Tuesday, May 2, 2006

   Ah, the mundane

I have another group project to do. Hmmm.... I should be working on them now but I'll start later. They're having a play at my school.I don't really want to go. I live so far from the school anyway. Hmm..We had a fundraiser and had to sell cookie dough and cheesecake from a magazine. Fundraisers like that suck if you're extremely shy like I am. Whenever I bring one home my dad complains. "I hate those things," he says. I don't know why he hates them so much. Even in elementary school I would go around door to door alone or with a friend the same age as me selling chocolate. He's never gone with me. In fact, he refuses to take them to work and asking his friends to buy something. T.T I didn't sell much...which was the best I guess because the cheesecakes and cookie dough would probably melt by the time I get home. I can't stand my sisters. I embarrass myself way too much at school. I always said that I would never act like those characters on tv who try to fit in a group that they'll never get in and try to get approval from people who hate them. I didn't realize it at first. I was trying to find friends who had the same intrest as me but it turns out that even the anime fans have an exclusive clique now. They consider themselves to be "hardcore otaku" according to them I am just a noob. Today I sat alone at lunch about seven feet away from them like an idiot. (I'm overusing the emoticons a bit.) I wish that I was oblivious and wasn't aware of anything. *sigh* I am addicted to this site but I make pretty short posts and my typing speed is still too slow. I'm just craving attention, which is stupid.

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