Wednesday, January 23, 2008

   so im breathin but am i livin?

*song of tha day:Pain- three days grace* so im still livin and i guess im happi bout that. i rele appreciate tha support i get from all who carez, w/o yall i would rele probably be up shyt'z creek sumwhere. Houston kinda forgave me so im feelin bettah but i have a problem now cuz i cant let shyt go. i want 2 progress 4ward but itz tha past that have a hold on me... it seemz at tymez that im livin a double life. part of me wantz 1 thing and tha other conflictz and want sumthin polar opposite. i attract people 2 me and dont understand why...u only seen tha lite in me... tha dark iz much darker than black (iznt that an anime/magna or sumthin???o_O) i feel like hell, i wonder why it seemz that i cant nevah get wat i want... death dont seemz 2 look so bad... i been meanin 2 say thiz, excludin cloud and rogue, if u wanna be a character in my story, pm me ur character name, wat side u wanna be on and we can discuss it more. wit that in mind and if u been followin tha story i need more characterz 4 tha 43rd event so send me ur request and i can see wat i can do. p.s. i kno sikamaru iz my favourite charater but i like sauske equally and i change from them 2 often personality wize so yea enjoy

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

   so im back again rite

*song of tha day: all these things i hate: bullet 4 my valentine* so i had a nervous breakdown tha othah nite. i tried 2 hurt myself like rele bad by jumpin from a 2nd floor backporch and jus hurted my wrist a lil bit. i think i drank 2 much milk wen i waz young... i cant break shyt. i damaged a realtionship wit tha most closest person i have in my life. houston iz mad az shyt at me all becuz i withheld information from her. she rele do care about me and i fucked that up. im so sorry if ya readin thiz now. i didnt mean 2 betray ur trust and my honor iz tarnished until u polish it and 4give me. i love you i hope yall like my nu background i think that it desribez my feelingz rite now. i kno i waz suppose 2 add a nu chapter but cuz i been feelin shytty, i havent been able 2 think strait and i will post it 2morrow

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Friday, January 18, 2008

   dunno, so yea.

(so i have come 2 a brite idea of tha song of tha day which will b off my playlist, posted at tha top of each post and i will like u 2 listen 2 it so u can get tha feelin of me 4 tha day. sum will b rap so if ya cant stomach it, well then, it suckz 2 be u) *song of tha day:misery business-paramore* well i have nothin rele 2 say 2dai. im conflicted within self cuz im bein told tha same thing in so many wordz from like 4 different people and i a way i believe them all but sum of them iz wordz wit no action, no feelin...jus wordz. i feel like if u say sumthin, it should be active, felt not hollow ya kno? i guess tha emergency chapter shall begin!! chapter 5: Tha Invitation Capt. James slammed tha phone down. He pick up hiz coat and broke 4 tha door. it waz 11:45 and he waz goin 2 investigate hiz nu lead... tha clamour in tha red room died down. Blaze had a perplexed look on hiz face. "Ayo, Styer, did he jus call u hiz baby boy?" he asked in a whisper facing him now. Styer jus sat there and closed hiz eyez. He knew wat jus waz said waz causin people 2 wonder and he knew he waz gonna have 2 explain.He took a deep breathe and got up out hiz seat. "Look, yea he iz my father, if u can call him that, but i have had nothin 2 do with him since i waz young. he taught me everythin i kno. Speak ur piece and beat ur feet asap." Tha room looked up at their leader wit great shock. "calm down, lil homie." Level started. "I came here 2 make sure that FDS knew and that contest thatz goin on 43rd Federal in like 2 dayz. Nova and Apex iz gonna be there...So iz Bucky and Neron..." Level turned and walked away jus az smoothly az he came. Houston, Blaze, and Styer froze at tha mention of Bucky and Neron. Neron waz Styer'z lil brother and Bucky waz hiz annoyin, yet skilled friend. Clear stood by tha door, not sayin nothin watchin Level leave out of tha door and shook hiz head. "What are we gonna do?" Houston asked almost in a panic. "We need privacy, we cant alert tha crew anymore than wat they alreadi are." Styer said calmly. He stood up and wrapped up tha meetin. memberz filed out talkin about wat jus happened. Mute limped ovah 2 a chair with tha aid of Noia and sat down. Blaze and Houston took their respected seatz az well. "first thingz first, wat tha hell happened 2 you?" Styer said 2 Mute. Mute began hiz story. *on 43rd and Federal* Capt. James slammed on hiz brakez and jumped out of hiz impala. he looked around and seen wat seemz 2 be an abandoned warehouse. He drew hiz gun and proceed inside. All tha wallz haz been painted white and pilez of canz haz been dumped into a big crater it seemz. he touched a lamp and it still felt hot. "they waz here recently." he thought 2 himself. He pulled out hiz phone and made a call. *on tha Avenue* Level walked smoothly down tha Avenue please with himself. He waz impressed by how organized Styer haz set him and hiz crew up. "jus like a young me." he said and smiled. A person wit a hoodie emerged outof tha shadowz and appeared next 2 him. "did u do az u waz instructed?" tha person asked. "dont be walkin up on my like i dont know itz u Bucky!" Level barked out. He slapped him on tha back of hiz head.Bucky winced and proceed with him. "look did u or didnt you?" Bucky said impatiently. "tell Neron that he'll be ther aight?" he said. jus as quickly az Bucky came, he waz back into tha shadowz. *at tha red room* Mute jus finish tellin every1 wat happened 2 him and winced at hiz on pain. "Well atleast u made it back" Houston stated. "Now wat we gonna do about Neron?" Blaze Blurted out. Mute and Noia looked confused at tha statement. they didnt kno who Neron and Bucky waz they jus knew who Level waz for their own reason.Styer sat there quiet. Houston had a real concerned look on her face az she watched Styer. " i think we should go head in 4 wat we kno!" Blaze said. "Being bull headed about everythin. u have 2 be smart about thiz." Styer said. "wat do u mean?" Noia asked. "well letz think, why would sum1 that dont even be nowhere near here give uz an invite 2 sumthin he probably have nothin 2 do wit?" Styer responded calmly. "you have a point, that dont make sense." Mute said lowly. "Noia, iznt Tempo gonna be here 2morrow?" Styer said. "yea i gotta call him." he said. "Well aint no point in gettin all excited bout nothin yet. letz jus go home and get some sleep." Styer said strecthin. Every1 left out and said their goodbyez and went their own way. Styer walked slowly down tha block wen Houston appeared next 2 him. "why u didnt get on tha bus?" Styer inquired. "im not goin home, im goin 2 my grandma house thatz not tha far from u." she said cheerfully. "i wanted 2 talk 2 u" "oh? about wat? Styer said surprised. "well... im leavin 2 go 2 houston 4real and im in love with u..." she said. Styer stopped in hiz trackz. *back at Bucky'z house* "Everythin iz good and ready!!!" Bucky gloated. "did u make tha phone call?" Neron said cooly not lookin up from a magazine. "yea and i got James to go 2!!!" ~end of chapter 5~

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Thursday, January 17, 2008

   itz me, Mr. Frownz himself!!!

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   okay so yea...

well my fellow friendz of tha otaku, i official am depressed beyond bewilderment. so i waz alreadi under a gang of stress and then my parentz came and told me that i waz basiclly useless, worthless, a freeloader, and alot of othah shyt (actual wordz) alzo if i didnt nevah tell no 1, but me and houston waz datin sumtyme ago...she got pregnant and our parentz FORCED her 2 get an abortion...i am so against that and it still hurtz 2 thiz day cuz any1 that knowz me kno that i want a lil boy and thatz wat it waz... they brought that up and it rele did hurt me deeply on wat they said and i rele dont want 2 repeat it. She leavez 2dai 2 go 2 houston (hence tha name) im not a very trustin person and she iz tha only person i trusted 100% i knew her since i waz 15 and ima rele miss her. BUT ON 2 A MORE LIGHTER NOTE: i went skatin yesterdai and i landed a FS pop shove-it. i waz so geeked i fell aftahwardz. i waz gonna add tha othah chapter 2dai but i figured thiz post waz gonna be long enuff, maybe 2morrow... but by popular demand, i have more picz, honestly tell me wat yall think give me tha 1-10 thin, im curious 2 see wat yall think of me!!! p.s. it jus occurred 2 me that yall cant follow directionz, could yall PLEASE do tha # scale thing??? lmao, i got sum special friendz... p.s.s. i wanna thank unique, rogue, cloud, stormy,desires, and punk 4 makin me cheer up, i dunno wat i wouldve done w/o u guyz

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   okay, i apologize

ok so im sorry that i havent been on lately. i been sick and i have been like supa fuckin busy. i got my board and i met sum nu friendz and im kinda geeked about that. i did my 1st pop shove-it 2dai and im happi about that. houston iz leavin 2morrow and i been kinda down about that. although she annoyz me sumtimez, i rele am gonna miss her alot. im supa conflicted cuz of tha shyt azz position im in. itz like im happy, yet i have so much extra shyt that counterweighz it ya kno? i rele need an outlet that i can go 2 and i think skatin mite be it (4 that special person, no i didnt hurt myself and im sorry that i havent been on, i kno u missed me az well az i!!!) i have alot of problemz and i rele do need help. i kno so many of yall would offer a ear and everythin but i need sum1 that i can truly confind in sum1 that iznt directly involved. itz 2 tha point tha depression iz settin in and i feel like im drownin and i hate myself 4 embarkin on tha journey im on. aint no goin back cuz if i do there will b alot of casaulties and i told u so and im not interested in that shyt... i dunno, i been feelin alil of everythin lately.... i guess i will keep yall posted... pm me p.s. i know i ususally post up my story on tuesdayz, but i have a supa idea and i mite post up an emergency chapter 2morrow!!!

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Friday, January 11, 2008

   feelin kinda random baby?

so it haz come 2 my attention that bein random haz become watz hot in tha streetz. i see alot more people bein random and i like it. here in chicago bein random iz a thing people look down their nose at...well atleast on tha southside it iz, i dont kno wat itz like everywhere elze in tha city cuz itz mostly black out south. blackz can be so closed minded at tymez it make me sick, they look at me and be callin me out my name, they call me an oreo, uncle tom, white wit a bad tan, all kind of shyt jus cuz i dont sell drugz and play dominoz and shoot dice like tha rest of these dumb fuckerz. i skate, listen 2 rock, speak, more than 1 language(kinda) do graffiti, travel and play basketball, listen 2 rap, look at gurlz, etc. why cant i be an open-minded person without bein classified az sumthin? tha whitez even look at me and be like im posing...posing? i dont like wastin oxygen doin tuff i dont have 2, so thiz cant jus be me huh? i seen on alot of people page that they are random, or like random, or think randomness iz attractive. if any of theze apply 2 u, please leave ur comment and put:RANDOMNESS in all capz at tha end...thank u

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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

   jus a quik p.s.

thiz also haz been brought 2 my attention: people will come 2 my page, not leave a post, dont say nothin in my cbox, dont even pm me...then go and talk 2 sum1 who did about my post... STAY THA FUCK OFF MY PAGE IF YOU NOT GONNA CONTRIBUTE SHYT!!! thank you and have a nice day ^_^

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   question!!!

okay, so i posted up my nu chapter 4 tha week and if u didnt read it...u suck... i also i put up a pic of me... if u didnt see it...again, you suck... both can be accessed thru my archivez...(duh, jus read 2 catch up) so i "should" have up more picz of me soon... xaos: i dont have a lite or good side dude, i have a very evil and not az evil side...(lol) so it haz come 2 my attention that alot of people have a problem wit bisexual people... guyz havin problemz wit bisexual femalez!!! wat tha hell iz wrong wit u guyz? are YOU gay? dont have enough stamina 4 a 3some? or are u afraid that sum woman iz gonna steal urz from u? I dunno where all yall from or how yall society iz, but in Chicago? u got u a bisexual gurl friend, u hold on 2 her becuase tha possibilitiez are endless!!! u will be tha happiest, satisified lil fucker in ur house!!! im only speakin from experience and wat i kno! i have no problem wit homosexuality in tha least bit, i dont care if ur gay, straight, confused, 50/50, watevah!! jus kno where i stand and be real with urself... so thatz tha questionz 2dai! 1.Are u bisexual? (remember 2 be real wit urself) 2.do u have a problem wit tha opposite sex bein bisexual?

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Tuesday, January 8, 2008

   so um... ima do wat yall came here 2 see...

so 2dai iz tuesdai (i think o_O... j/p) and that meanz chapter 4 of graffiti shogunz!!! ive gotten a couple of request 2 put up my pic... i dunno wat tha response will be, but...im jus askin yall 2 be honest! here goez nothin... im tha black guy... in case u didnt kno... so um... tha landlord guy called me 2dai and said itz sum mysterious charater lurkin on our back porch, did i heard anythin??? im lookin like dude, i go out there all tha tyme and smoke pluz i normally dont go 2 sleep till like 3-6 in tha morning, he like i kno... (o_O u bein watchin me???) i waz like well im on my way out...bye... that rele did tweak me 1000 2dai...(my sayin of coarse ^_^ and FDS exclusive!) im supa bored so um... i guess ima jus start tha chapter... WARNING: THIZ CHAPTER HAZ EXTREME LANGUAGE. I WANTED 2 KEEP IT AZ TRUE 2 CONTEXT AZ POSSIBLE. IF U CANNOT HANDLE IT WITH AN OPEN MIND, DO NOT PROCEED TO READ THA STORY. THANK YOU. p.s. thankz 2 those of u who prayed...keep prayin... chapter 4: Reunion The person with a steely voice continued 2 walk towardz where Styer waz sittin. Blaze jumped up and took stance ready for combat. "Now Styer, that iznt how you would try an old friend now iz it?" the person said. "Old friend? you aint no friend of mine darius. mothafucker you mustve lost your mind commin in here thinking that itz sweet like frostin. I ought 2 whoop your monkey azz all up and down tha Ave!" Styer said cooly. Darius looked sharply at Styer. "My name iz Level, show your elderz some goddamn respect before-" "Before what?" Blaze piped up movin closer 2 him. Houston made her move close towardz Blaze flankin Styer on hiz left side. She didnt say a word, jus looked at Level. Noia spotted Mute and rushed 2 tha aid of hiz brother. "Damn wat tha hell happened 2 you?" NOia whispered franticlly. "Long story, wat tha hell iz he doin here? how did he find uz?" Mute said practically with flames in hiz eyez. "i dunno, but if Styer and evryone dont get him, we will, kno that!" Noia said lookin back toward where all tha commotion waz commin. The rest of the crowd waz chattin restlessly. the name Level in these part rang bells, big bells and they knew that they were lucky 2 be in tha same room with a legend. Level waz a member of tha N.R.S, tha never run scared crew, 2 be exact, he waz co-founder of tha crew so he had pull. He alone destroyed and erased countless crews along tha North and tha West side of tha city. Styer knew this, but thiz waz tha South side and shyt waz different out there. He waznt about 2 fall 2 no man, and Level waz no different. "Look around you, you along way from home while you talkin shyt." Blaze said pacin back and forth. "why dont you speak your piece and make your feet glide across tha pavement up outta here cuz me and my team have no problem beatin up sum 30-sumthing year old man." "Actually i am a little interested in why you, of all people, would come all tha way down here?" Styer said a little more calmly sittin back in hiz chair eyeballin Level. "Lil nigga, i go where i please and aint nan 1 of you lil mothafuckerz gonna do shyt about it." Level said lookin at Blaze. "i came here 2 talk 2 my baby boy..." The room erupted in a loud up roar. Mirror, Clear, and Doll all looked at each other and instantly got mad. Being tha only white memembers of FDS they took offense to tha remark Level jus made. They were outcasted by their own kind and FDS took them in without lookin at them a second tyme even though Black and White never rele clicked in tha city, that only happened in tha suburbz. They decided 2 start their own race within tha crew, so now every1 waz gray... "A man, we aint gonna stand for that kinda talkin in our presence" Clear said, tha most stable out of the three. "Naw, fuck that, i think we should fuck him up now!" Doll said standin on her chair. "I agree with Doll" Blaze said crackin hiz knucklez. Doll waz a loud, wiry gurl that had energy 2 spare. she waz rebellious, strong, and didnt like inequality...Level had jus pissed her off. Mirror waz a rele quiet kid that only spoke wen absolutly nessecary, he usually let hiz facez speak 4 him and rite now, all you seen waz rage in hiz eyez. *at tha police station* "Hello, state ur emergency." said Capt. James " I heard it waz goin to be a big graffiti showdown on 43rd and Federal in like 2 days... i think you should check it out..." "Who iz thiz?" James demanded. all he got waz the dial tone. 2 blockz away from tha Red Room waz a dangliin phone in a phone booth and a guy walkin away into tha shadowz... ~END of Chapter 4~ 2 be honest, i nevah thought my story would turn out like thiz... if u want me 2 kontinue, please comment! see ya next tuesdai!

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