Sunday, May 16, 2004

   heh..Its been awhile...
Sorry for my long absence..lol..Guess I havent really had any motivation to write in my journal anymore....I dont know..Im just kinda bleh now -.-;


Ugh so anyway...I'm begining to feel like Yessi is pushing me and Mary aside...ever since she started dating Albert...which let me comment on...The night me and her went over to Julians house,I did nothing but sit in a corner,quiet while everyone was loud and crazy..blasting music,playing guitar,screaming,running around,dancing...I dont know..I guess I just didnt feel very comfterble..yessi and albert were all over each other (Albert is julians older brother) all night...and I caught them making out.lol ^^ I was happy for her...but at the same time i wasnt....cause...alberts bro,Julian...damn.....I've liked that kid since 7th grade......and I was so ready to get close to him and ask him out...I mean..I remember practically stalking the kid in eighth grade..and I was about to go for him till I found out....Yessi liked him too...and ugh I just didnt know what to do..cause yessi was my friend but....I wanted Julian so bad and...........I didnt want to hurt her..........so I backed off.....and............she was making out with his brother?!..wtf?! all the nights I cried to my mom,confused,not knowing what to do and deciding to give up someone who I wanted to be with so badly and SHE MAKES OUT WITH HIS BROTHER?!....ugh......Now Julian has a girlfriend and all that..albert and yessi are together and it just feels like shes been ditching me and Mary alot lately..I asked her if she wanted to do something on friday...you know..go to the mall,DDR...our normal routine..But no..she HAD to hang out Albert..this has nothing to do with jealousy..this is about breaking the code of friends...she offerd to take albert with us to the mall and I said no...sorry..I refuse to be the third wheel while those two make out and are all over each other..Ive already been through that once.I talked to Mary about it last night..she said she felt the same way I did......I mean....all Yessi talks about is albert..albert this,albert that......shes always complaining that she misses him....thats all she ever talks about..and I dont want to say anything to her about it cause shes my friend but...you NEVER put a guy infront of your friends..you know why?! because guys come and go..there are always going to be more guys out there to date and make out with.....even if you do like him alot...........Guys may come and go....but good friends dont.....Its not every day you make a friend thats going to stick by you no matter what....not every day you will find a friend who wont care about what you look like or anything stupid like that...its not everyday you find a true friend..and I hope yessi realizes that before its too late...

hn..well ja!
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