Saturday, August 19, 2006

Oooga booga
Uh... so I don't really know what to say. I guess I should start with a hi and a hello. I'm Ashley, and this is my first post here. I really don't know what to write because I'm only writing cause Britt asked me too. Generally when I make a xanga post, I have some sort of inspiration, but this is spur of the moment, so we'll see how it goes...

I just got done with my first week of school. I'm a junior now. Wow. That's weird. The whole feeling of being at school is weird... I don't really like it. I had friends last year that I didn't keep in contact with over the summer. Now we don't talk. It makes me sad. None of my best friends are in my classes. Grawr.

Probably the worst part is my green day lunches. See, I don't have any friends to sit with during those days. I just eat my lunch alone as fast as possible and go to a corner to sit. It's not that bad... It's relatively comfortable, and people are interesting to watch.

Of course, Thursday something not cool happened during that lunch. I was uber-tired because I got little sleep, so I was trying to sleep in my corner with my hood up to block out light... Yeah, apparently I looked like an emo, a druggy, and like I was crying. This causes a crazy black girl to come up to me and start yelling her head off. Seriously. She was bitching at me about me being emo, depressive, suicidal, anti-social, a druggy, not taking my zoloft, that I needed to go be with people, and on and on.

I was tempted to be really angry, but my amusement at the situation won over. I started giggling hysterically. Who did this random chick think she was? Yeah... it made me feel sad at the same time though... I don't want to be emo. I don't want to have to sit by myself, but I refuse to hang around with a group of people that I barely know. I'd rather be alone than that.

It irks me that people can just judge me though. I was not crying. I was not being emo. I am NOT a druggy. You have no idea how many times I've been asked if I was high. Fucking hell, I do not take drugs and never have. People are so god damn presumptuous. Rawr. >_<

I don't like this post. It's ended up as a rant, and I would much rather have insightful stuff. Oh well, it's the best I can do on short notice
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