Thursday, December 28, 2006

Dread

My stalker called me for the last time yesterday. He might die, or he might come to see me. I know that this is wrong but I hope he dies. He has brought me so much pain and made me cry so many times. I'm tired of this and I want this weird "friendship" to end. He's so obsessed with me that he's lost his common sense. Vacation has been really boring, but it's better than being in school. I haven't met any of my goals. I waste most of my time online. I seriously need to get a life. Does anyone know where I can buy one? I have a really boring personality. I wish that my personality wasn't as bland as a lump of vanilla pudding. Since I decided to be more happy, I guess I should change my "vital" information to the left to be more positive. THERE'S NO FOOD IN THIS HOUSE!! MY MOM REFUSES TO BUY GROCERIES! I'VE BEEN LIVING OFF PEANUTBUTTER AND JELLY FOR THE PAST THREE DAYS! D:<

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

   New Year's Resolutions

I'm making some goals/New Year's Resolutions. Here they are: 1)TRY TO BE HAPPIER. Stop feeling guilty, beat my depression, stop comparing myself to other people etc. 2)Do homework as soon as I get home from school. Study really hard. NO PROCRASTINATING! 3)Learn to sew really well. Practice once a week. 4)Take care of my appearance. Exercise everyday, eat fruits and vegetables, take care of my skin. Dress Lolita. 5)Get a job. Stop wasting what little money I have. Finish getting my volunteer service hours. 6)FINALLY GET MY LEARNER'S PERMIT. 7)Be more organized 8)Be more independent Do you think that it's too much? Goals for the remaining of my winter vacation: 1)Read A Tale of Two Cities for English. 2)Practice Algebra 3)Review Japanese 4)Clean Room 5)Practice Sewing

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

I want something beautiful

I'm so ugly. I wish that I were pretty. Then, people would treat me better. I'm a boring and worthless person. What is my reason to live? I've been feeling very lonely. I wish that I had a close friend. Maybe it is just boredom. I envy everyone. I'm going to come up with New Years resolutions and such. THANK YOU WHOEVER TOOK THE TIME TO READ THIS WHICH IS NO ONE

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Christmas sucked. I spent most of the day sleeping. I think that I'll try to sell all my anime stuff. I don't even watch it anymore, even when I'm bored. I wish that I could drive so that it could facilitate getting a job. Oh well. I'm sleepy. My mom is making me pray with her every night for night for nine days and read the Bible and such. I guess she doesn't want me to become a "heathen" like my dad. Still, I wish she wouldn't do this. I'm feeling very lonely. I long for a close friend.

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Monday, December 25, 2006

Jingle Bells

Merry Christmas I guess.... Ow, my toothbrush scraped away part of my gums and it hurts a lot. I need to see a dentist Lalala I can already tell that Christmas is going to be boring. I'm upset because MY STALKER HAS DISAPEARED OFF THE FACE OF THE PLANET I miss him T_T. I'm so worried about him. What happened to him? I will try to make the rest of my vacation productive. I did Mehndi yesterday and it turned out decent. :O

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Sunday, December 24, 2006

*sigh*

I am such a self-centered bitch. I hate life. What can I do about it? I hate Christmas. I need to eat, clean my room, and get a life.

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Thursday, December 21, 2006

Yes!

I'm FRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Well, at least for the next two weeks. I hate school. I'm so glad the semester is over. I hope that next semester will be easier but it will probably be harder. I hope that I don't fail Algebra II. I think that the only final I did really bad on was my English one. *sigh* Today, everyone at school was carrying around a million presents from their friends. Needless to say, I was envious. For the next two weeks I'll be doing homework (yuck), relearning Japanese, sewing my first garmet, and getting lots of sleep. I might even start watching anime again. I hope that next semester is better.

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

FinalsFinalsFinalsFinals

I HATE finals. T_T I have so much studying to do and so many essays to write. I will get no sleep tonight. I showed the vice principal my PSAT scores and she and the magnet coordinator went insane. They want me to take all these AP and Dual Enrollment colleges and go to a hard college. Are they crazy? I hate school.

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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

This sucks

I have finals tomorrow. I have tons of homework that I haven't started on due tomorrow. My stalker is in a desprate situation AND has a fever. I know that I did badly on my English final. Life sucks right now. Stupid school.

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Monday, December 18, 2006

School starts in two hours

Yesterday my mom made me go to a party with the people from her prayer group. It was awkward not only because I was greeted by a bunch of old (sorry) people I didn't know, but also I felt bad because I was probably the least religious person there. I couldn't eat any of the food because they all had meat in them. I tried doing mehndi last night and it was a disaster. The paste was watery and got everywhere and the design was awful. I didn't roll the cones correctly and didn't get a thin line. The design on my hand is still there. It's ugly and I want it gone.

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