Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Simple Observations By Ash and Em
So in our day and age there seems to be a little confusion as to what is "sexy" and what is...well..NOT. Even though it is hard to categorize with all the stereotypes and whatnot, there are just some universal "i am a buttweasel but will still be living in my parents basement when i'm 30" signs and (lack of) mannerisms. Now, this may seem a tad opinionated yet we have to suffer through high school and the male species so we have every right to this.
*there are some good guys out there but i havent met any of them yet....ash*
Lets start off with some not-so-*ahem*attractive characteristics:

-guys that are skinnier than me(almost size 4)
-guys who look in the mirror more so than looking at how rediculous they look in size 0 jeans. *seriously- if they are in danger of tearing at the ass seam DO NOT WEAR THEM.em*
-guys who flirt even when they have a girlfriend*especially the ones who claim "oh shes just an old friend from school" * *and/or the ones who have a kid...dont ask.-em*
-guys who burn through hair gel and mascara faster than me.
-guys who think showing off like an idiot is going to get them chicks*seriously this makes me think "uh...dumbass"-ash* *but ti is really cute when they attempt to show off and..uh..FAIL.-em*
-guys who think they know EVERYTHING and the patronize you because of it.
-guys who wont stand up to their friends if they snub his girlfriend. *RAHHHHH..i know this too well!!!-ash*
-some lies are cute but the big ones- like the 2nd girlfriend...ya...not so good.
-guys who are afraid to say what they feel to your face but will openly post it to the world on a blog. *....-ash*
-email is NOT a source of valid communication when your dating some one. *it helps to have a face-to-face conversation instead of one consisting of smiley faces and computer jargin in place of real words.-em*
-when guys say they want to be friends they never really mean it cuz odds are they are already onto their next catch of the day. *ha, sounds like fish.-em*

And now a list of what makes us think ALL guys are not dweebs.

-when they talk to you first and make the first move instead of you having to do every damn thing in the relationship...em doesnt agree with me but hey i have experience in this matter.
-when they find that nice fragile line between rude and honest. for example- expresing feelings but not blurting out EVERY little thing that comes to mind when a girls gets dressed up for a date. *this can be a tramatic experiance...for both parties...pervertedness is only cute when its funny*
-it IS attractive and charming when a guys VOLUNTARILY opens a door for you...not just becuase your parents are right there or because it is physically impossible for his date to do so.
-tatoos are neither masculane or feminine. *they are awesome on anyone who wears them with dignity and NOT just because they got drunk the night before.-em*
-it is also neither attractive or stupid to have a motorcycle...it shows that you have an intrest and like a little danger....and gas isnt as high!*however, if your riding around in a chinsy little yamaha that your mother bought you because she pittied you...then-NO. get a job and move out of their basement you lazy ass.-em*
-reading is sexy!*especially when you UNDERSTAND the words in front of you. *speaking with more than 2 syllables in each sentence is also a nice attribute...in any language.-em*

epilogue-
(Em's)
So-reader- at this point you are either laughing...or callin your lawyer to take us to court. well, in that case, grow a backbone. Moving on, this is in no way sexist or discriminatory, like we said, they are observations and true accounts and experiances. we wish you good luck and you may take this as an educational lesson...minus a lecture. In closing, i know it is incredibly hard to find that balance and conscience between right and asshole-ness, but thats just it. you werent born a moron so you'll always have room to change. cheers!

(ash's)
What she said...and i hope that many of you can learn from what we have experienced and took the time to share with you...trust me its hard to collaborate when two girls are strongly opinionated! ...this is in no way a diss or sexist...so learn from it!



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Monday, June 18, 2007

I love this song but it makes me so sad...i think of.....people....
Over and Over by Three Days Grace

I feel it everyday it's all the same
It brings me down but I'm the one to blame
I've tried everything to get away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to

It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel DEAD
I know what's best for me
But I WANT you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to

God, its me in a song. But its true....i miss emily....and people. I'm only human so its in my nature to long for what i cannot have. I'm gonna right a story based on me and my life experiences...the good, the bad, the damn hilarious, and the cry-me-a-frickin-sea its so sad stories. And i will mention my numerous favorite song lyrics. Omg you guys i found my prom dress!!! its a crimson color and its floor length, sleeveless with ruffels down one side and this net stuff down the other....so i have the dress i just need a date!!!...if i can even get one. I think my flirting mechanism is broken...but oh well going with friends is cool too! I had a dream that was so weird last night..i went to some concert thing with this guy who goes to my school. i thought i liked him for awhile but i decided i didnt and that i liked james. But back to the dream...we were at the concert thing and then i kissed him!!!! and it was nice!...now i just have to figure out what that means to me psychologically...am i on the rebound? was it just random?...dunno...i need EMILY!!!! and catie and celeste and leslie and morgan and roxie and brittany. well toodles!

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Friday, June 15, 2007

   I bite back!
So...i'm in love with someone who doesn't exist. My heart aches...damn. I need to stop reading books! I know i'm crazy but can't a girl dream? Oh i wish....that i had somebody to love!!!! Rawr!!! Well back to my deranged world of vampires, werewolves, witches, and anime characters. I live in my dreams because the real world pretty much sucks. In my mind i'm not ordinary...i'm so different. I'm a better person than i am in this world. I wish i could be as good as my dreams. I wish i could be somebody someone would want. Lets face it i'm emo and weird and to most that is not attractive...not even to me. Well that ends my midnight revelation. Hope it wasnt as whiney as it sounded and that someone out there will understand...or at least not call me clinically insane.

"You are exactly my brand of heroin."
-Edward Cullen (My make-believe vampire protector/lover/friend) if only...
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Thursday, June 14, 2007

   a song and me in a post.
Sound by Ashaliegh

Call me wonderless if it suits me so
Take me dear away from here
Lost and cold i wonder so
The thread connecting us has ripped
And i've fallen from my heart and slipped
The doorway has closed between our souls
Can't you see I'm wondering?
If the mirage has wiped away
the moon will show us a new day
Come away

Chorus:
Can't i change for you and myself too
But i worry of how i should be
life goes on like the longest song
some melodies just go on and on
hurt and worry seem to follow me
slip forward into the greyish sea

Dear i cannot follow you into the blue
but i wish i could
this friendship has to be an epiphany for you and me
I cannot swim in this ungodly mist
My chandalier has fallen and broken
onto the floor and i cant breath
to love and lose the only thing that matters to you cannot be
the only thing that torchures me

Chorus

These city lights wont find me in the dark
I hate to drift with my only gift
An open sea with its waves drag over me and pull me into eternity
hold me close and act as if i never left
the branches broke and watched me choke on the salty sea
the cliffs so high
like a spiraling sky
wont lift me up and let me fly
you want me to go where i cannot follow

chorus

You've asked me why a thousand times
dear my bloods still warm and i cant choose between me and you
I love you most but you know i cannot go
for they will miss what you called me
My footsteps washed away the trail i left to your heart
and in your thoughts i was lost

Your breathe so warm like you were there
I never want to wake up
Its not my choice and i cant undo
the things that came betweeen me and you
Now ive come to believe
its time for you to leave

But i will miss you

My love i will miss you.

*think porcelain and the tramps "you want"/the cure's "pictures of you"

i actually really like this one. the rhyming didnt really work but i love how i mention the sea and how it is true with all that ive been through. My inspiration was stephenie meyer's "twilight" and "New Moon". Now if i could just get you guys to tell me if you like it or not...and what you think it means...that would be awesome. In my mind its about a girl whose lost the only one she loves and she spends all her time on the shore staring into a stormy sea. In my mind she decides to go swim in the sea and nearly drowns but she feels her loved one with her and he wants her to survive yet he longs to see her face. she resists death and says yet another goodbye to her lover.

in other news...summer school is over!!! no more manny!!! i miss catie already though...i need to call that girl! my dads been in and out of so many little things...he had a root canal, he got cancerous polops burned off of his face, and now hes on a new medication to help him with his cholesterol. great fun, huh? i'm going to hawaii in a couple of weeks and i'm really excited...hoy guys on the beach!!!! seeing as im single now i can actually look and flirt! but yeah i'm doing good and emily has found me a potential bf who works with her and hes a skater!!!! his name is bryan...i havent met him yet but i'm excited but i shouldnt get my hopes up cause i know how that goes. one diappiontment after another. yesterday in health we talked about healthy relationships and why guys are immature and cannot communicate and why girls talk so much...like me!

please comment!
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Under the shade of the magnolias...a story by me
I laid and stared at the dusty grey sky that i was doomed to see every day i lived in that city. No wide pure blue skies filled with cotton candy puffed clouds to debate the shape of. The almost dead magnolia tree covered most of my body with a shade that didnt provide an actual cooling sensation. I thought of every misfortune that had happened and wondered when i would actually find something to live for, something to be. That day i met him.
At school i sat across from ex who had it out for me or at least thats what i figured since he nearly made me trip and smack my head on our stupidly large lab tables. I noticed a few new students sat around him. They definetly stood out agiainst his extremely tan skin. They were pale, almost translucent and they all looked as if they had no sleep for weeks. They were graceful, elegant yet simple, and all extraordinary in their beauty. There were six of them. Four boys and two girls. I never knew that our magnet high school would take in so many new students at a time...that got me very curious.

Stay tuned for the next entry and comment please!!!!!!
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

like sand in the hour glass...
Sitting and staring at the walls, counting holes in the yellowish ceiling, and looking at the lines on my plastic desk filled my time. Five and a half hours of monotony. I sat and thought of how things had gone so wrong. How happiness had branched itself into anger and deceit, tears, and loneliness. I had to stop this. It was driving me insane and all the sadness cannot be good for me. Happiness i told myself. Just try it. But i couldnt force myself to do it. Happiness had shunned me into oblivion, not that i hadnt done the same but still, it left without a good bye. I wish it would come back...or at least visit every once and awhile.
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Monday, May 28, 2007

Sorry..
Sorry my site is a mess you guys but i'm in the process of cleaning out some unnecessary stuff and its a long process...so please be patient! and more narration and updates will come so stay tuned!
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Saturday, May 26, 2007

   To add some fun to my summer life, i'm narrating everything
I had stayed away from it for several reasons: 1)I couldnt take another episode like the one last week, my mind couldnt take it and my body began to reject my thoughts as well. 2)I couldnt predict what i would find, a note, some snobby comment or nothingness. I didnt know how to predict my own reaction. And that worried me. 3) I didnt know if i would shoot my mouth off in shear anger or sit in silence and think about too many things.
All these things made it dangerous.
But as i gave in to my nerves and fluttering heart the pain never came in full. i felt a little pinch but thats all. No stream of useless of tears or insane thoughts, just me.
The pit that had built itself in my stomache had had healed, but left a nasty scar. Then came the best drug of an emotion that i've ever felt. Better than happiness. Better than love. It was relief. The sweet feeling of calm. No adrenaline. No butterflies in unnatural places. It was my angel. Relief.

Please comment people and tell me what you think!!!!


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