Monday, August 7, 2006

   Mavis Beacon no longer teaches Dvorak

My mom has been criticizing me about not getting my summer homework done. I'm at the library and I'm supposed to be working on it but instead I'm looking for cheap school supplies and a job. T.T I need a job. It's too bad that I'm unskilled. >.> The whole reason I started started this blog was to improve my typing speed. When I used to use QWERTY my typing speed was 50-60 words per minute. I switched to Dvorak and my typing speed hovers around 45 wpm (T.T) AND it's sometimes not possible to switch when I'm using a library/school computer. I wanted to go up to 80 wpm at least so I could get a job as a secretary. Now that's never going to happen. T.T Activities that help: 1) Write more emails.. reply every one with at least a paragraph, instead of talking, eMail! 2)Type a long non-work related email when your boss is around the corner 3)Join a forum 4)Chat online ( chatroom or MSN or yahoo ) 5)Type, Type, Type start a blog and use it once a week practise makes perfect http://www.typing-lessons.org/ Adults are stupid. Last night my parents had an argument about my sister and her friends and my grandmother got involved. I can't really describe the arguement without giving out a bunch of personal information. Therefore, I'll just say that my parents seem to look for any excuse to fight with each other and that my grandmother said some very ignorant things. *sigh*

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Sunday, August 6, 2006

I know nothing about life

It's two weeks after I got back from my vacation I finally unpacked. My room is being invaded by ants. T.T Where did they come from? I think that I'm becoming more superficial and materialistic. School starts in a week so I asked my mom about school supplies. My mom said that we couldn't afford it. Huh? I need school supplies. T.T I think that I should get a job if that's the case. The problem is that I'm unskilled and no one would hire me. I'd probably be paid less than minimum wage anyway with no time to study. My guidance counselor called last week and said that three of the classes that I wanted to take were happening at the same time. So I had to drop two classed and pick others. T.T I couldn't take Spanish this year. I'm sure that I'll forget everything. I just saw my schedule. First Semester is going to kill me. I'm trying to stop obsessing about my class rank. I'll never become valedictorian so I should just forget about it. I usually end up being jealous of the best students anyway. I must go study now.

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Saturday, August 5, 2006

History eating me inside

The next time I hear the word "Gothic" I'm going to think of this: STUPID BARBARIAN TRIBE THAT HELPED CAUSE THE COLLAPSE OF THE WESTERN ROMAN EMPIRE IN THE FIFTH CENTURY RESULTING IN A BUNCH OF EMPIRES AND WARS. NOW I HAVE TO LEARN ABOUT AND WRITE ESSAYS, OUTLINES AND MAKE MAPS ABOUT THEM DEPRIVING ME OF SUMMER RELAXATION! DIEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I am tired of Medieval Europe. I don't understand any of this.

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Thursday, August 3, 2006

   Ideas

I've been considering locking myself in a room with a computer and no food until I overcome my procrastination and finish my summer homework. Anyway, I was supposed to be working on my maps and my essay but I decided to watch Memoirs of a Geisha. (Finally! Everyone except me saw the movie with their friends when it came out in theaters) I'm always disappointed when I read a book first and watch the movie or vice versa. However, I got over the little differences I noticed and enjoyed it. It was really pretty. I prefer the old cover designs for the Memoirs of a Geisha novels though. I'm watching the extras right now. I never realize that it's so much work to make a movie. So many different people are involved architects, musicians, screenwriters, people giving lessons about dance or culture. I feel so untalented. I'm not skilled in anything. The only thing I can do well is pretend to be well behaved and study. Even then, I'm a rotten person on the inside and I forget everything I learn after the test. T.T

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   Stuff I did Yesterday

Yay. Yesterday I went to the doctor. My mom and I waited 2 1/2 hours and the doctor only saw me for 10 minutes. T.T Then my mom made me help her study for her test. I can't even read her handwriting, let alone the complicated medical terms like glomerulonephritis. (I didn't even make that up. It's actual disease of the kidneys.) I don't like it but I feel obliged to do it. Then I went to school with her. College students look like high school students except...I don't know , plainer? They look more like students I guess. I wouldn't be able to tell the difference if you stood them side by side though. I've been thinking. Why have I gone to school all these years? All these years I've sat in a classroom scribbling notes about facts that I forget right after the tests just so that I could please my parents by getting a letter that looks like an arrowhead. (namely, an A) Maybe school is just a way to babysit children until they can work and be useful to the economy. It's too bad that I have no desire to work. xP I've begged my mom to let me be homeschooled but she says that it's too expensive. Then I begged her to let me take all my classes online, which is free. She said no and that I needed social interaction and blah blah blah. In theory, isn't the purpose of school to teach you? What does social interaction have to do with it? I'm happier and can concentrate on learning more if I'm not constantly reminded what a social misfit I am. Anyway, it's a battle I can't win so I'll just have to drag myself to school everday. This is what I feel like when I'm in school: Okay, I have a question. What's the story behind your username? (Is it your nickname, the name of your faviorite anime character etc.?) Does anyone know the story behind mine?

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Tuesday, August 1, 2006

   I'm tired of this

If you'll give me a moment to whine about my life, I am really. Really. Really. Ridiculously sick of this house. Yesterday I had the biggest fight with my sister. Appearently, she dug through the computer and found my site and she's been reading it the entire time. She read yesterday's entry and started yelling at me and told me that I was a ugly, stupid, hypocritical asshole with nothing better to do but sit on her ass in front of a computer and complain on some shittily-made web blog and everything else she likes to tell me every .5 seconds and then kicked the shit out of me until I screamed loud enough for my dad to start knocking asking if everything was okay. That: *was a long sentence* Then she went to the door and was like, "^___^v NOTHING WRONG HERE, WE'RE JUST HAVING A GRAND OL' TIME LOL ^___^v" and then went back in our room and dragged me around by my hair until I started screaming again. Now, like, half my hair is all over the carpet and my scalp still hurts. And then she threw an alarm clock at me and now I've got this bruise on my eyebrow. Now she is persistently ignoring me. And it still HURTS TO MOVE. I. AM REALLY. TIRED. OF THIS.

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Monday, July 31, 2006

IT HURTS TO MOVE!

Maybe I should just blow myself to bits in front of my mother. ... Or not. Considering the fact that I have no gun. My head hurts, my arse hurts, my eyes hurt, my finger is bleeding, my arms are bruised, my shoulder is aching, my head has a large bump, I'm going blind, deaf and crippled. Life is lovely.

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   Scissors and Matches

I hate my sisters I hate my sisters I hate my sisters. My quality of life would be significantly better if certain people were dead and my sisters are number one on my list. I can't stand them. I don't even wish that I was dead anymore. I wish that they were dead. My fingers itch. I want to bash their brains in, stab them with scissors and burn them with matches. I want them dead so that I will never have to see them again. I don't care if I get sent to prison or a mental institution. It's better than being here. I will now think up ways to hurt them as much as they have hurt me.

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Saturday, July 29, 2006

Summer homework is death to a procrastinator

:-p I feel like a bad person. My parents think that I'm doing homework when I'm just wasting time online. I need to wean myself from the computer. Anyway, I now want to watch Suzumiya Haruhi just because I like the ending song. I always have a weird reason for wanting to watch an anime. T.T I guess that's why I have such unconventional taste. When I force myself to write that essay, complete my maps and outlines and essay on 22 European current events I will learn the Haru Haru Yukai dance. If I actually make some friend this year at school I'll convince them to learn the dance with me and we'll put it up on Youtube like all the other crazy anime fans obsessed with this show.

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Friday, July 28, 2006

I got five hours of sleep last night and I felt like a zombie when my mom dropped me of to 'volunteer' 15 minutes late. I need to learn how to drive. I was really irritable and wanted nothing more than to curl up between the magazines and children's area to sleep. I'm surprised that I managed to be polite. I still haven't slept yet. My sister is annoying me so that she can use a computer. I threw a stuffed duck at her. If I don't start on my summer homework soon I'll get an "F" on the first day of school. I need a hobby.

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