I learned that from you

And I learned how to kiss on a ferris wheel
And I made wishes at wishing wells
And I fell into that fairytale too
And I know that love ain't so easy
But we tried, didn't we baby
It's alright
Some dreams weren't meant to come true
I learned that from you

I remember the windows rolled down
And the wind..

I learned that from you-Sara Evans
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Friday, September 14, 2007

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Saturday, September 1, 2007

Shiloh
Maybe wonder can exceed the complications that we bring
For something is just nothing, a fragile little thing
She is sheltered, she is quiet, fastened with his broken wings
She's an angel no one sees because they don't know how to feel
Something other than good looks, something a little more real
If they could only she into her mangled heart
Then maybe just maybe they wouldn't try to tear her apart
Words are such useless devices, their the weapons that we crave
A dagger in the distance, a twisted, torn shape
Just remember me as something better than what it seems
I may be just some girl but i also have dreams
One day i'll be light in universal skies
When you see me flying dont be afraid to say good bye
If can think of the name
Rather than whose to blame
Someday i may find you when you stop treating life like a game

*yeah...not my best but i got bored. I was thinking of a story about a girl who is...not ignored, but not really acknowledged as herself. No one remembers her because she doesnt "stand out" but she is content with that. She has dreams that no one can take from her. Her one favor to ask is that they try to
remember her. thats it. just to remember. yeah kinda confusing but...it makes sense to me. its just harder to explain.
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Thursday, August 30, 2007

Hold on!
We don’t have time left to regret
It will take more than common sense
So stop your wondering take a stand
Theres more to life than just to live

Cause an empty room can be so loud
Its too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

One single smile a helping hand
Its not that hard to be a friend
So don’t give up stand 'til the end
Theres more to life than just to live

Cause an empty room can be so loud
Its too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When it falls apart
And your feeling lost
All your hope is gone
don’t forget to hold on, hold on

Cause an empty room can be so loud
Its too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on

Cause an empty room can be so loud
Its too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

"Hold on" by the Jonas Brothers

I personally dont like the song but the lyrics amaze me to no end. Its so true...So I'm holding on! P.S. i like someone at my school...so excited! he's so amazing!
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Sunday, August 26, 2007

Clear
Now that your gone
I drift away
Can't seem to feel
Can't seem to fade
It's cold outside
Raining on my sunny day
Clouds came and washed it all away
The drops fall through everything
I cry
Lying so small on the floor
Theres no room to hide
Whatever makes me think I can replace
Something so warm but theres no trace
I'm so pale now, translucent
White eyes and black tears flowing
Can't fly away
Not this time
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Thursday, August 23, 2007

   Magnolia and a cold...
*Sings along to Mometum by the Hush Sound* So i'm sick with this cold/throat/nose/ache type thing...*passes out* So school is..interesting if not some sick joke to drive me utterly insane...so for our entertainment i shall write a short story...so here it goes:

I kept walking, staring at my long, narrow feet as i did. I had nothing to say. I was a mountain in a foriegn land far away. I was consumed by confusing thoughts. Pure and innocent sadness with wet, ocean like tears. Anger with ferocity so concentrated it ran through me like fire and sand. My own voice drowned out by the echo of the shattering message replaying in my head. Normally i would never get so caught up in stuff like this but somehow the obsession had come and swallowed me whole. I felt like that song that goes slow and melancoley in the begining then rushes to a cresendo and closes with a bittersweet note that leaves an awkward after taste on the tongue. I reflected back on my day again to trace the sources of the said "conflict". It had started with Milo accusing me of being "untrue" to myself and only doing what would make others happy. He had said, "Sophi, I can't understand why you never listen to what I say. Your happiness is the only thing that concerns me. Why can't you just say whats on your mind. You only live to please others and until you gather yourself back together, I can't be here." Sure i loved to make others happy because it made me happy in turn. But he was gone until i had got it together. But his leaving had left me more broken than i was. The truth was he wasn't "leaving" the school, just me and all the classes we shared together. Abbigail would stay with me for sure, but i only needed one thing now: to crawl in my bed and cry until the ripping sobs trapped me in an unconscious, life less sleep. Thats when i saw the object of the situation postioned so modelesque next to my locker. I was confused. At first he said nothing. He just stared at my blank, sour face. "Sorry, i can be a bit too critical sometimes." He half smiled. "Thats much too much of an understatement." And then i did something i thought i could never do to milo: I walked away without another word. The pain wanted to rip through my shakey body and the heals i wore weren't helping. Somehow he kept pace with me even though i had walked away as fast as walking allows. "I want to help." He pleaded while staying faithfully by my side. "You've done enough for one day. You think you can say anything without it having reprocussions. Well my brother died Milo. It's not something i can get over in a second. It may have been four months ago but he was my family. He's never coming back." I could never say Tristans name anymore. It was too crippling. Every time i had the vision of his limp body in front of the red ancient chevy came to mind...I had to silence the pain and the only way to do that was to cut it out of my mind. But somehow it was there floating in the very back of my thoughts. No matter how hard i had tried, it was there. And it was never going to go away.

Thats chapter seven of magnolia...or should i say so far what is chapter seven.. comments will be much appreciated and yes i know i suck at spelling so please dont remind me.
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Title: The Puzzle and the Pieces
You couldn't reveal
what you had to conceal
And now i want it
You are so difficult
Like the result
Of our struggle
Why couldn't you see
That it was just me
On your canvas
Now you walk alone
So stone cold
But your the problem
You couldn't say it
It wasn't different
But you want to
Now your through
With something i knew
And now i'm crying
I've had enough of this
So many regrets
I try to digress
Recession
Or division
It's beautiful
Do you see the pieces
Of the reject
that you wanted
Well excuse me
Your too busy
To want to hear me
Maybe the artist
Shes the largest
Part of the puzzle
You deny
What you can't fight
So imperfect
I find another shard
Of the part
Of this puzzle
The puzzle of my heart
I won't wonder how
I've had enough of this for now
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

This is my favorite song. It's me.
As we sift through the hour glass
We realize that an hours passed
And not a person here is innocent
Were both as guilty as a sin

It must have rained all through the night
The tires just couldn't grip right
So I took another long sip
And wiped away my chapped lips

This is how it ends
We believe every lie and say we'll be friends
How long will it last
Before we scratch all the scripts and we rework the cast

As the hour met the minute hand
We kept racing through this foreign land
With no direction or a telephone
Together we were all alone

That's when the puzzle was finally pieced
We compromised until our bodies siezed
To some we seem like colder creatures well
We were warm until we went to hell

Cast the first stone
Lets pretend that we don't have a
Past the worst one
Forbid forget forget that you exist"

the hush sound-"the hourglass"
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Saturday, August 18, 2007

So sad..I am a nerdy girl...

What type of girl are you?!!
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Friday, August 17, 2007

It's just me and my gang!
Quote For today (It makes alot of sense...):
"Where did i go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along with the bitterness and would i stay up with you all night, had i known how to save a life." The Fray- "How to save a life"

Okay i have some news:
1) I am the VICE PRESIDENT of Ivesia!
2) We're dancing to "Naive" By the Kooks (My favorite breakup song btw)
3)I'm with Nena, Aimee, and Chones for the dance
4)I don't know anyone in my spanish class and i am going to fail.
5)I got the new within temptation cd (OMG it is so much better than all the others!!!)
6)I got the YYH dvd "Sixth Sense" (and watched in one day)
7)I have a stalker named manny who will NOT leave me the hell alone.
8)Aimee and i are finally starting a band!
9) I can do the splits perfect now.
10) i'm almost done with my first poetry/lyric/inspirational book. All i need is a title...Any suggestions? I'm thinking "No Empathy Inside" or "Finally Forgiven"...emo i know but i cant think of anything else...

And now it is time for yet another quote which is my new personal favorite (why are all the quotes i pick related to what i feel at the exact moment i post?...):

"Couldn't save you from the start
Love you so it hurts my soul
Could you forgive me for trying again
Your silence makes me hold my breathe
Time has passed you by

You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All thats dones forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All thats dones forgiven

I watched the clouds drifting away
Still the sun can't warm my face
I know it was destined to go wrong
You were looking for the great escape
To cahse your demons away"
Within Temptation-"Forgiven"
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