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• Female
Location
• deep in the dark, empty sub conscience of my lonely self hate...
Member Since
• 2006-05-16
Occupation
• living, what else...
Real Name
• I have many names so which one of those would you like to call me by

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Achievements
• waking up every damn day!!!
Anime Fan Since
• well, I'm not quite sure, but ever since I seen one of Hayao Miyazaki 's movies, I've been hooked ever since and I just started watching shows, movies and reading anima/manga books...
Favorite Anime
• Lain, samurai champloo, FMA, blood: the last vampire movie, Elfen Lied I love the show!!! gunslinger girl, death note, helsing, and more
Goals
• to make it out of my sick depression and let the darkness over take me and make me whole again
Hobbies
• writing poems, stories, listening to GOOD music, or playing my PS2, and rarely I just hang out in my lone dark corner of a room and now since my dog died I have no one to hang out with
Talents
• putting on the same face, that hides my true feelings... and waking up everyday to the same thing over and over again!!! that's my life, hate it or deal with it!




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Thursday, May 18, 2006

   Unemotional breakdown of ppl and their feelings
why do ppl think if your crazy if you scream out load or you jump out of you sit crying and headed out the door? or they think they have to many issues and such! I hate being judged and prosecuted as a freak or an outcast... I've felt that way ever since I was about in fourth or fifth grade and still I feel the same!!! why do ppl have to be mean, ugly, insenitive, and hurt other pplz feeling? I've seen it thousands of times over the years... they simply say, their ugly! ugly ppl have no feeling they emotionless, like zombies and well, their just freaks that don't deserve my help or kindness!!! I've been one of the choosen few way back who was picked on, and believe me, it's not worth listening to them! but I did back then and it still hurts from time to time but you have to get over it and help the few who are still being objected to this bullshit... and I tryed to help them! but you can't help, if they don't want to be helped!

school is the most hardest thing a kid has to go through, and it can make or break them in a heart-beat... Yeah, I know it's scary and confusing for all us crazies, losers, freaks, goth's, and mental cases they call us... but we have to stick together and help each other out of this before is consumes us body and soul!!!

Okay, for those who made it this far I thank you for reading this, it means a lot! and for those who didn't, well that's okay too... I hope you don't think I'm a mental-insane person now, for a least writing this much but never the less, I hope through this you understand me a little and don't think I'm a poser or imposter trying to play the part of a goth! B/C I'm NOT and maybe I am a mental case!!! but is that so different, I still feel the same and hurt like everone else... think about it!

well I might be writing stories or poems on here or maybe more entry's only... Have a well served and a new intake on life today, no taking dives or jumping of the edge's alright... Hang in there, and Hang loose! L8ter...
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