Tuesday, May 23, 2006

   HOW I FEEL TODAY!!!!
who here feels alone and well, lets say no one see's or wants to hear them out?!? no matter how loud I scream or how hard I pound on walls there's no answer and my inner self won't let me breathe or say what I truly want to, feel, or mean deep down inside!!! like I'm trapped in my own body and someone else is moving it and living through me and I'm just a hostage along for the ride feeling and watching everthing!!! do you feel like that? or is it only me!!! only right now like all the other couple of day, I've only been talking to myself!!!!! I'm I that crazy to talk to or comment about?!? I feel alone and like life it self forsakes me and leave's me high and dry in the desert waste land of hell to walk and wounder around alone for all eternity... or until I proclaim I'm insane and curse at satan and then I receive punishments from him in brutal tortures, disfigurements, trials of taking all types of pain possible, and allusions of loved ones slathered and begging for me to end their endurments of pain by giving up and giving my soul freely to the devil... that's my hell-hole!!!

WHAT'S YOURS?!? at the moment life yet again is another thing I just can't escape from! no matter how hard I try it won't let it's grip on me loose enough for me to RUN! maybe I'm confusing many of you and maybe I'm making perfect sence, but I'm JUST trying to run from it "life" and all the elements in "life" death, sorrow, loneness, hatred, alone, sad, mad, tears, crying, everything is pushing me down and forcing me to go their again!!! to the place I once called home and liked living in, and there will always be a part of me that does LOVE living in the dark shadows and in the night with only the moon to guide my way home or through life and the world!!! the night calls me and welcomes me with open arms but the world doesn't!!! Hell I'll always love the feeling of the moonlight and the way the wind and darkness comforts me with it's shadows and wonders, but the feeling of pain and "life" in living in the world will never change for me and it makes me go insane!!! the world crushes the ones like me who see it differently!!! and to me, that's why the night and darkness calls to me!!! no matter how strange this whole thing might sound to you, it's like HOME to me!!!

see ya around maybe and I THANK those few who comment!!! thank you, and have a twisted sentimental type of day!!! well I know mine sucks!!!! lets see if yours sucks or ROCKs indue time!!! L8ter.......... hope you LIKE post and new bg!!! and I hope you can comment on my poem and last posts!!! if you can and want!!!!!!!
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