Wednesday, March 12, 2008

this week needs to end

so last night was good since i worry that i'm going to mess things up with jac and me i always feel like i am doing something wrong and right now i feel like i could of done a better job we didn't fight or anything we were mellow and she kissed me good night so i guess that means she had a good time i dont know i hate fears. well since i have a 100 point storybook due friday for history and i have none of it done i cant hang out with jaclyn after school the rest of the week T.T but i need to bring up my grade if i fail another project i'll never be able to bring my grade up well i got to go about to miss bus

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

1 month

today is jaclyn and mine's 1 month so i am taking her out to the movies but thats really all i can do trying to keep this a secret from my parents is hard cause i want to buy her something to but if i do i'm afraid my mom will find out and then i wont be alive to see jaclyn anymore T.T sorry about yesterday post i'm just under a lot of stress i have 3 projects to do and i haven't started any of them 2 of them are due friday O.o and i dont want to mess things up between me and jaclyn and i'm always thinking i am doing something wrong and sunday i thought i hurt her some how so i broke down crying cause if i would to hurt jaclyn i think i'll kill myself (not really) but you get the point well i'm running late this morning got to go

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Monday, March 10, 2008

life sucks

yesterday was not a good day i broke down crying again and i broke down crying again today because jaclyn didn't come to school when i needed her the most i'm not mad at her not at all i'm more mad at myself. i dont really want to talk about what made me cry i'm just going to go

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Sunday, March 9, 2008

fucking dog

so yesterday i didn't do anything i just watched some tv and played xbox 360 then last night my mom took me to wal-mart and i bought myself a MP3 player the sad thing is my dad has the same one i have same color to so i'm hoping he doesn't take mine instead of his cus if he does he isn't going to like my music XD so today i'm sleeping and i wake up when i get out of bed i noticed that there is a FUCKING CATCUS IN MY BED!!!! it was pointy to somehow my puppy jazz got it into the house but i dont know how there was another catcus in the hallway to >.< so ya the bad thing about living in arizona is the heat without rain for months, wild fires you can see from your bedroom window (it was so cool looking XD ) and dogs getting catcus in your bed lol. well i didn't do any of my homework yesterday and kyle wants me to come over so i need to do atleast my anatomy i'll talk to you guys later.

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Saturday, March 8, 2008

sorry guys

sorry guys that i haven't been on lately it has been a depressing week and i just need time to myself to think about things but i'm doing better now. so it is friday and i'm not doing anything once again jaclyn is going to caamp verde which is 2 to 3 hours north from me so thats out of the question but o well we might hang out tomorrow today i need to do some homework like lots of it i have 3 projects to do >.< so well i guess i'm going to go do that i'll talk to you guys later.

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Sunday, March 2, 2008

OMG i can some what feel my foot

ok so my foot and leg is getting better i can feel it but it still hurts. i didn't do much yesterday i just watched a bunch of movies and stuff i really need to do my homework i'm behind in anatomy and if i don't turn in my outline of my project she is going to get mad at me again i dont like it when people get mad at me. so today i'm going to ask my mom if i can go driving i just want to get out of the house i mean i'll deal with my mom freaking out in the car. well i'm going to go i'll talk to you guys later.

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Saturday, March 1, 2008

to cut off my foot or not to cut off my foot that is the question

so yesterday i was in the shower shaving my legs and i notice that i cant feel my left leg so that means that i cant feel my foot and my lower leg now >.< and i still cant right this minute to so my mom called the doctor and i went to see her. she messed around with my legs went to look stuff up and came back she didn't find anything its not a blood clot (thats what my dad thought it was) but she said that if it doesn't get better by tuesday i need to call her and she is going to send me to a Neurologist and then after the docs i went to my grandmas house and i drank a engery drink and i dont drink them and i got so hyper i was shaking so badly i ran around the block and there is a school by my grandmas that just got out so i raced the little kids it was fun. then i went to kyles house with everybody i missed jaclyn a lot so i dealt with the pain just to spend time with her last night it was a fun night we watched the movie Bugs the horror one dude those guys where on crack and meth and everything else it was a weird movie i warn you guys never NEVER watch that movie when you are high (i wasn't high) if you do you just might stab yourself thinking there are bugs under your skin. by the end of the night i was in so much pain my leg and chest hurt so much so i feel asleep on the couch with jaclyn everybody feel asleep it was funny. today i'm not doing anything i'm going to try to stay off my foot for the whole day i'm going to camp out in the living room with the big tv and play xbox 360 ^__^ well this was a long post i'll talk to you guys later. oh and if you guys want to add me to myspace (i would love it if you do) there is a link you can click to get there its under my music play list

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Friday, February 29, 2008

damn foot

so my foot is still asleep it has been for 2 days now and it really hurts to walk on it so yesterday at school we had a fire dill during my anatomy class and we were dicesting sheeps heart and i had my finger in the heart going through the aorta and the fire alarm went off >.< it was so lame and i had to walk all the way across campus with a hurt ankle. and then after school i went to jaclyn's house and did nothing she did homework and we took a long walk and talked about the one thing i'm scared of which is me being like my dad i dont want to hit my kids. so when my mom came to pick me up last night my foot hurt so much so my mom says i should stay off it so i'm home from school and now i'm having a hard time breathing >.< god somedays i just wish i could die so there would be no more pain. after school a bunch of us are going to kyles and we are going to watch movies and eat junk food but my mom doesn't really want me to go but i'm going to try to go so i can see jaclyn i miss jac T.T well that is all i'm going to go tell my mom my chest hurts hopefully she wont get mad at me

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Thursday, February 28, 2008

no more late starts

so i stayed after school yesterday with everybody we didn't do much we just hung out and we played truth or dare i hate that game but i was forced to play against my will i'm not doing much today testting is over until april which is when the math one is and that means i dont have school that day since the math is a all day thing so WOOT! i have come to the idea that i dont like A's i have a A in anatomy and i want it to go down to a B A's just give me to much stress cause then i want to keep it at a A and stuff but when my grade dropped because i didn't turn in a paper for my project my teacher started to yell at me my grade dropped from a 92 to a 86 i was like sweet but my teacher is a bitch and made me type up my paper T.T owell i'm not going to turn in another paper again tomorrow maybe OMG i'm failing history all because i didn't turn in a 5 page newspaper over the rough riders there is no way in hell i can do that and he his making me do it god i can ace the test that will bring up my grade but no i hate it when teachers dont understand your learning disability. well i got to go i'll talk to you guys later.

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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

nothing new

nothing really happened yesterday school started later then it should of because people were still testing so that made me happy and after school a bunch of us went to jack in the box and hung out at jons house playing guitar hero 2 and having a pillow fight. today is another late start but yesterday i missed the bus so my mom had to take me to school today i am leaving in... about 10 mintues from now so i make sure i catch the bus well i got to go i'll talk to you guys later.

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