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• 2006-04-21
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• umm...I don't know. I had straight A's my first year of high school.
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• I don't really watch anime anymore but I like Rose of Versailles and Utena
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  • stop procrastinating
  • learn to sew
  • live instead of exist
  • spend less time on the computer
  • relearn Japanese
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  • get a job

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• sewing, going online, obsessing
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Saturday, October 28, 2006

   Human behavior-200


I feel like crap. It's not the same when I get all depressed though. My stalker called. He's been calling every day wanting to listen to my voice. He freaked me out many times like when he asked me to sing for him and when he said that he couldn't sleep at night because he was thinking of me. He even said that he framed a photo of me in his room.
Anyway, yesterday he told me that he loved me and wanted to marry me. I thought to myself WTF is wrong with you? I'm still a minor. I don't even like you! I'm too young to be thinking about marriage etc. I don't love you. I don't even love my parents or myself.
I was anxious all day and today. Then he called and asked if I loved him back. He wanted me to be blunt so I said no. He was heart broken which made me sad. Grrr...How did I get myself into this?
Anyway I feel bad now. He was the only one who has ever said such nice things to me. However, had said yes, it would be for selfish reasons. Was I stupid to say no? Humans are cowards in the face of happiness.


I'm crying. I cant't even tell anyone what happened. I can just implode.
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