Sunday, February 3, 2008

True test of forgiveness By Briana B.
You say you'll understand

So I put up my wall again

But you just break it down

You're taking over my life

I want you to go away

I can't breathe

I can't sleep knowing you'll find me

I look at the puddle of blood

And I see your soul

My tears have become your own

You clam that you won't hate me

But you can't see that you're lying

Can't you see that there's this wall for a reason

It's to block you out of my mind

But you won't quit

You break it down, screaming at me to stop

Can't you see I cut my veins

To end this pain

I have own problems

Don't you have your own

Stop making mine worse with your pity

I don't need it anymore,

I hate you just go away

Your voice is echoing though my head

Why you just let me rot and decay

Every one else has but you won't go away

Your stupid voice won't leave my mind

Every time you hug me it burns my soul

Your eyes cast away my hatred which I want to keep

You care too much for me

Go away

I'm screaming at you

You just stand there trying to stop the bleeding

Your laugh makes me sick

Your smile makes me want to break your teeth

Can't you see I really hate you

So why don't you go away

Why do you stay with me

Why do you cry for me when I push you away

Behind my eyes is an endless void of hate for you

I've always hated you

Are you that blind?

How can you not see the obvious!

I want you to die, your worthless to me!

Leave me alone!

You can't love me

It's impossible to love one as hatful as I

I'm too much of a burden

I cause everyone pain

God dang it, don't you understand

You stupid insignificant repulsive child!!

I hate you!

You annoy me to hell!

I wished your death to fall upon you

Thousands of times and yet here you are

Holding me

As I scream hateful things towards you

You stay right here

Taking it all in

Listening to my screams of hatred upon this world

Upon the humans that ruined my life from the very start

Feeling my fists pound against your chest

While my nails dig into your skin ripping it apart

I bite into your arm

Making you bleed

Waiting for you to scream at me

You just sit there taking it

Like it wasn't even happening

I glare at you through the thickness of my hair

You're looking at me saying with a voice full of worry

A voice full a care

"It's ok, keep screaming

Don't hold back anymore

I forgive you"

I call you a foul name and slam my fist in your face

You move only slightly

Yet still you hug me in place

I pound and scream

Bite and claw

Yet you still are there

Even when the night over

And it is Dawn

My energy is gone

Anger has died within my being

Now I'm just sitting here crying, never ending

I scream for you to leave me

To go and die already

Yet as I call you foul names and beat upon your body over and over

You stay by my side, saying you would forgive me for giving you this test

The test to see how forgiving you really are
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