Birthday • 1993-04-27 Gender •
Female Location • tied up in his closet...i dont think u wanna know what comes next Member Since • 2007-02-07 Occupation • being depressed...more like a hobby i suppose Real Name • Caryn
Personal
Achievements • ur kidding, right? Anime Fan Since • like, forevurrrrrr Favorite Anime • Fullmetal Alchemist, Inuyasha, and Trinity Blood Goals • Not to commit suicide and not to get my ass kicked by a prep Hobbies • singing and writing poetry Talents • gimme a break, talents? yeah right
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Experimenting
I'm bored as hell, so I have decided to experiment with a website i found to see if it would work on MyO. So I am randomly putting up my ugly pics so...well you didn't have to come here lol. This is just my dumb day to do random crap. And now I'm just rambling on so do w/e you like, comment, do the thumbs down thingy or w/e...idc..lol
Wasup
lalalalalalala....goin to Hershey Park tomorrow..can't wait!!! lol so ttly bored...next time sum1 comes around just PM me i get lonely and want to talk 2 sum1..im usually like that and none of my friends r ever online..plus i want to get to know more ppl. i feel dumb on otaku sometimes cuz ive got a bunch of ppl in my friends whose g/b's ive signed but i dont talk to nearly all of them.
Plz watch...
open this up in a new box after u watch it the first time. all u have to do is click on the actual video here...and comment if u have a username on youtube plz!!! otherwise, comment below, and tell me whatchu think...thank yas!!
Do you Ever wonder....
Do you ever wonder what it's like to be someone else? Just to be in their shoes for a day? Or even 30 seconds? Just to know what they're thinking? I do. I have. Whichever one it is. Have you ever wanted to get inside a guy's mind? Well, as ne1 that comes around often enuf knows, I like my best friend. He's a nerd, but i love him. <3 But the matter or what i would think it is, is that one: im not the best looking girl in school, two: nor am i the or one of the skinny girls in school. Idk maybe its just because i always look at things like, okay, guys dont like me because of the way i look. for ever girl that so much better looking than i am, they've all got lines for guys to go out with them. my neighbor can get ne guy she wants cuz of looks, and the matter of her being 4'11", probably a 6" stuck out bust size, and a bubble butt ass. idk about ne1 else, but i cant stand shyt like that. or like how the guy i like, i talk to constantly, and wen i get into my moods about topics like this, he'll just sit there tellin me im hotter than all the ugliest chicks in school. its like i wonder what goes thru guys' heads when they talk to a girl in distress. its so annoying. or what their taste is. r they looking for personality or a harder fuck? idk...i hate guys...always making things complicated? hbu?? Comments (0) |
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Saturday, May 26, 2007
I Hate Myself For Lovin you!!!!!
To start off, if you're wonderin wut the heading is all about, its about cuz i had that song in my last post. I'm listenin to it now...=))) And logically, i do kinda hate myself for lovin the guy that i do. guess that cant b helped though..i went to a bazaar with him last night and my best friend sarah. i was rly miserable half the time....and it was so awkward he was all upset cuz i was depressed and he put his arm around me. then i just sat there like, "stop touching me. stop freaking touching me." then all of a sudden its just like, 'wait, what the hell am i thinking??' but im tryin to get over him too. i luv it when he does touch me like that, since we're so close whereas EVERYBODY thinks we're going out. thats not y i like it though. yes, it sounds corny, but his touch makes my skin crawl, and i luv that feeling, i nvr want it 2 go away. or wen i think of him it just gives me a headache i luv those feelings it always made me wonder if he felt the same way. idk...it hurts sometimes.
~& no, im not perfect.
all i'm asking for is a chance.
To some extent
Okay...4:58 and totally bored out of my mind. Today's what, Saturday?? I have absolutely nothing to do, my b/f won't call me, and he's more than likely not going to all night, and I've been thinking about him all day. I feel so pathetic cuz he's like a drug to me. Like a cigarette: u have it for so long, or ur aroundit for so long, and then u can only go for so long without it. he's just like that to me. on the days that im always around him, im fine. we have first period together, fifth period at lunch, then i always run into him seventh period cuz we walk to our rooms together. so when he skips skool one day i go insane. i start flippin out on ppl over the little things and i lose my temper 3 times more frequently. then when lunch comes around he's not there to hold me back or to hold me when i'm miserable and stressed. the weekends are usually fine but this weekend is just driving me crazy. idk y...have ne of you ever been like that?
"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."
6:23 pm
Current Mood: Miserable
uhhhhhh...bored
just finished evil h/w from my first four period classes..
I wanna go somewhere tomorrow with my b/f, like sk8away or the mall or sumthin. cant think of what to do tho. i wanna go get my nails done while my mom is tanning 2moro but i dont kno how long that'll take cuz if it takes long then i can go stright 2 skateaway from there but idk.
He caught me bustin blood vessels again today. then he took my hairties away from me...~_~ nearly snapped them too. idk whether or not its that he cares or he just wants to do that 4 the hell of it...u think of nething?
I Hate Myself For Lovin you!!!!! 
