Sunday, June 13, 2004

   zZzZzZzZ
Yesterday was ok I guess...(sorry i didnt post earlier.I was at a friends b-day party..Im still over at her house lol).It turned out to be kinda bad.There were soooo many people too...Me,Heather,Kaylin,Catlin,stacey,shelly,becca,ana,summer,nicki,rula....yeah there were alot.but Rula and catlin left early..lol.....ugh..Never teach a bunch of chour prisses how to play DDR...Heather had called me a few weeks ago to tell me to bring my DDR mat cause he other one was broken.So I did....I didnt know that this game could curropt people.I swear it drove them litterally mad......Ugh..they were so loud ALL night..it was like 3 AM and Heathers parents were trying to sleep.....everytime we told them tobe quiet,they wouldnt listen and get all pissy with us.So me and Heather said fuck it and went upstairs to just escape the madness and just chill.We came online and I talked to Tay for a bit.....but ugh..You could still hear them screaming and yelling in the basement.They were stomping on the pads so fucking loud..I was so tempted to take Tays advice and just Kill them all -.-; We went back downstairs and they were being bitchy....cause me and Heather wanted to play again..concidering we hadn't done a round in awhile...so I said "Ok its our turn" and Ana looked at me and said."Wow..that was rude...its not like you guys were actually playing..no you went upstairs" ugh i wanted to fucking punch her.First of all,Its Heathers birthday AND her party...and they completly ignored her the whole night,claiming it was a DDR party...so we came upstairs again and went back online...Heather went up to take a shower and Kaylin hung out on the living room couch (It was about 4 AM by this time)Im so pissed that Yessi didnet get to sleep over...It was supposed to be her party too but her parents were being assholes...(the party was saturday on Yessis b-day.Sunday is Heathers b-day..but well it is sunday now but whatever..)Stacey and nicki snuck out to go get fucking drunk...who in their right minds would sneak out of their friends birthday party just to go get drunk.not to mention its like 4 hours past curfew..and if they get caught by the cops walking back to her house drunk.Heathers parents would have been in so much shit...So me heather and kaylin just grabbed our stuff and decided to sleep in Heathers room for the night.we were tired and the others just wanted to talk..so yeah...-_-;...I guess that takes me to now.and since breakfeast is almost ready Im gonna go freshen up

Ja
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Friday, June 11, 2004

   Well.Judging by the subject of this entry I guess I have some explaining to do.So let me try and start the best way I can.

First of all.I am so fucking sick and tired of everyones useless whinning and complaining about life.About how their life sucks and they want to die.Well I hope it dawns on everyone that life could be a hell of alot worse then it is now.And there are other people that are going through worse things.(And believe me.there are ALOT).All this bitching and complaining is driving me up a fucking wall.All this morbid depression is making me want to drive a metal stake through my eyes and pull out every single strand of my hair out.People need to learn to get over themselves.because life is too god damn short to be sad and whinney all the time.

I'm also sick of having hords of people just fly at me thinking they can scream and bitch and yell at me about their bad day all because they know that I will be ok with it and pat them on the back,give them some encouraging words,and send them on their way.I'm done with it.I have given so much of my self confidence out to people that I have none left for myself.My kind words are no more.My shoulder is no longer there for people to cry on.You all need to learn how to take care of yourself.Everyone needs to get some self-confidence..cause all this "I cant do it" Bull-shit is getting old...
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Thursday, June 10, 2004

   compys can be sooooo stupid sometimes x_x
Ugh. ._. I hate this comp sometimes.its being stupid and i dont know whats wrong.it will let me run every program except for anything that has to do with Windows.T___T meaning i cant open my documents,my computer,search for a file or folder,shortcut to windows or anything like that without it saying I have generated an error >.< gah!-pushes compy out the window- T_T....-throws rocks at it from up high- damn thing...

Well anyway e_e lol.yeah i know i keep changing the layout and everything of myotaku but oh well.and i changed the song again hehe n_n

Being sick sucks ass x.X I have had the flu for like four days now..though its getting better.I can tell Im getting over it though cause since i woke up I have been coughing,which means its all breaking up and crap o_O; it sucks though cause everytime I sneeze..i cough like ten times x_X.but eh i'll get over it hehe.Well before I ramble on more Im gonna just shut up and find something to do ^_^
-waves- ja!
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Monday, June 7, 2004

.........e.e........
Im starting to rp as Sango now..I find it alot easier to rp as her without haveing any OOC interferences...-__-....-cough- plus...i can have all the sexy Hoshis I want XDD muaha!Im not getting rid of Kagome though lol o__O I just wanna try something new for awhile...plus there are too many kagomes e_x;;....waaaaaaaaaaay too many..usually really annoying ones that run around screaming sit to every Inu-yasha they see.._._ ...well....I have some things to think over so i guess I will write in here later...

ja
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Sunday, June 6, 2004

   Go..left go right go pick up the step,go left go right go left!....wth? XD
ehhhhh well...i guess nothing really intersting happend..though I do have somethings new and somethings I need to work out..

I have a new slave..and i dont know what to do XDDD His name is kenji and hes really sweet.though I had to force him into being my slave v__v;;...its sad but oh well..like i just told him "he will learn to love it" XD..being Seme is fun fun o_o;..

Ok..now to the other thing e__e;...Im so confused with Elle..she talks as though me and kyrs ment nothing to her..and she wants to leave because of a certain someone..I told her that me and kyrs were here and she said that she wanted -love-...it just kinda hurt i guess...-_-;...but i guess there really isnt anything I can do about it...."I guess our friendship ment nothing to you.maybe you should know I would die for you".

-_-;....
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Saturday, June 5, 2004

   ur..o.O;
WOOT WOOT SCHOOLS OUT O_O!today was the first day n___n muahahahahaha summer vacation here I come!I plan to make this summer my changing period.where I try to identify everything wrong with me and try to make them right..you know..so I can become a better person ^__^.I have already found somethings that I'm working on now so yeah <_<;

Im going to this thing called Dreamers workshop..its from augest 1-7. ^__^ its a musical theater workshop lol..the first 5 days are spent training and stuff then the last 2 are spent preparing either a song or a monologue to perform in this huge performance we are all putting on..I cant wait!!! ^____^ hehehehehe
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Wednesday, June 2, 2004

   tra la la la
Only two more days of school left!! yay ^______^ even though I have finals tomarow and friday x.x....you know...it doesnt feel like the end of school...not even when we were cleaning out our lockers today.It just felt like..any other day o___O;...this year went by really fast..kinda makes me sad though.But oh well.Nothing I can do about it ^__^ well ja!
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Sunday, May 30, 2004

   errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
well today is the day i stop loving ^___^ sorry!!

"I watch the moonrise thinking of how things came to be the way they are.you could have saved me you know,but you chose to leave me to my fate.and now as i swim in a pool of my own blood that pours from the wound you created,tears stream down my bloodstained face.because the memory of you refuses to leave me.cause i loved you so much though you act like you hate me.but its alright my love,i feared the darkness at first but now i embrace death andcry on the shoulders of fallen angels,but dont worry my love,you'll face the same fate as me,everyone dies,theres no immortality.but when we're together again,my heart will never be yours.you could have had it once,i offered it freely,yet you chose to hit it as hard as you could and watch as it broke.i now guard the shatterd remains of my heart and my soul with the ferocity of a dragon.yet i still dont understand you.you killed me you basterd,and all i ever tried to do was love you"

hehehehe =n_n=
ja!

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Saturday, May 29, 2004

whoo 147 views XD
yay 147 people have veiwed this shitty journal o.O;;

Well today was fun ^_^ I went to the mall with Heather and Yessi.lol..they wouldnt let me streak in Sears...or try to run up the down escelator...or throw skittles at people T_T.....and me and yessi were acting like lesbians..heather was laughing her ass off XDD then while Yessi was in clairs,me and heather went to the dollar store and I bought these plastic handcuffs XD so i went to go get yessi and said she was my bitch now and i cuffed her to me XDDD whoo! it was great.then we ddred for a long ass time....o.O;.....and i met alot of new people..<.<;..and when we were in hot topic we were talking to one of the guys that work there:

Yessi:yeah..shes my master
me:Yep thats right..
guy:wow..lol..
me:Yep..and these handcuffs even came with a knife so i can shank her if she disobeys me....
guy:..wow shes got you huh? XD
yessi: u_u yus..
me:come on now bitch! -pulls her off-

then later on XD the same guy came up to us

guy: hey again
me: heylo o_o
guy: hey can i be your bitch too?
me: >.>.....sure!
yessi:-talking to random people about her 'master'-
random guy: hey!
me: what?
random guy: can I be your bitch?!?!
me: O.O;; sure!!!! -thinking to self 'wow ur hot XDDD'-

so by the end of the day I had like 6 bitches o.O;.....yeah..people kept starring at the handcuffsXDD <.<; -cough- well I got a new beanie n.n...hehehehe >__> and before I ramble on about the stupid things we did at the mall Imma shut up XDD

ja!
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

   blehness o___O
today was stupid T___T;;..I really cant wait till schools over..I really cant...its so overwhelming.I have two projects due on friday..one of them is an extra credit project worth 5% points..which is good because I am getting a 66 >>;;; and it will knock me into the C range ~.~;;then my english project i have to make up my own mythilogical creature..which isnt that hard...e.e;; but then i have finals next week and ugh x___X just too much school stuff goin on..well im hungry so imma go eat then play some ddr...ja!
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