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Thursday, April 19, 2007
Rejection
Girl in the Dark gave me sum real good advice. ^_^ THANK YOU!!!! Well, right now I'm a little out of it so I dont know whether it was advice or a story I could relate to or not...but it still rly helped..^^ lol. I've been writing to relieve my stress. I'm trying not to take it out on my softball teamates, cuz the catcher is a total bitch and i can't stand her. if i slip up once she's throwin a freakin fit...I wanna beat the shit outta her so bad its not even funny. but then id get sent to the magestrate or w/e and get suspended or inschool or sumthin and then i wont b able to play. then she would get a law suit on me or sumthin. makes me wonder if i could beat the shit outta her though cuz she's so fat...lol. i will admit, i nvr was the skinniest person, hell, im not even that much of a skinny person, but i can STILL BEAT THE SHIT OUTTA HER!!!!!! lol. so here's the poem. i write them for him, not for nikki. Rejection..
These reoccuring silences are just too common now,
I wanna know just how you feel cuz you know I wander by,
You tell me what YOU wanna hear, just for your own sake,
But what you don't know is that I already have slipped the lip.
I let your little secret out, no doubt you'll hate me when,
You'll soon find out, for sure you will, cuz I'm bound to let more in,
You should've seen it coming though, you know that I am right,
You've seen this repeating pattern too, I'm not leaving you; blind.
I'm damn right amazed yet downright scared,
I can't take this chance of losing you to her now,
I don't wanna let you go now, we're bound to fall apart,
But you're too worried about what she thinks of you or whether she'll reject.
I've been the one, stressing all this time,
Having friends hating me even though that they're all wrong,
I'm not ever gonna get theese feelings back no matter how long I wait,
I have to give up, not hold on, for I will never have you.
Why do I let my eyeliner run?
Why do I let him win all the fights?
Why am I letting the pain consume and overcome me?
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