Sunday, February 3, 2008

   Thank you By Briana B.
Dedicated to my big sister Missy, Devin, Katie, Tina, Todd, and Jenny. For being there when I needed you and when I did not. I love you all so much do not ever forget that. (Missy I love Todd as a friend)

I cried in your arms

I cannot thank you enough

I cried in the corner

You pulled me out and held me

I cried on the street

You brought me back home

I cried for 3 days with little sleep

You helped me finally dream

I can push you away

However, you'll come back

Demanding what is to be told

What is to be shown

Allowing me to cry in your arms

I can call you at 11:30 pm

And not worry of your anger

For you will listen to me as I cry over the phone

You will force me to eat when I am depressed

You keep me in arms reach when I am suicidal

You make me laugh to uphold my smile

I can complain to you for days

You will listen to them all

I can cry to you for months

You make my tears fade each time

I can call you when I need you

You will pick up the phone and be there

I can demand that you leave but you will stay

Worrying over me, making sure I am not dead

I can come to you shattered and broken

Hopeless and beaten

Crying and screaming

You will help me stand, and help me though

Helping me rebuild myself

With duck tape and chocolate

Laughter and smiles

Hugs and compassion

Dear close friends of mine

Who have been with me through my worst

Who have seen me fall

Seen me give up

You all helped me pull through

You were there when I needed you most

When I did not want you at all

I wish to repay you

However, I have nothing to give but smiles and hugs

I must thank my big sister Missy; for helping me through all those nights

Making sure, I see the light of day, making me laugh to hear my voice

Allowing me to stay those extra nights just so I can make sure, I will make it through the week. Letting me know that I am too nice and that I need to stand up for myself.

Holding me when I cried for Jenny.

I must thank Katie; for making me call her, letting me cry on her shoulder

When I could not hold back the tears, letting me know that I'm welcome at her home

Knowing that she will always love me for who I am, and feeding me every time I go over

I must thank Devin; for being my other big sister

Letting me cry to her over the phone, making the bad things go away

Even if it was for a little while, allowing my laugh to return

With her jokes

I must thank Tina; for listing to me complain for weeks at a time. Letting me express all my hate of this world to her. Knowing that she has been though a lot and will help me to stay alive just like the others.

I must also thank Todd; for giving Missy the words, I needed. Entertaining me with random shit. Allowing all my pain to disappear even for a little while

Finally...I must thank Jenny; for hugging me for hours at a time

Telling me everything was going to be all right when it wasn't

Making me laugh with her stupidity. Running after me if I ran away

Pulling the rope off my neck, pulling the razor out of my hands

Hiding the gun from my head.

Letting me know that no matter what, I should hold on to life

Because someone will need me one day as well

You helped me through some tough times

Well, we have a shit load more to go

Before I can be on the right path again

Nevertheless, you're getting closer to me each day

Letting me live a little longer each time I see you

Helping me in rebuilding myself

When I cannot find the pieces anymore

I pushed you away

I hated you at times

But you stayed by my side until I smiled without pain

Until I could sleep without crying first

Until I could laugh on my own

You helped bring back my long lost dreams

My lost love for humans

My lost voice that fell into a dark hole

I may not stand up for myself

But that is another battle on the horizon that I must face

You have done so much I cannot thank you enough

Because you brought back the missing girl

You brought back a missing smile

A missing laugh

A child who use to hate the human race and world

But you change that child

You opened up a locked soul slowly but here she is

Waiting to see you smile

Ready to fight the battles you face

The people who shall judge you

Arms open for a hug at any time

Ears waiting to listen to your problems or jokes

I may not stand up for myself for I am still fragile

However, I will stand up for you; I will protect you until the end

Because I feel,

That is the only way I can repay you my friends

For smiles and hugs just don't even come close to the repayment

And I love you all more then you shall ever know

Because I have been locked away for 13 years

And you have pushed your way through, making me speak

Making me complain

Keeping me alive when I thought death was my only answer

And that my loved ones, my take my whole life and longer to repay
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