Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Guten Tag Well after having numerous panic attacks today I finished...bearly I wouldn;t say finished...but yeah I wrote 13 pages for my Resarch paper on Piracy and Modern Piracy. turned it in...think I won;t get a good grade. Had my final today. pretty much BS my whole way though it since I did not read the book. I think I failed...feel another panic attck coming...and trust me...me having a panic attack isn;t fun...not when your standing next to me....I sooooo failed...I just know it...god I failed didn;t I??? shit shit shit....this isn;t good...uh new subject yeah that would be good Um....no school till Jan 7th? have I mentioned that? my next Classes at the community college will just be Guitar and Wall Climbing so that should be fun...um well I think I'm gonna just leave it here and update later another day Much Love @--->------- ~Rose~

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Len Is a Meanie Pants

Guten Tag! ((meaning Good Day!)) well...lets see..quick update? My friend was gladly found safe and will pobably start attending my school ((making me really happy)) Uh I took the practice Exit exam yesterday...felt like hell...but I think I got it down. I felt like I knew most of the answers. Um...I have to dresses I will be modeling for a show for a local boutique. The wedding dress will arrive later on this week I believe. um...working on a 14 paged research paper on piracy. I'm currently on page 1! whoawho! its due monday =D well yeah...talk to you guys later Much Love @--->------- ~Rose~ Oh yeah! LEN IS A MEANIE PANTS...WITH A WEDGIE...DUNNO...

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Saturday, December 1, 2007

Confuzled

Yesterday was horrible.. 1-I think my very best friend whom I love very much but due to her injust mother, have been kept from for months has ran away. don't know yet 2-My aunt passed away last night/afternoon due to the cancer in her bones and lungs.... R.I.P. MARTA YOU WILL AND ARE VERY MUCH MISSED... 3-I have too many friends considering suicide 4-I am once again put on medication for fucking migrains...fucking headachs 5-I'm going to have to go get my eye checked out to see if they are the source of my headachs 6-My mother may still think of me as a deomon child.... 7-grades still need work 8-I still hate proofs..... 9-plenty more...trust me but I won't list more cause A. not enough room and B. I just won't Good stuff um my teacher forgot to bring the test on proofs, my other one experienced head trama? okay yeah that one was mean...um I went to a modeling audition. Mades some new friends...but they were all like older then me 19-20 year olds....um...well yeah did the interview and then the walk, said they'd call in about 3 days and if they don't well...you get the picture. during the audition and interview we were asked about our talents and one guy was like wanna know my talent? and the judges were like yes. he started to break dance. hell he was GOOD! and then he and the other boys lined up and gave the judges LAP DANCES! XD it was hallarious! any ways... audition was 2 hours long. cut school to go to it...school needs better securtity...its way to easy to break out...I even passed teachers and supervisors in the parking lot. they didn;t say shit....anyways...four hours after the audition around 9pm they called. I MADE THE CUT!! and I ALREADY GOT A JOB! On monday I'm to go to a boutique and model their prom dresses, maid dresses and maybe even their wedding dresses...though I;d make a pretty damn young bride no? so yup I'm a model now theres a mix of lots of bad stuff and some good stuff in my life right now. I'm on the edge myself. I don't know what I'm to do. I really, really, need something but...its just gone and I don't know. I'm on the edge, lets just hope I don't jump...I don't want to, but even if I'm not ready.... Much Love @--->----- ~Rose~

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

I Love Tokio Hotel....thanks to them I wanna learn German!

haven't posted in a while...thought I'd do so... well um yeah I guess school is doing alright...except for spanish. hate that class and the teacher is a rambling ______ mmhm. he talks about random stuff non school or spanish related...unless its like making fun of white people. bleh I wanna go to a spanish 1 class easier then spanish NSB...uh english is kinda eh...cause the teacher is a whimpy push over. my friends who had him their sophmore year tell me to make him cry ((which apparently is very easy)) and he'll disappear for like a week or two due to his lack of courage to face the class afterwards. damn both of these teachers are giving me unfair F's....uh Bio and History are alrightish...Culinary just got better I guess...um Geometry is cool but I'm kinda losing touch with what we are doing right now ((damn complicated proofs...)) *deep sigh* oh yeah and homeroom...so dam easy to skip...just tell the teacher you gotta leave the room for a sec and she doesn't even notice you don't come back...eh just stay for roll call and then grab your stuff, leave with out telling anyone...teacher won't freaking notice...but when I do stay I play speed with my friends. guess thats enough rambling for now.. Much Love @--->------ ~Rose~ OH yeah! seems my health is crashing again, so yeah...been getting sick like 2 weekends in a row looks like I'm heading for a third. might have to go back to the evil place with all the medication and needles again...with the so called good people society refers to as Doctors...damn health damn life damn depression...damn leactures on maintaining health, fuck it...any one wanna knock me into a state of coma? pay you a hundred bucks

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Monday, October 29, 2007

   BLARG!

lets see lets see... what to do what to do... um well I'm currently in the school library typing away at time. Um I'm suppose to be in Spanish right now but since my home computer has a virus I need this one to type up an essay I need for my college class tonight. Um...I'm done with that, crappy but hey I did all of it in under and hour so what can you expect? and I'm tired of it so I'm quitting here. I'm also looking at quick notes for a book I was suppose to read and decided not to....um yeah lazness...the result of a three day weekend. Did some shopping every day of that three day weekend ^^ Uh...still trying to kill time. So I got my Halloween costume! how about you??? What are you gonna be? I'm gonna be a PIRATE! with really bright blood red pants! XD I put together my own costume I didn't buy it. those fake cheesy lame over priced pieces of cheap fabric...its gonna be kick ass! =D well think I've killed enough time...no not really just think this post is long and pointless enough. Laters Much Love @--->------ ~Rose~ P.S. I've got a really bad tummy ach....=(

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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

ughflkgahkalguram

ugh....started kickboxing today wow...what a work out! it was non stop exercise! jumping jax, crunches, punches, kicking, jump rope, bouncing, and other stuff I don't even know what its called -_- and the crunches were like every twenty minutes for like 3 min? I don't know but it was hard.... I LIKED IT! ^_^ you'll hear me complain in about a few weeks to a month into it! but right now I liked it Much Love @--->-------- ~Rose~

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Saturday, October 6, 2007

Um...update of my life? No Bon fire, it rained so we hung out at her house I went to the modeling/acting workshop I was selected to go to the school and do the traning I turned them down for now Um getting a new lap top soon I hope ((any one know good ones?)) um..gonna start kickboxing next tuesday school grades could be better school socially is crappy ((with a few pro's)) And I just finished POSTPONE peer mentor traning. I didn't have to go to my classes yesterday or today. instead the whole day was none stop sex talk. I now know- how to put a condom on a guy ((all 14 steps...yes there were practicing models provided..icky)), I know all the condoms there are, male female dental dams, I know more STIs ((sexually transmitted Infections, the other term for STDs)) I know just about every birth control method, how long they last, and how they go in...from the pill to the creepy ((in my opinion)) copper T. I know how much a baby costs in its first year ((with no complications or luxuries)) roughly around 24,000. I know laws on dating and sex, and more about sexually active relationships and rape and stuff like that and much more...things I never really wanted to know... Much Love @-->---- ~Rose~ P.S. REMEMBER KIDS ABSTAINING FROM SEX IS THE BEST WAY TO PROTECT YOURSELF! ((A MESSAGE BEAT INTO OUR HEADS AND I AGREE ^^ ))

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

Does Anyone Actually Read The Titles Of Posts? If So Speak Now Or Forever Hold Your Peace...

Yoha Loha Soooo what to post what to post? Well lets see...school is dragging on okayish. despends on how my day goes. Um I need to get in the swing of doing at least MOST of my homework done rather then just a part or two of an assignemt every few days and falling asleep while doing them. My friend's B-day Party is Tomorrow...Bon Fire on the beautiful beach of Carmel. I'm looking forward to that. Always wanted to go to a Bon Fire just never been to one. Um as much as I love rain hope it doesn't tomorrow. Sunday I've got my modeling workshop. see how that goes. Will I attend the school and become a Model? who knows. depends how it goes. Well if I remember I'll tell you how it all went, the party and the meeting! good bye and good night to all! Much Love @--->------- ~Rose~ OH YEAH! um any bands or artists you guys would like to recomend? I'm looking for something to listen to. Any good Oprea, any type of Rock, metal, gothic, Instrumental/classical? or something else that isn't country or rap?

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

wwwwweeeeeellllllllll lets see I've decided to stay in the P.O.S.T.P.O.N.E. program and home room cause if I do it..and do 6 presentations, get paid $5 for each then I get $30 for the day and miss an entire day of school. not a bad deal I guess. and I get to make a room full of kids uncomfortable! >.< haha um I'm going to try KickBoxing on thrusday, and I will be going to the Modeling workshop on Sunday. so yeah I plan to keep busy for a while. I have a need to feel worth something right now...((some bad stuff happend don't wanna talk about it but it just made me feel worthless)) I guess thats the real reason I'm gonna get into modeling. just to feel like I'm worth something or hopefully PROVE I'm worth something. lets just hope this doesn't go all wrong. and for now its a secret from my friends at school. well think thats all I'm gonna say right now! but I do have one question! WHO INVENTED TIC-TAC-TOE?????

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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

What to do What to do....

I don't know what I should do...I have a lot of new crap and some of it is confusing. I hate it all. I don't know if I should stay in my current homeroom which is a program where we talk about sex, safe sex, the dangers, planned parenthood, child support and all those related topics to the freshmen and middle schools. we miss days of school and get paid for every presentation...shoud I stay in there? Next on the list is should I pick up kick boxing like my dad wants me to? cost $75 a month sign a 6month contract. Then I have all these other stuffs I won;t talk about right now. and finally about 15 min ago a Modeling agency/school called me inviting me to a meeting. To introduce me into the business and they were happy to hear I did some before and such...should I go to that? dunno but I got a huge ass wave of changes and choices. its hard trying to make my way through them at once...

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