Wednesday, September 29, 2004

   RIP Bella..v.v..
Argh..-sighs-.. My babi gurl.. Bella..passed away today. She was bleeding..vaganilly.. and I thought maybe Guinea pigs got their periods..but they don't v.v.. the vet said it was either a Urinary tract infection or Kidney stones.. Well I got home today from school and held her..she was still bleeding so me and my mom cleaned her up.. she was twitching and was crying.. in so much pain v_v..I held her..and she passed in my arms.. The best way to pass,but a painful one on my part non-the less. Poor little girl was only six months old.. So young.She's the fourth animal I've taken care of on my own.Julie(Gerble),Shaggy(newt),and Mario(Guinea Pig).When Mario passed I was so hurt.These animals become my children so you can imagine how empty I felt when I lost them,especially Mario.So we went and got Bella for me.. My little girl.. I guess it just wasn't ment to be.It was ment to end with Mario.. and no more.. Im done with pets for now.. it hurts too much. so yeah.

On a well..lighter note.

I hate English 10 -_-0 Well..no not the class Just Mrs.Wunsh.DEMON WOMEN RAHH!! May she burn in the deepest pit of Hell.¬-¬.I was out last Thursday and Friday,Then I was out on Monday.She expects me to get a whole paper done by tomorrow when I haven't even started the outline or even know what the Hell I'm writting about! x.X;So fuck it..I got the note cards done.. I can write papers really fast so I'll type a page and a half in the Learning lab tomorrow durring lunch e.e;

I guess that really says all for now.^^;

Ja <3
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Monday, September 27, 2004

   270 views?!
270 people hath viewed my otaku site >P yay -runs around waving flags-

Argh. _._ I hate being sick.Once again I'm home..(third day in a row might I add.haven't been in school since last Wednsday..<<; )I even got my dad and my Guinea Pig sick ;-; -sniffle- I've been in bed all morning..Just got out of it .. I think I might go lay back down soon though.. Oy! I found some more icons floating around on my comp >3 rahahaha.

Joo know da rules.
1.Credit moir!
2.Comment
3.don't claim as jOOrs >O!

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<33 Ja
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Sunday, September 26, 2004

   Survey Galor! >D!
C u r r e n t
001. time? 6:49pm
002. date? September 26,2004
003. jewelry? Earings
004. clothes? grey boxers and my dark blue Plainfield South Cougars shirt
005. taste? Cheese puffs..
006. sound? Dj Inphinity
007. crush? mi Phillip ^^
008. best friend?Mary/Yessi/Kyrstin
009. emotion? Sick and happy
010. thing in sight? computer..>>;..uhm..

G e n e r a l I n f o r m a t o n
011. name? Sarah
012. nickname? man there are alot of these but Phil calls me babi gurl,mary calls me kitsune,and yessi calls me cheif
013. birthday? July 16
014. sex? female >>;
015. location? my house.
016. grade? 10th
017. school? pshs
018. jobs? school?
019. siblings?Nicki,Sean
020. pets? 4 dogs,a cat,guinea pig,and a bird

T h e L a s t
021. movie you saw? Chronicals of Riddick
022. movie you rented? uh..I think Kill Bill v.2
023. song you listened to? Diving-4 strings
024. person you talked to? Kyrstin
025. person you called? Phil <<
026. person that called you? kyrstin
027. person you IMed? havent IMed anyone yet
028. person that sent you a text message? don't text >P
029. thing you wrote? a poem
030. thing you read? my peeps journals

C u r r e n t B u d d y L i s t
041. total people? aim:76,msn:14
042. total people online?aim:9,msn:2
043. away messages up? including mine,4
044. people on cell phones? none
045. screen names you have? Lots.

H a v e Y o u E v e r
046. kissed someone? nope
047. kissed a stranger? no
048. snuck out at night? not at night.
049. run away? tried to.
050. cursed at mom/dad? yep
051. gone to church? yup
052. lied to someone you love? no
053. masturbated? doesn't everyone? if they don't they should! =D
054. played spin the bottle? nope
055. gone skinny dipping? yes.much fun n.n
056. showered? Yes.o.o;
057. been to a funeral?yes
058. been to a bar/bat mitzvah?In a play yes >>;
059. seen an R rated movie? yea
060. had sex? no

D o Y o u
061. drink? occasionally
062. smoke or do drugs? neither.ick x.x;
063. have gay friends? yes
064. have lesbian friends? yes
065. have bisexual friends? yes

E i t h e r O r
066. hot or cold? cold
067. white or black? white
068. spring or fall? fall
069. looks or personality? Personality
070. sunrise or sunset? Sunset
071. smart or stupid? Smart
072. video or dvd? DVD
073. tape or cd? CD
074. jock, prep, or skater? I'm not shallow but this question is n.n
075. serious or sarcastic? both

F u t u r e
076. college? no
077. career? musician/dancer
078. place of marriage? as long as it's to Phil I don't mind ^_^
079. husband? Yes <3
080. number of children? 1 or 2
081. two girls names? Sakura,Rose
082. two boys names?Brandon,Chris..I like those names
083. car? 69' Pontiac GTO
084. house? I don't know n.n;
085. place to live? Anywhere cold and with my Phillip

F a v o r i t e
086. movie? Legend
087. actor? Johnny Depp
088. actress? Angelina Jolie.She's hot >P
089. food? Chinese,Italian
090. drink? water,cherry coke,ice tea
091. alcoholic drink? margaritas
092. tv show? hm.anything on Tech/G4 really n.n;;
093. tv channel? tech/G4,Mtv2,nictoons tv <<;;;;
094. number? 6
095. song? inner universe-origa,diving-4 strings,heaven's a lie-Lacuna coil,salva nos-Kajiura Yuki,Island-Orinoko,Sakura-revenG,many many more
096. band?Lacuna Coil,Dir en Grey,Sid,Killswitch Engage,Slipknot,Spice Girls (nyaha >3!)
097. artist? Dj Inphinity,Gackt
098. color? black,white,silver,light shades of pink
099. thing to do? talk to my babi boy ^^
100. current time? 7:04pm

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   Sick but eh n.n
Hm..Long time no post,ne? lol ^^

I've been using my lj..But I guess I can bounce back and forth between the two journals. ^_^..I've also been working on making avatars/icons...I'll post some but I have some rules >O!

1.Credit me
2.comment and tell me what ur taking
3.don't claim as yours > 4.enjoy!

Here are some old ones o_O;


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Thursday, July 22, 2004

   Okie yeah I just kinda dissapeared for a while XD...<___< not really I just have been using my LJ journal more e.e;;..I can keep my whinning more private then heh heh..so yeah here let me update the best I can >.>

July 16: My birfday! I turned 15,got a new manga and had mary,yessi,and heather sleepover.oh yeah! and I got Married >_>

July 17: went to Club Vibe with da girls (listed above) it was fuckin awesome!

o.o;;...and thats about it lol ^^;;; well ja fer now
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Thursday, July 15, 2004

   |maybe you were all wondering...|
i guess Ive seemed like a bitch lately,ne?..heh..well then..maybe its time i break this shield of mine and say whats on my mind.

I dont sleep anymore....I dont eat anymore..the pains in my chest have come back times three,Im throwing up more then usual,I pass out atleast twice every three days.I black out constantly,I shake, and I get dizzy..and I honestly think something is wrong with me.

And just so you all know.No..Im not getting any special attention for it.My mother is sick..and that is what needs to be focused on right now.My good health means NOTHING to me.

oh and btw Phil.wtf did I ever do to you?..I did nothing..sorry if i have respect for my friends wishes.keh. You know..I was starting to fall for you....majorly.....but i guess like you said,you just dont care. -shrugs-

Im sick of hiding behind falsitys and masks...So maybe if i leave...things will become better...for everyone......-laughs- well whatever.I never ment that much to anyone anyway..so why the hell should I care back?
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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

   ¤|e v e r y w h e r e| I see castles in the sky|¤
Sorry for that outburst the other night ^^;eh hem..havent had one in awhile so yeah lol <<;Im in a bit of a perdicament..hm..I guess I will share it with you all.

Well I like this guy,I have for awhile...but I met his best friend..e.e and Im starting to like him too...alot...x.x Im falling head over heals for him and i dont know what to do >.o;;;...Though the guy I like has hurt me alot and has had alot of chances..But...the friend..I like him alot..he makes me happy...and no one can really do that for me anymore..He makes me feel special..heh ^^;;..I stayed up on the phone with him till 4:30 in the morning yesterday..or erm this morning lol..I...am begining to fall in love with Phil..-sighs-...and...I want...to be with him...damnit Im so confused >.< gah!!!! I feel like I can actually trust and love with Him...but..he has a girlfriend....-sits down and sighs again- ^^;; its always like that..you find someone you trully love.But you cant have them because they have someone else...v.v..oh well...I just hope I can figure this out without hurting too many people..

Ja
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Monday, July 12, 2004

   She doesnt know who she is or why shes here,she just knows life sucks and she wants to dissapear...
Im sorry for all the stupid shit Ive ever done.But most of all,Im sorry for ever comming into your guys lives.All ive wanted to do was trust and love..thats all....I just..wanted...to love...and be loved....god damnit....I cant trust anymore...why do people like fucking with me so much?! WHY?! IS IT THAT GOD DAMN FUNNY TO WATCH ME CRY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!! IS IT?!...jesus...I fall inlove too quickly...I allow myself to become so fucking weak and voulnerable...and I try..I try so fucking hard....-falls to her knees- ...I...hate myself..I never thought I would ever say that... why... why is it... everytime..I open myself to people...they push me around? what am i doing wrong as a human being?!..I dont..trust anymore..no one..I cant... I just cant... I just need someone to save me..just please...anyone...I just need someone to help me trust.........................................................................................oh yeah...i forgot...no ones here...Sarahs all alone..heh ^^...
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   ¤|Insomnia sucks -_-;|¤
Hiyo! ^.^.damnit Im so tired today x.X like always..i cant sleep anymore o.o;; and thats not good. anyway,

-sighs- v.v...Sarah needs a b/f..x.x..yup..o.O;..sounds odd...and you dont know how much fucking strength it took to say that.I didnt want to be whinny or anything...so I just kept it inside..But Im so confused and Im so lonley T-T...nyaaah >.< -beats self in the head with a frying pan-
o.o Kyrstin did this survey on her journal so Imma do it too! XD

Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
1.Letting people walk all over me
2.Biting my nails
3.Breaking out into song randomly o.o;
4.being too quiet?I unno people say that to me x.x

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
1.Love
2.A hord of infinate bitches (nyahahaha phil and derek know what Im talking about XD)
3.A recording contract
4.Being onstage infront of many people,singing

Four People That Know You the Best:
1. Kyrstin
2. Mary
3. Yessi
4. Derek

Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. sleep
2. sleep
3. sleep
4. ....sleep ._.

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
1. woke up
2. got dressed
3. walked my lazy ass into the compy room
4. came online o.O;

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
1. Newtype Magazine
2. Inu-yasha plushie
3. new shoes o.o
4. ..o.O I think thats it...

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. Coke
2. Water
3. Green tea
4. welchs

Last Song You Sang?
Inner universe-origa

Last Thing You Laughed At?
..when I fell over my gate....again...o.o

Things around your Computer?:
all muh manga and anime,scanner,a light,pictures,books on how to write screen plays and crap.Stage plays,acting books,my mommys work stuff

What's Under Your Bed?
a monster >.<

Current Longing?
soboj ostat'sya dol'she.. (Thats russian btw..if you dont know what that means then ask me or find a translation -_-)

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
Eyes..I have this weird thing where I can look right into that persons soul..seeing right past their mask ^^;;...eh heh

Last CD You Bought?
evanescence (of course this was last year when I didnt find the wonders of illegal downloading >D)

favorite Place To Be?
anywhere in water.

If You Could Play An Instrument?
I do play an instrument XD The piano and guitar and the vocal chords o__O;;

Favorite Color?
Black

Favorite Season?
Winter

Talk To: Kyrstin,Derek,Phil,Elle,Mary,Yessi,Chad


Favorite Day?
Any day there is a full moon to look forward to that night ^_^

Where Would You Like To Go?
Somewhere I can let this damn animal in my soul free...

How Many Kids Do You Want?
I'd like a girl..^^ hehe

Favorite Car?
too many to list

A Random Lyric:
"Stand alone,where was life when it had a meaning?Stand alone..nothings real anymore and,endless run.While Im alive I can try not to fall while flying.Not to forget how to dream...how to love.."
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Sunday, July 11, 2004

   Guess whos baaaaaack! ^-^
eh hehe thats right yall <_< Im back!.......<.<.......>.>...-crickets- ok not like it matterd anyway XD but Im back from my little hiatus thing..and..o__o I am proud to say..I am no longer in love with anyyyyyyyyone besides my family and friends. nyahahahahahahahahahahaha! >.> -cough- yeah..just kinda looked inside..and..killed whatever made me love o.o;..that person >_>; -doesnt feel like saying who..thinks she has said it way too much-

well nothing really happend.I lost internet/cable for awhile...I got molested at the movies o.-;,rushed my mom to the hospital..o.O;..got obssessed with yet another anime XD (gravitation w00t!!!!)..and thats about all o-o...

I still havent gotten over my little trust issue though v.v..[le sigh..] Im still finding it hard to trust alot of people..Im bored so Im gonna make alist of how I feel about people o__o;

peeps I love ^__^:
Mary
Yessi
Kyrstin
Elle
CHADY!!!!! ^____^ hehe
Marina
Chris
Tay
derek
Phil
Laura(soul sista XD nyaha)
Ana(renoun)

(^wow I love alot of people n.n)

the liked o_o;;...:

Will ^-^ hes so cool
Bryan
Nick (though he scares me ._. ..)
Alyssa
Kenji
Kai

The not-so-liked o.-:

Marek/Ryushi( T_T..fucker..)
That stoopid guy who works at Suncoast ._.
Heather (-_-..)
Amy



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Fox's Wisdom
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Shapeshifting


Cleverness


Observational skills


Cunning


Stealth


Camouflage


Feminine courage


Invisibility


Ability to observe unseen


Persistence


Gentleness


Swiftness



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heh heh ^__^ they dont call me the Kitsune for nothin =^n.-^=

Here are some naughty quizes XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Your Hottest Body Part is Your Legs!

You have legs, and you know how to use them.

You've got the legs of a dancer or model - shapely and sexy.

You can make a miniskirt sing as you walk down the street.

Whether you're pimping it in high heels or just wearing gym shorts, you always look great.

Wrapping your legs around your man's back always makes you feel great :-)

You could make a fortune as a leg model.



Celebs who work their legs as hard as you do include: Cameron Diaz, Elle McPherson, Catherine Zeta Jones, and of course, Rebecca Romijn-Stamos.



Want to play up your legs even more?

Let them show, baby! Short skirts, micro shorts, fishnets... you know the deal.

And keep your legs super looking by getting a fake or real tan - covers any little flaws you might have!



What's Your Hottest Body Part??

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You've Got Good Sex Manners

Your mother taught you well - and it shows in the bedroom

You've got the class and tact to deal with any weird situation

You know how to smooth things over and get back to the good stuff

A together, smart lover like you is everyone's dream!



How Are Your Bedroom Manners?

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yay I have good manners ^_^

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Your Erogenous Zone Is Your Neck

You're particularly sensitive to kisses on your neck

But you don't mind a hickie every now and then either

Ask your partner to kiss right behind your ear

Because chances are, that's the most sensitive spot on your body



What's Your Secret Erogenous Zone?

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no shit e.e god I love my neck being touched!!

You Are 100% Skilled @ Blowjobs!

Woo Hoo! You are 100% skilled when it comes to sucking dick. Who could have thought that one person could possibly suck and blow at the same time.

You have got it going on in the tongue tango department.

Your lover is the luckiest man alive.

You know how to handle Mr Happy in every way unimaginable.

In your eyes, the penis is your friend.

You enjoy giving oral sex, and it is without a doubt enjoyed!



How Does Your Blow Job Rate?

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<____<......w00t..w00t..eh heh <_< -cough- XD

You Are Flirt-able!

You are the best of both worlds - sexy and friendly, but not in either box.

Your charm is addicting, and you always have plenty of people flirting with you.

And if you want to turn things up, that's always an option for you.

You have plenty of options - without being the person everyone has already done :-)



Are You F***able?

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You Are the Goldilocks of Cocks

You're a bit picky when it comes to the size of your man

Too small? You won't feel a thing. Too big? You'll feel too much!

Luckily, most guys fall within your acceptable 5 to 7 inch range.

Just watch out for the Justin Timberlakes and Tommy Lee's of the world



What Size Do You Take?

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