Wednesday, March 12, 2008

So yeah, day one of my highschool exit exam done with. Today we did the english portion. Wow was that tidius! It was just...fjaewi;o And it sucks cause I finished early..got in trouble for playing rock paper sissors with my friend to kill time...The test seemed fairly easy, I think I did well enough. Think I passed. Today once again I was pretty angry and frustrated, quite irritable and such. I mean when my bf wanted to talk and he took my snapple away from me I ditched him and sat with my friends cause that pissed me off he came to me with my snapple and held it over my head as if to pour it, that ticked me off I said "Go right a head, go for it." Then I hear some guy from my group say "dude, listen to her tone, its like, if you do it, I'll rip your head off" and another one throws in "and not that head, but THAT head" after that he backed off and we broke out laughing. He wouldn't have done it OH I presuaded my teacher out of a tardy! I came late and he was like well this guy wasn't with his boyfriend. and I was like "Neither was I!" My teacher looks at me saying "I never said you were" that made me angry so I snapped "But you Implied it!" and he was impressed that I used implied, considered all the bad slang he hears, so I convinced him as a reward to erase my tardy, he said we'd talk about it later, after class I asked him about it and he was like "what tardy? I didn't mark you down for any tardy..." tomorrow part two of the exit exam, dreaded MATH! Much Love @--->------ ~Rose~

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

HiHi Sorry I didn't get around to commenting you guys, I'll try to do that later promise! Okay so today there was LOTS of talking about Super Smash Bros Brawl! haha one of my friends was pretty annoyed about the chatting of it. I was pumped! Tomorrow I have to take the CHASEE which is pretty much the highschool exit exam. tomorrow is gonna be the English protion of the test from 8:10-11:56 in 1st then after lunch we come BACK to first block for 32 min then 2nd, 3rd, and 4th for 32 min each and go home....I wonder what drugs the people who made the schedual were on...or better yet what drugs they were NOT on... Today was a pretty bad day, I was in a horrible mood all day, just very easily irraitable and such and yeah. so school was hell one thing that really got to me was my culinary teacher made us cook a like hour and 30 min meal in like an hour, and I ended having to stay after school to clean and shit...I mean I even got chosen at my modeling meeting to be the model to be worked one ((or get judged and told what I'm doing wrong and critized and such)) not much fun... But what did cheer me up was a practice photoshoot! It was fun and we even ended up making an audience of the people passing by the street, when the photographer posts the pics online I'll post em here k? and next monday will be another practice shoot, but with formal dresses. so that should be fun! =D Current time- 10:44 Current Mood- Sad/angry Listening to- Rette Mich Akustick ((Tokio Hotel)) Much Love @--->------ ~Rose~

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Monday, March 10, 2008

HiHi I got Super Smash Bros Brawl today! and let me tell you it so kicks ass! Except one thing made me sad about it...they omitted my favorite character from this game! He was my fav from the previous one but this time he got replaced. I MISS ROY! He got replaced by Ike...whom I have to admit is very cool and I like very much...may grow to love but will never replace Roy in my heart! *tear tear* Honestly now, Marth should have been the one to have been cut from the game. He isn't a very good character, not too fast or powerful...On the other hand Roy has both speed and powerful attacks! Ike..yeah he has really good powerful attacks and such, but he too is rather slow... I suppose I can get use to it...but I mean..I miss my Roy..Maybe I will write a very angry letter to the game makers...haha na..but anyways today was fun, playing the game and such. Any of you guys have it? anyone you fans of it? Current Time- 10:08 Current Mood- tired Listening to- Love Is Dead ((Tokio Hotel))

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Saturday, March 8, 2008

HiHi I got my computer back! yay! Today was adfhad;hf; Whoa! we had extended lunch and some drama unfolded. but the unsaid kind that won't really cause much. At the end of the day I was fulled with anger, sadness and happiness, but not in a chaotic way at all...more of a co existing natural calm blend...if you can understand what I mean Spent extended lunch with my bf that was fun, found out the other guy I really like ((almost love)) likes this other girl in our group. But she's recently becoming close to her first and only ex and he fears she might get back with him...that caused my sadness, my anger came from me still liking him so much..dispite the fact I have a boyfriend. and the happiness came from hanging out with that guy after school with another friend at the super market center till like 5. it was really fun, he put his arm around me a couple time, hugged me really tightly, played with my hair, even licked my head! O.o and also my hand and bit me too lol. they also bought doughnuts and while we ate them he put his arm around me and poked me and stuff, it was just...really great fun being with him and just...yeah. ALOT happened...honestly if I was tosay every thing that happened this would be pages long cause today was eventful but I regreted having to leave. I miss him...but I'm so confused now!! Much Love @--->------ ~Rose~ Oh and I'm trying to get the hang of VV....I need help...I was bearly surviving with the last version! XD Gonna comment later!

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Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Hey, I've been out for a while..sorry Soooo much shit happened It seemed like some people tried to kiddnap me on sunday along with alot of ass grabbing and harrassment Then on monday I got in trouble no computer for a week doing homework for now..so I can post.. um...I'm doing a fashion show for Harley Davsion And possibly a commercial and other show Um..my ex is being adfka;df he flirted with me again and acted like a jerk toward the end of lunch Bf...going down hill...just don't know how to end it I guess sucks...and alot of other stuff too but I can't be on for long.. and I have a cake in the oven plus still need to check out the new version.. and see if I need adjusting... talk to you later okay? how have you been? Much Love ~Rose~

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Sunday, March 2, 2008

Today was Interesting

HiHi Today my friend schedualed a photo session. I showed up at her house and we headed to the creek, which is hidden by many a thick lining of trees on both sides. But in there...somewhere I remembered was a spot my ex had taken me alot before he moved away ((we were always close even before and after breaking up)) his secret hide out and i was interested in finding it again. But since I last was there was..when I was 13 or 14 and trees tend to change alot in 2-3 years. so finding it was hell, but when I got trapped by some trees and couldn't find my way out I found a tree with rope tied to it, the rope he used to make a swing and under a tree covered in mud leaves and plants was the old car seat he and his bro had brought in for a seat I had found it I remembered alot that that moment, then had hell getting out. Afterwards I found my friend again. We took pix around that area and the park and her house. At one point in the park she told me "Stay!...sit!" and as I was sitting down I said "Okay, but I'm not rolling over" she and i started cracking up and so did this random jogger. she took air shots of me. I jumped on a trampoline and she took pix of me in the air. When we were at the park we watched the skaters, we started talking of how she use to hate me all of freshmen year even though we hung out and up until October she just didn't stand me only then did I grow on her and now she adores me. But then she confessed she still hates me, that she adores me but still inside hates me some what, doesn;t know why or how much but there is hate. I told her "I can not say I find surprising." and at the end of the day she said the hate was gone...but I still have doubts though I love her. she said today she felt like we really bonded, and we did A persistant guy called me again asking if I was interested in him even though the odds where against him 3 factors. and he was right Current time- 12:38am Current mood- Mellow, satisfied somehow Listening to- Grauer Alltag ((Tokio Hotel)) Much Love @--->---- ~Rose~ P.S. going out of town tomorrow, may not be able to comment...sorry =( will try if I can.

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Saturday, March 1, 2008

HiHi! Okay today was a long one! Yesterday I had a really bad migrain I had to go home. went home schedualed an appointment with my doc to see her abuot my head again. left early around 1:30 Go to doc, talk to her, she puts me on meds again, wants me to see a Neurologist ((sp?)) to study my migrains further. no yay...but before that they teststed my vision with one of their eye tests where you stand 20 ft from those posters and read the letters till you can't. I read just till line 10 with only one eye! the nurse was looking at me like O.o so I asked her if she wanted me to stop, she said no and after another line she said..yeah stop there...and with both eyes I was able to read the 11th and final line from 20 ft away! I blew away the doctors and nurses who found my eyesight interesting since i was able to read the letters XD Oh during school previous group leader called ((whom still has much power)), she wanted to know if we were gonna kick out this new kid who has leached on to us. We didn't want him so she had the members of Senority vote on it. I voted him out..sorry don't enjoy his company. ~He~ seemed quiet so I talked to him and he pulled me aside to just talk to me. It was nice chatting with him again. Though then my brother asked me to knee ~him~ in the balls for trying to kick out that kid, I told my brother that I respect him very much, he is my older brother but I would not knee ~him~ in the balls, I informed ~him~ of the chat between me my bro and my sis in law. ~He~ took my Ravenclaw pin...he wanted to wear it but not give it back after lunch..so I told him if he promised to bring it back, he could give it back on monday. so he has it. He also bit me, like on my shoulder or neck. he hadn't done that in a while so I wasn't expecting it, of course he never bites too hard where it actually hurts me or leaves any mark. I wonder...will he become distant come monday? sorry for long post.. Time-11 23 Mood- uh thoughtful? lost in thought.. song- Durch Den Monsun ((Tokio Hotel)) Much love @--->------- ~Rose~

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Thursday, February 28, 2008

I must give up on him...there is nothing there...its gone..been gone and I just didn't want to realize it. I'm giving up on him, its such idiocity to gamble on him when there is no certanty...while there is another whom feels for me...and I feel for him too. My boyfriend...I have to call off the break..I want to be with him again, I miss him. As for the other, he is impossible. He is the most complicated and complex thing I have ever encountered. I suppose that is something I admire and attracts me to him...but that is also what hurts me so... Another thing that makes me sad is...that my boyfriend may...no does, like me more then I like him...I know that...thanks to the interfearance I recive...recived from the other. This is so fucked up..I bearly understand it myself.. I feel a sence of numbness coming over me...soon..for a while I will fall into a state of apthathy and numbness. I hate it..but I can't fight it...just ride it out I suppose.. I'm sorry if you don't understand what I am talking about..I bearly do too. just...some stuff I guess I typoed out to make me feel better... Current time- 11:45 Current mood- hurt that is numbing Listening to- I needn't you ((Devilish...currently known as Tokio Hotel)) Much Love @--->------- ~Rose~

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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

HiHi just did some Geometry homework while watching some anime, got very distracted lol. Well today was not very fun, i was sad for most of the day in fact. After homeroom my bf came up to me and asked if we started going out on the 26th of October, and I just said yes, then he says, "Oh..cause that means we've been together four months today, my longest relationship" the only thing I was able to say was "...it is? today...? oh wow..it is.." I gave him an akward hug and he walked me to class...I felt bad and earlier in the day when I was cheery I was walking with him, I linked my arm around his, then I saw...you can guess who..I let go of my bf's arm and look at the ground..away from both gazes. Felt bad then too Well on a happier note, I took the pass during 5th and ran into a friend, he and I wandered the school for a bit, then went to the guitar class to hang with a group of friends who take that class. That was fun...more fun then watching a video on WWII thats for sure well I'm gonna go What are you guys studying in history right now? Current Time- 11:23 Current Mood- Mellow Currently listening to- Geh ((Tokio Hotel)) Much Love @--->------ ~Rose~

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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

HiHi Well Its late..and I just finished watching Blood +...think I found this ending more satisfing then I found Death Note's. Not completely...but okay. My modeling thing got cancled at the salon so we were free to go, but I had no effin ride. Call mom, not picking up, call my bro to tell him I'm stuck in old town. you know what he does when I say "dude, I need a ride, I'm stuck in Old Town by myself..." He freakin hangs up on me!! I ended up managing a ride. School...was not so great...my bf and I did talk today, he seems fine, got a hair cut. His hair is still longish, but not shoulder length anymore. I like it, he looks better with this style. Soon I'm gonna ask him how the break is going for him.. the other guy, is being distant again. He tickled me twice. Once when my friend was giving me a piggy back ride and then later on. But we didn't even talk for more then 30 sec all together that whole day.I didn't get a hug either. I hate the emotional rollar coaster he has me on. Does he not realize the power he has over me? how happy he can make me by just hugging me tightly hello or good bye? or how sad he can make me by just being so distant after being so close. I wrote a poem to get some stuff out Anyone interested in Reading it?? see how tomorrow is...how are you guys doing? Any of you have a special someone? whom you just can't figure out, even to save your life? Current time- 1:34 Am...damn that late Current Mood- SLEEPY/hurting/confused ((obviously)) Listening to- Hallo ((Devilish...currently known as Tokio Hotel)) Much Love @--->----- ~Rose~

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